Hey Guys! This is the VERY first Cardcaptor story I've Ever written! Aren't
you proud?!? ( I know I am. I must admit that after this story… well… a
little bit of Molly rubbed off on me. You will have to be the judge if that
is a good or bad thing. There are five chapters I believe, so I hope you
enjoy them! Tell me what you think. Thank you everyone, for everything! Let
the story begin! (P.S. I had just finished reading Jade Wing's story about
Sakura dying FROM A CAR CRASH!!!!! So when I wrote this I was a little…
okay, a LOT depressed. Be prepared for a happy OR sad ending. )
***Sakura***
It had been five years since I last saw Syaoran. I wrote constantly, but whenever I sealed the envelope shut I realized with a pang that I would never-could never-receive one from him.
I didn't know what was so important about the Elders. The Clan seemed to do more harm than good. Why? Why would everyone still put up with that? Wouldn't they all have learned by now? No. Obviously not. If they did, life would be fair. If they did, I would be married to Syaoran.
That's it! I've had enough! I can't handle this anymore. Each day I shed a tear. Each day… I realize that I have nothing to fear. I love him. I know it deep down inside of me. Before he left for Hong Kong, I found out that he loved me in return.
I know what I am going to do. I also know the consequences. It seemed stupid, to do this after everything that had gone on… but it is the only way. I can not stay here any longer. I have had five years to sit and ponder. I'm so sick of this I'm rhyming! Now, I am finally going to do it. Now, I am one hundred percent sure.
I left for the park; I had already written a letter to Tomoyo explaining what I was doing. I just hope she gets it before there is anything she can do about it. I used the key to get the staff, and then used the time card. I used fly, for what might be my very last time, and started on my journey. My destination: Hong Kong.
After a long period of time I finally arrived at Syaoran's mansion. I sensed his presence in the back yard and walked there, heart pounding. When I layed eyes on him I realized that I still loved him with all of my soul. He was incredibly handsome, and had the same exact eyes, that seemed to soften only for me. I didn't pay attention to all the other people outside. My main focus was Syaoran.
"S-Sakura?" he asked, as if it were too good to be true.
"Syaoran!" I smiled as tears welled up in my eyes. I ran to him, never wanting him out of my sight.
He ran towards me, arms outstretched his eyes half-believing. I laughed and cried and wanted to shout for joy! Now, the present was all that mattered.
He caught me in his strong arms and spun me around. His eyes sparkled in the mid-day sun. Then his lips
descended on mine and my legs turned to jelly. We are finally together. I'm not going to let what I planned to do ruin this moment; this kiss.
When he pulled away he still wouldn't let me go. "Sakura…" that seemed to be all that he could say. "I can't believe it! It's really you! You're here!" And then his lips were on mine again, longer this time, and more passionate.
Then I felt something all around us. I stiffened, and we pulled away, Syaoran's grip tightening around my waist. I didn't have to ask to know who these people were. They were the twelve Elders; the Clan. They were responsible for tearing me apart!
Syaoran didn't say, "You shouldn't have come." He didn't say, "Now look what you did Sakura, You endangered us both!" Instead, he said, Don't worry. I'm here. I won't let them lay a finger on you!"
I leaned my head against his chest. He always knew what to say, and he is always there to comfort me. Did I have to do what I set out to do? Is there any other option? Why was life so un-just?
Despite my fierce effort, tears formed in the edged of my eyes.
"Syaoran!" Boomed an incredibly loud voice. "You are not supposed to show feelings to anyone unless the Clan-"
"I. Don't. Care." Syaoran said angrily. "I love Sakura! I don't love the girls that you want me to marry! IT'S MY LIFE!"
I haven't heard anyone as mad as Syaoran was right now. I buried my head in his shoulder and he held me tight.
"The Clan has the most wisdom and will make the best decisions!" The voice said in a louder, more angry tone that I thought was not possible. "If you do not appreciate that then…"
I couldn't let Syaoran take all the blame. He shouldn't get the clan upset with him. It would do him more harm than it would do me. Anyway, I had to know why they despised me so much.
"Why do you hate me?!" I asked them furiously. "Why won't you just leave us alone? Why won't you let us marry!?!"
Syaoran stiffened. He looked at me, not realizing that I was going to say anything at all.
"Because," the voice sneered, "You are not worthy enough to marry him. You aren't even a Hong Kong resident."
"And…" another voice chimed in, "You are the Cardcaptor. It is not right for someone like Syaoran, with such great importance, to marry someone who has even more power than he does! It's not natural!"
"So that's the reason you won't let me marry her?!" Syaoran demanded. "To save, basically, the Clan's reputation?!?"
He clenched his fists and walked toward the Elders. I saw fire and lightning in his eyes. Now I knew it would never work out. Now I knew I had to do what I came here to do. Unwanted tears streamed down my face. The Clan always wanted to keep magic in the family, but no… I had too much of it.
"Syaoran…" I started. He turned around to face me, his eyes questioning. He stared, not understanding.
I took a deep breath and blindly stepped toward him. The only sound I heard was the crinkling of paper in my shorts pocket. Only I knew who the note was for, and only I knew what it said.
I stopped three feet away from him. He stood there, motionless, and the Elders could care less. They would care though… they would care once they figure out what it is I'm doing. Then, I released the key, for the very last time.
"Key of my star,
With power burning bright,
Reveal the staff,
And SHINE YOUR LIGHT!
RELEASE!"
Then, instead of grabbing the staff like I normally did, I walked over to Syaoran and lightly gave him a kiss on the cheek. This was my farewell. He knew it, but didn't want to believe it. "I love you Syaoran," I whispered. "And I always will.
I turned to walk back to the staff but he grabbed my wrist. "That doesn't sound like a farewell just for now, that sounds like a farewell forever," he said with a tight throat. He tried to clear his throat but it was useless. When I saw his eyes fill the tiniest bit with tears I had never felt so bad in my life!
I swallowed a huge lump that was in my throat. "It is." I was barely able to choke out the words. He looked so stricken and his hold on my wrist loosened. I pulled out of his grasp and walked back to the staff. I made sure I was facing Syaoran and the Elders again. I realized that a little crowd has formed but I couldn't see who they were because of my blurred vision.
Syaoran came up to me so that only the staff was between us. His eyes were full of so much sorrow that I had to look elsewhere.
"Take the staff," I told him firmly.
"What!?!" I couldn't tell if he was surprised, mortified, angry, or what. He stood there. Dumbfounded.
"Take the staff, Syaoran," I repeated patiently.
"But if I do…" He stopped himself, but I continued for him.
"If you do, when you do," I corrected, "you will be Cardcaptor. You will change all of the cards into your own and-"
"No!" He said strongly, cutting me off. "Do you even know what de- nouncing the cards means?" he asked incredulous.
"It's the only way!" I shouted, frustrated. "This way, we may be able to be together." I managed a little smile. "You will be the Cardcaptor, yet I will still have magic. We may finally be able to be together after all! We can marry and everything! Syaoran…it's the only way."
I turned my attention away from him and back to the staff.
"I, Sakura Kinomoto, name Syaoran, Li official Cardcaptor!"
After I shouted that the staff changed form. I was surprised, but glad none- the-less. That meant that the spell was working.
The staff turned green and grew a little longer. A little red jewel was studded into it, and the other part of the staff resembled a sword. It fit him perfectly.
I felt a sharp pain in my head and for the first time, I realized that I had a throbbing headache. I tried to ignore it, but I knew I had used way too much of my power to change the staff for someone else, and make it so that they were the Cardcaptor and could change the cards.
"Take the staff Syaoran."
He stared into my eyes and shook his head. "I won't – I can't."
"Yes, you can and you will," I said.
******Syaoran******
"Take the staff Syaoran," Sakura said, her eyes the only things that expressed her true feelings.
How could I? If I did, she would never…could never, be cardcaptor again. I would be taking this away from her. If I did, I would be alone trying to capture the cards (if there were any more out there) without her. It wouldn't be the same! I love her! I won't do it!
I shook my head, "I won't – I can't."
"Yes, you can and you will," she said strongly.
"Sakura," I argued, "Do you know what will happen once I take the staff?! Not just the little stuff, but the more important things. Sakura, you will loose all of your memories of the Clow Cards!"
She just hung her head, a single tear coursing down her cheek. It was then that I knew she knew what she got herself into. She knew the consequinces, and that scared me. How long had she been thinking this over?
"Good-bye, Syaoran. I love you," she said. As she turned to walk away I realized that those words would be the last ones I would hear her say.
"I love you too, Sakura," I said.
She turned around and smiled, her eyes softening. Then I saw her take a piece of paper out of her pocket. She opened it and wrote something on it, then tucked it safely into her pocket.
I knew there was no use. I had to take the staff, and that was what Sakura was counting on. I wish I could have stopped time and just am with Sakura forever. That wasn't an option though. If I didn't take the staff soon then all of sakura's magic would be used up and she would die! Not to mention all of the cards would be released once again. Then there wouldn't be a Cardcaptor! The world was in danger every second I would hesitate, and so was Sakura.
I reached out my hand and grabbed the staff. It felt warm beneath my touch. It grew to it's last and final length and then the glowing stopped. Now I, was the cardcaptor. I should have been shouting for joy, but the only thing on my mind was Sakura… as usual.
I looked over at her and her eyes were vacant with lust. She stood there, unmoving and unseeing. Then she started to sway back and fourth, collapsing to the ground.
"Sakura!" I shouted, horrified.
I ran over to her and lifted her head. She looked calm and peaceful, yet also sad. How could I have done this to her? Now she will never remember the cards, or even me! Why was life so unfair? Why, WHY, WHY?!?
I felt hot tears stinging my face. I knew she wasn't dead, but she was right when she said her good-bye was final. It wasn't final for her lifetime… it was final for her memories.
I brushed the hair away from her eyes. I slowly bent down, and pressed my lips to hers. I didn't know what I expected, whether it was her waking up and remembering me, the staff choosing Sakura over me, or what, but when I finally pulled away I was sadly disappointed.
Sakura wouldn't remember me, Keroberos, Yue, and barely Tomoyo. She wouldn't know that I loved her; she wouldn't know about her true feelings for me. Even if the Elders would let me marry her, she wouldn't want to marry me. What she thought was a win, win situation, just became a no win situation.
"Who are you?" I heard Sakura ask.
***Sakura***
It had been five years since I last saw Syaoran. I wrote constantly, but whenever I sealed the envelope shut I realized with a pang that I would never-could never-receive one from him.
I didn't know what was so important about the Elders. The Clan seemed to do more harm than good. Why? Why would everyone still put up with that? Wouldn't they all have learned by now? No. Obviously not. If they did, life would be fair. If they did, I would be married to Syaoran.
That's it! I've had enough! I can't handle this anymore. Each day I shed a tear. Each day… I realize that I have nothing to fear. I love him. I know it deep down inside of me. Before he left for Hong Kong, I found out that he loved me in return.
I know what I am going to do. I also know the consequences. It seemed stupid, to do this after everything that had gone on… but it is the only way. I can not stay here any longer. I have had five years to sit and ponder. I'm so sick of this I'm rhyming! Now, I am finally going to do it. Now, I am one hundred percent sure.
I left for the park; I had already written a letter to Tomoyo explaining what I was doing. I just hope she gets it before there is anything she can do about it. I used the key to get the staff, and then used the time card. I used fly, for what might be my very last time, and started on my journey. My destination: Hong Kong.
After a long period of time I finally arrived at Syaoran's mansion. I sensed his presence in the back yard and walked there, heart pounding. When I layed eyes on him I realized that I still loved him with all of my soul. He was incredibly handsome, and had the same exact eyes, that seemed to soften only for me. I didn't pay attention to all the other people outside. My main focus was Syaoran.
"S-Sakura?" he asked, as if it were too good to be true.
"Syaoran!" I smiled as tears welled up in my eyes. I ran to him, never wanting him out of my sight.
He ran towards me, arms outstretched his eyes half-believing. I laughed and cried and wanted to shout for joy! Now, the present was all that mattered.
He caught me in his strong arms and spun me around. His eyes sparkled in the mid-day sun. Then his lips
descended on mine and my legs turned to jelly. We are finally together. I'm not going to let what I planned to do ruin this moment; this kiss.
When he pulled away he still wouldn't let me go. "Sakura…" that seemed to be all that he could say. "I can't believe it! It's really you! You're here!" And then his lips were on mine again, longer this time, and more passionate.
Then I felt something all around us. I stiffened, and we pulled away, Syaoran's grip tightening around my waist. I didn't have to ask to know who these people were. They were the twelve Elders; the Clan. They were responsible for tearing me apart!
Syaoran didn't say, "You shouldn't have come." He didn't say, "Now look what you did Sakura, You endangered us both!" Instead, he said, Don't worry. I'm here. I won't let them lay a finger on you!"
I leaned my head against his chest. He always knew what to say, and he is always there to comfort me. Did I have to do what I set out to do? Is there any other option? Why was life so un-just?
Despite my fierce effort, tears formed in the edged of my eyes.
"Syaoran!" Boomed an incredibly loud voice. "You are not supposed to show feelings to anyone unless the Clan-"
"I. Don't. Care." Syaoran said angrily. "I love Sakura! I don't love the girls that you want me to marry! IT'S MY LIFE!"
I haven't heard anyone as mad as Syaoran was right now. I buried my head in his shoulder and he held me tight.
"The Clan has the most wisdom and will make the best decisions!" The voice said in a louder, more angry tone that I thought was not possible. "If you do not appreciate that then…"
I couldn't let Syaoran take all the blame. He shouldn't get the clan upset with him. It would do him more harm than it would do me. Anyway, I had to know why they despised me so much.
"Why do you hate me?!" I asked them furiously. "Why won't you just leave us alone? Why won't you let us marry!?!"
Syaoran stiffened. He looked at me, not realizing that I was going to say anything at all.
"Because," the voice sneered, "You are not worthy enough to marry him. You aren't even a Hong Kong resident."
"And…" another voice chimed in, "You are the Cardcaptor. It is not right for someone like Syaoran, with such great importance, to marry someone who has even more power than he does! It's not natural!"
"So that's the reason you won't let me marry her?!" Syaoran demanded. "To save, basically, the Clan's reputation?!?"
He clenched his fists and walked toward the Elders. I saw fire and lightning in his eyes. Now I knew it would never work out. Now I knew I had to do what I came here to do. Unwanted tears streamed down my face. The Clan always wanted to keep magic in the family, but no… I had too much of it.
"Syaoran…" I started. He turned around to face me, his eyes questioning. He stared, not understanding.
I took a deep breath and blindly stepped toward him. The only sound I heard was the crinkling of paper in my shorts pocket. Only I knew who the note was for, and only I knew what it said.
I stopped three feet away from him. He stood there, motionless, and the Elders could care less. They would care though… they would care once they figure out what it is I'm doing. Then, I released the key, for the very last time.
"Key of my star,
With power burning bright,
Reveal the staff,
And SHINE YOUR LIGHT!
RELEASE!"
Then, instead of grabbing the staff like I normally did, I walked over to Syaoran and lightly gave him a kiss on the cheek. This was my farewell. He knew it, but didn't want to believe it. "I love you Syaoran," I whispered. "And I always will.
I turned to walk back to the staff but he grabbed my wrist. "That doesn't sound like a farewell just for now, that sounds like a farewell forever," he said with a tight throat. He tried to clear his throat but it was useless. When I saw his eyes fill the tiniest bit with tears I had never felt so bad in my life!
I swallowed a huge lump that was in my throat. "It is." I was barely able to choke out the words. He looked so stricken and his hold on my wrist loosened. I pulled out of his grasp and walked back to the staff. I made sure I was facing Syaoran and the Elders again. I realized that a little crowd has formed but I couldn't see who they were because of my blurred vision.
Syaoran came up to me so that only the staff was between us. His eyes were full of so much sorrow that I had to look elsewhere.
"Take the staff," I told him firmly.
"What!?!" I couldn't tell if he was surprised, mortified, angry, or what. He stood there. Dumbfounded.
"Take the staff, Syaoran," I repeated patiently.
"But if I do…" He stopped himself, but I continued for him.
"If you do, when you do," I corrected, "you will be Cardcaptor. You will change all of the cards into your own and-"
"No!" He said strongly, cutting me off. "Do you even know what de- nouncing the cards means?" he asked incredulous.
"It's the only way!" I shouted, frustrated. "This way, we may be able to be together." I managed a little smile. "You will be the Cardcaptor, yet I will still have magic. We may finally be able to be together after all! We can marry and everything! Syaoran…it's the only way."
I turned my attention away from him and back to the staff.
"I, Sakura Kinomoto, name Syaoran, Li official Cardcaptor!"
After I shouted that the staff changed form. I was surprised, but glad none- the-less. That meant that the spell was working.
The staff turned green and grew a little longer. A little red jewel was studded into it, and the other part of the staff resembled a sword. It fit him perfectly.
I felt a sharp pain in my head and for the first time, I realized that I had a throbbing headache. I tried to ignore it, but I knew I had used way too much of my power to change the staff for someone else, and make it so that they were the Cardcaptor and could change the cards.
"Take the staff Syaoran."
He stared into my eyes and shook his head. "I won't – I can't."
"Yes, you can and you will," I said.
******Syaoran******
"Take the staff Syaoran," Sakura said, her eyes the only things that expressed her true feelings.
How could I? If I did, she would never…could never, be cardcaptor again. I would be taking this away from her. If I did, I would be alone trying to capture the cards (if there were any more out there) without her. It wouldn't be the same! I love her! I won't do it!
I shook my head, "I won't – I can't."
"Yes, you can and you will," she said strongly.
"Sakura," I argued, "Do you know what will happen once I take the staff?! Not just the little stuff, but the more important things. Sakura, you will loose all of your memories of the Clow Cards!"
She just hung her head, a single tear coursing down her cheek. It was then that I knew she knew what she got herself into. She knew the consequinces, and that scared me. How long had she been thinking this over?
"Good-bye, Syaoran. I love you," she said. As she turned to walk away I realized that those words would be the last ones I would hear her say.
"I love you too, Sakura," I said.
She turned around and smiled, her eyes softening. Then I saw her take a piece of paper out of her pocket. She opened it and wrote something on it, then tucked it safely into her pocket.
I knew there was no use. I had to take the staff, and that was what Sakura was counting on. I wish I could have stopped time and just am with Sakura forever. That wasn't an option though. If I didn't take the staff soon then all of sakura's magic would be used up and she would die! Not to mention all of the cards would be released once again. Then there wouldn't be a Cardcaptor! The world was in danger every second I would hesitate, and so was Sakura.
I reached out my hand and grabbed the staff. It felt warm beneath my touch. It grew to it's last and final length and then the glowing stopped. Now I, was the cardcaptor. I should have been shouting for joy, but the only thing on my mind was Sakura… as usual.
I looked over at her and her eyes were vacant with lust. She stood there, unmoving and unseeing. Then she started to sway back and fourth, collapsing to the ground.
"Sakura!" I shouted, horrified.
I ran over to her and lifted her head. She looked calm and peaceful, yet also sad. How could I have done this to her? Now she will never remember the cards, or even me! Why was life so unfair? Why, WHY, WHY?!?
I felt hot tears stinging my face. I knew she wasn't dead, but she was right when she said her good-bye was final. It wasn't final for her lifetime… it was final for her memories.
I brushed the hair away from her eyes. I slowly bent down, and pressed my lips to hers. I didn't know what I expected, whether it was her waking up and remembering me, the staff choosing Sakura over me, or what, but when I finally pulled away I was sadly disappointed.
Sakura wouldn't remember me, Keroberos, Yue, and barely Tomoyo. She wouldn't know that I loved her; she wouldn't know about her true feelings for me. Even if the Elders would let me marry her, she wouldn't want to marry me. What she thought was a win, win situation, just became a no win situation.
"Who are you?" I heard Sakura ask.