This is my first song-fic and my first Final Fantasy fic.
I liked this... I think I'll make more...
Kadaj, Yazoo, Loz and Sephiroth belong to Square
The song is 'All That I'm Living For' by Evanescence.
All that I'm living for
All that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
Kadaj woke up crying. It was always the same. He'd fall asleep and then Mother would be there, calling his name. Sometimes she'd embrace him, congratulating him for his progress in the search. Other times, like now, she would hurt him, hitting him and yelling at him for not finding the place for the reunion, and for being too slow. He tried to stifle his sobs, so he would not wake his sleeping brothers. He didn't want them to know what happened in his nightmares.
I can feel the night beginning
Separate me from the living
Understanding me
After all I've seen
Piecing every thought together
Find the words to make me better
If I only I knew how to pull myself apart
He sat up carefully and hugged his knees to his chest, his silver hair shining in the light of the moon streaming through the open window. Sometimes he wished he'd never been born, so he wouldn't have to sacrifice himself.
"I'm sorry, Mother," he whispered.
All that I'm living for
All that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for
Although I wanted more
Lock the last open door-
My ghosts are gaining on me
He stared forlornly out the window, pitying his own existence. He briefly thought about everything he'd been through with his brothers. He silently wondered if they had nightmares too, about their past. Suddenly a small choked sob escaped his lips before he could stop it. He froze as Yazoo began to stir next to him.
I believe that dreams are sacred
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby
Like a reason why
Like a play of my obsessions
Make me understand the lesson
So I'll find myself
So I wont be lost again
Kadaj lay down quickly, pulled the sheets over himself and pretended to be asleep.
"Kadaj? Are you okay?" whispered Yazoo, his shadow falling over Kadaj as he propped himself up on one elbow.
All that I'm living for
All that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for
Although I wanted more
Lock the last open door-
My ghosts are gaining on me
When Kadaj didn't answer, Yazoo reached under the covers and scooped him out from underneath. He hugged Kadaj close to him while stroking his hair gently.
"I know you're awake, Kadaj," said Yazoo softly, "And I know something's wrong."
Loz woke up then, upon seeing his two brothers also awake, crawled over to them and asked Kadaj why he was crying.
Guess I thought I'd have to change the world
To make you see me
To be the one
I could have run forever
But how far would I have come
Without mourning your love?
Kadaj shook his head slightly.
"If you're trying to say that you're not crying, it's obvious that you are, because you're dripping on Yazz," said Loz, using Yazoo's pet name.
Kadaj sniffled slightly and pressed back into Loz's waiting arms. The three brothers sat silently in a line, Kadaj held in the middle.
After a few minutes, Kadaj had calmed down enough to talk to them.
"...Mother spoke to me, in a dream. She's mad because we're not going fast enough."
"Oh Kadaj, why don't you ever tell us when you're upset?" asked Loz despairingly.
"I do!" protested Kadaj.
He wouldn't look at either of them. Yazoo put his fingers under Kadaj's chin and pushed his head up so he could see his face.
"Say that again," requested Yazoo quietly.
"Yazz, I--" began Kadaj, but faltered.
His sea-green eyes slowly filled with tears again.
All that I'm living for
All that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for
Although I wanted more
Lock the last open door-
My ghosts are gaining on me
"What is it that you're scared of, Kadaj? Tell us," said Loz.
"Becoming Sephiroth, making Mother angry again and losing you two," Kadaj whispered.
"You don't have to be afraid anymore. We're right here with you and always will be," said Yazoo gently.
"Thank you," came Kadaj's soft reply.
"We should get some rest, for tomorrow," suggested Loz.
They settled back onto the pillows. Kadaj's smile faded as Yazoo and Loz fell back into sleep.
They were wrong.
It had always been his destiny to die alone.
Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last door-
My ghosts are gaining on me.
I love the triplets!!! Reviews?