"Edward! Please!" I pleaded. I had to convince him that there was nothing left for me in my human life except for him. And even with my immortal life I would still have him-forever. "I can't stand it anymore! Please, just change me and we'll move to Alaska or somewhere!"

"Bella...is this just about you getting away from Charlie?" He looked at me disapprovingly. I was beyond furious with Charlie. Earlier today he gave me so many threats on marrying Edward, and even 'dating' Edward. Like he could control me and my decisions. My decisions were already made. Would no one ever trust me?

"Edward," I managed to calm myself down just a little, to convince him that it wasn't just that I was mad, that this was also what I truly wanted. "I am...mad...at Charlie...but, you know this is what I truly want. To be with you and your family forever. Your love is enough for me, it's all I need. And Renee is happy. She has Phil. I am ready Edward." His topaz eyes were sad, but there was a longing in them.

"Bella, will you marry me, if I change you? It really doesn't have to be anything big, I mean, we could go to Vegas and get married or Carlisle could even marry us. Please?" "E-Edward..." I thought. Maybe marriage wasn't such a big deal. It did kind of seem like a minor commitment compared to eternity, and I guessed it was a fair trade. "Vegas." I whispered.

He leaned in and started kissing me, tangling his hands in my hair. I wrapped mine around his neck, and I rolled on top of him in my bed. He didn't stop or push me away. Maybe I was actually getting what I wanted. But hoping would just hurt me more, even though I didn't care if I got hurt anymore. His lips brought a cold reassurance, and yet, more longing. I pressed myself to him. My breathing was heavy and my heart was beating violently. Edward slid his mouth down to my neck and kissed it while I caught my breath.

"Bella," He murmered against my neck. "How soon?" "Now." My heart pumped even faster with adrenaline. I felt him smile against my skin. "Not now. Later tonight at the soonest. Tomorrow at the latest. Shall I call Carlisle?" The longing and the eagerness was evident in his voice. As much as he wanted to keep me human, I knew that a part of him that I rarely ever saw longed for me to be a vampire, to be with him forever and always. I didn't argue with that. But his last question confused me.

"Carlisle? You're not going to do it?!" "Calm down, Bella." His lips were now at my ear. "I am going to do it. I need to call Carlisle to let him know, even though Alice probably already told him. I need to notify him so they can start packing and inform Tanya that we will be coming to Alaska. And we are going to need a story for you, why you've gone missing." "Oh."

He whipped out his cell phone and I couldn't even see the number he dialed. He also spoke so fast I couldn't understand him. But he sounded excited. I guessed this is what he called his 'selfish' side. He snapped his phone shut and managed a small smile in regret and apology.

"Carlisle is going to make arrangements as soon as possible tomorrow morning and they are going to start packing. Meanwhile we have to come up with an alibi as to why you've gone missing, left home, ect.. I am going to take some of your things over tonight and the rest tomorrow. It won't be a problem since Charlie will be fishing all day. Sorry it can't be sooner. The soonest we can be on the road will be tomorrow morning, maybe around ten. I am not going to risk changing you until we are situated in Alaska, so late tomorrow night probably. Sorry."

I smiled. It was soon enough. "So...what would you like me to take over?" He smiled my favorite smile. I showed him the first items I wanted him to take. But then I realized that depending on my alibi, I could only take certain things, although I was sure Edward would buy me everything and anything I wanted. Edward left me to think on that. As much as I was furious with Charlie, I still didn't want to hurt him or Renee any more than was necessary. This would be the last time I would see Charlie, actually, earlier this evening was the last time I'd see him.

The realization hit me hard so, I crept across the hall to Charlie's room. Probably a bad idea, as clumsy as I am. I'd probably wake him up. Oh well. He was snoring loudly, and his expression pained me. His face looked worried, even in his sleep. Just like the last time I saw Jake, this was not how I wanted to remember Charlie. But once again, I didn't have a choice.

"I'm sorry, Charlie." I whispered meekly. I stood there for what seemed like a minute or two, then tip-toed back to my room, where Edward had already returned, sitting on my bed. He could tell leaving also pained me, and his eyes were worried. I could feel the tears in the rims of my eyes. He motioned for me to sit in his lap.

"Bella, love, what alibi would you like to use?" "I want to leave a note for Charlie and send a letter to Renee, stating that I'm leaving. But...do you think they would try and find me? Would that be harder than going missing?" I tried to look up at his face and read his expression. He moved one hand to hold my face up, stroking my cheek with his thumb.

"Whatever you would like, we will find a way to make it work. You don't have to worry about them trying to find you. We can make it impossible for them to find you, if that's what you want. But no, I think leaving notes saying your leaving would be better. And, if you'd still like to keep in contact with them, you may tell them to email you, which is probably what they'll do anyway. And Bella, you should probably leave the money you have to Charlie. He needs it more than you do now, especially with you leaving." He leaned in and kissed me. It was as if Edward had Jasper's power, the way his kissing and reassurances could calm me.

Once he was done I nodded, and he handed me 2 pieces of paper, a pen, and an envelope. I wrote Charlie's first.

Dad,

I am leaving. I will be safe with Edward. Thank you for everything. I love you and I always will. Please take this money. I don't want it. I also want you to have the money in my account. I don't need it. Use it to remodel, or hire a cook. I'm sorry I'm leaving you. I will really miss you, more than you can ever imagine. I hope you will be ok without me. Thank you.

I"ll Love you forever,

Bella

Mom,

I am leaving. I will be safe with Edward. Thank you for everything. I will miss you so much, more so than I already do, and more than you will ever know. I know you'll be happy with Phil. I love you and dad more than you know.

I'll Love you forever,

Bella

I stiffled my crying as I sloppily wrote Renee's address on the envelope and slid the note inside. Edward took them from me and laid them on my night stand. "Bella, you can cry. It's ok." He held me tight against him and I let it out. I cried in his arms for awhile.

Once I was done, and tears still streaked my face, Edward tucked me under the blankets. Surprisingly, he slid under the blankets with me, for once not even putting a blanket between us to keep me from getting cold. He squeezed me to him and I put my face against his chest. I shivered but pressed myself even closer to him as he kissed my hair and my forehead. He was all I would ever want.

"Go to sleep, love. Sleep well, enjoy it, since you will never be able to sleep again." His breath smelled amazing, and he kept kissing me and stroking my hair as he hummed my lullaby.

The morning came too soon, and yet not soon enough. Soon after I woke up, Edward left to help make the final arrangements and take the rest of my stuff over, even though that was considerably little. I didn't have much to take to begin with, but I wanted Renee and Charlie to have things to remember me by. I took a shower and got ready.

But when I returned to my room, I was shocked to see Rosalie there instead of Edward. My face must have shown my surprise, because Rosalie seemed amused and smiled sweetly. "Hello." "Um, hi Rosalie." I stammered.

"Bella," Her voice became serious, and her eyes were concerned. "Are you sure about this? You can still change your mind. None of us would mind. I don't want you to do something you'll regret, and Edward agrees."

I sat down beside her on my bed. "I am sure this is what I want. Besides, I don't have a choice. The Volturi-" "But you do have a choice, Bella! You can stay human! You have everything right now, when your human! How can you want this?!" Bella, at least wait a little longer, please! You know Edward would never even let the Volturi hurt you! And if they were coming Alice would see it and Edward could change you! Please don't, Bella!" Her voice was full of frustation and pleading.

"Rosalie, I'm so sorry." I whispered weakly. "I want to be with Edward and you and your family-forever. There's only one way I can do that. I'm not going to change my mind. Please, please don't hate me for it." Now I was the one pleading. Rosalie sighed out of frustration and disappointment.

"I don't hate you for it...but...I...am kind of mad right now...and jealous...but it is your choice. I don't want you to make the wrong decision. I'll talk to you later. She attempted to smile weakly and ducked out my window. I might as well have a door built there as much as everyone used it rather than the actual doors.

About a minute after Rosalie left, Edward popped in. He looked hopeful, yet kind of cautious. Surely he had heard my conversation with Rosalie, or at least Rosalie's thoughts. "So...did you change your mind?" He kept his voice serious and calm, yet light in a way. "No, I want you forever Edward. Now."

"Well, all of the arrangements have been made and everything is ready. We're ready to leave. You're sure? I agree with Rosalie, I don't want you to do something you'll regret."

"I couldn't be more sure, Edward. It's what I want. I'm ready. Ready to be Bella Cullen for eternity." He smiled my favorite smile. Mrs. Edward Cullen. It didn't really sound right, but I knew that if it had to do with Edward it was worth it.

"Come on, my car's outside. They are coming with us to Vegas, and then we're going straight to Alaska. Of course, you and I are going to stop for food afterwards." His smile was breathtaking, it felt like my heart had already stopped. I carefully laid the note to Charlie on my bed and walked to the doorway, taking one last look at my bedroom. I did the same to every room in the house, stalling in Charlie's. Edward didn't mind at all, he was in no hurry.

At the doorway he scooped me up and carried me into his car. We went back to the Cullens' and met up with them. The house was vacant, as I knew it would be. But the memories it brought back hurt me for an instant. Edward grimaced and put his arm around me.

We didn't even get out of the Volvo. Carlisle led the way down the driveway with Esme, although I could barely tell that they left first. We followed behind.

"Um, Bella," Edward started after a little. "Can you do me a favor?" His voice sounded pleading. "Depends..." "Will you please sleep? I think you are taking for granted the little human pleasures you have. And I love seeing you sleep. Please?" His eyes smoldered as he looked at me, not even bothering to keep his eyes on the road. It made me feel like I would do anything for him-which was exactly the case. "I'm too excited...but I'll try." I sighed. He smiled in encouragement and started humming my lullaby.

My last dream was a good one, or at least the beginning was. It was my wedding day and everyone came-Charlie, Renee, Jacob, the Cullens, Angela, to name a few. And everyone knew that the Cullens were vampires, and our intentions to change me. It was great.

Edward and I almost got to the "I do" part when the Volturi burst through the door. They found out that I was still human and it was horrible. All the vampires were fighting and all I was worried about was Edward. But Caius got to me too quickly and killed me. Then it was like I was still there, I still saw what was going on. Edward was in pieces-emotionally. Even in my dream, it hurt so badly to see him like that.

Then he asked the Volturi to kill him. They did, I watched it happen and it couldn't even compare to anything I had seen in reality. It hurt me even worse than when he left me. But then I heard him yell "Bella!" But I couldn't see him, and I called his name and searched frantically for him. Then there was an earthquake.

"Bella! Bella! Wake up!" My eyes fluttered open and Edward was shaking me. Why did my face feel wet? And why was my heart beating furiously? Was that me screaming? Relief washed over Edward's face as he realized I was awake, but it didn't cover the worry. "Bella!" He hugged me and his ice cold arms made me alert.

"Bella, you were having a nightmare! I've never seen you like that before! What happened?! We should go back." "No!" I shouted as I finally recovered from the shock of realizing I was awake and it was just a nightmare. "We are NOT going back!" But I burst into tears again and cried in his arms. I realized that we were pulled over in a parking lot, with the rest of the Cullens nearby.

"What happened, love?" His voice was calm and reassuring as he took my face in his hands. I was sure Jasper was nearby. "You...were...dead." I choked on the last word. "I will never be dead." He promised me. "And neither will you." His thumbs wiped away my tears and I explained the rest of my dream.

"We should go back. You obviously miss your family and friends." He sounded sad, but he tried to be convincing. I didn't think he thought I was ready. "No, Edward! Please! Besides, if I become a vampire, none of that will be able to happen. No one will get hurt because of me."

He searched my face for a long moment. "Is the wedding still on then?" I nodded. "Stay here, I'll be right back." He left me in the car and I wasn't sure where he went, but he was back in a five seconds or less. His crooked smile lit up his face. "Come, Mrs. Edward Cullen." Edward took my hand as I shakily stepped out of the car, only to be attacked by Alice, and soon after, Rosalie and Esme.

"Oh, I'm sorry, Bella! I didn't mean to scare you! Come!" Her voice was high and she was excited-not good. Rosalie and Esme were smiling. Alice tugged me along to Rosalie's convertable. Rosalie already had the back door open for me and I sat down on the leather seat.

That's when I noticed all the make-up and beauty products on the seats and floor. "Oh no." I groaned. "Bella, if we have to, we will restrain you to the seat." Alice was serious but the idea of them restraining me seemed to be fun to her. I felt silly as they did my hair and makeup, especially with everyone driving by and parking.

Alice grabbed a black bag on a hanger from the trunk. "Come on, Bella. Let's get you changed. I was about to ask where but then I realized where we were. I gulped. We were already at the place where everyone got married in Las Vegas-I wasn't sure if Elvis was going to marry us or not. I wanted to ask what was in the bag, but I thought I knew the answer. I gulped again.

We went into the doors and found the bathroom, and Alice led me to the handycap stall. Alice handed me the hanger holding the bag and I undressed, putting off looking at what was in the bag until the last minute.

I gasped. Inside the bag was an elaborate-much too expensive-wedding gown. It looked like it was styled during Edward's era-when he was human. "Do you like it?!" Alice asked me eagerly. "Alice, it's beautiful! But it's too much." I couldn't even imagine what this dress must have cost. "Of course not! I wish you would stop worrying about expenses."

I gave up. I knew Alice wasn't going to budge, and it would make Edward happy... "Who picked it out?" I asked, trying to sound casual. "The three of us did! But we had to keep pictures of it out of our thoughts and find an extremely good hiding place for it so he wouldn't be tempted." "Bella, it means so much to him that you two are getting married-even here. It's what he's always wanted, so we wanted to make the occasion more...like if he was human and getting married if you know what I mean. What it would have been like if he was marrying you when he was human. But I hope you don't mind."

"No, not at all Esme." I said as I carefully put the dress on, fingering the beautiful fabric. I zipped it up as much as I could and stepped backwards out of the stall. "Um, could someone please zip-" I couldn't even finish my sentence before someone zipped it up. I turned around to show them. They gasped and cooed at how beautiful I looked-I hadn't even seen what I looked like after they were done with my hair and makeup

I stepped towards one of the mirrors and gasped myself. My hair was curled elegantly and half up-Victorian-style of course-and I was surprised to see that there wasn't even that much makeup on. I had beautiful pearl drop earrings also. I smiled in spite of myself.

But as soon as I turned around Alice was holding a pair of heels that looked like a death-trap. I felt my mouth drop open. "Do you want me to break my legs again?" "Bella," Alice stretched my name out and nodded toward Esme. She smiled and came over and lifted me up easily, while in less than a second the dangerous heels were attached to my feet. This was too much.

"Bella, you know Edward will not let you break your legs in them. And we will help you until you get to him. In fact, you'll barely have to walk at all." Rosalie informed me.

"Come on! Edward's ready!" Alice squealed excitedly. Alice and Rosalie more than half lifted me off the ground down the aisle to the front of the room, where the preacher (thankfully not Elvis) and Edward stood. It wasn't exactly how I had ever imagined getting married but I was happy for the most part. Especially happy about who I was getting married to.

Edward also let out a gasp at the sight of me, this was probably more than he could ever have imagined. But he quickly replaced the shock with a huge crooked grin of his. I smiled, too. The pace was too slow for me, but I imagined Edward was enjoying it. He gazed into my eyes with his own shining so brightly, his smile never leaving his face. The rest of the vampires sat in the front rows, also smiling. This wasn't as bad as I imagined-I think I even enjoyed it.

It seemed so quick, as we stared into each others eyes. "Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, do you take this womanto be your lawfully wedded wife?" "I do." Edward's voice was so velvet and warm it made my heart beat even faster, longing to kiss him. "And do you, Isabella Marie Swan, take this man to be your husband?" "I do." My voice was never so full of confidence. "Then I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride."

And Edward did just that. It was the most enthusiastic kiss we had ever had. He even went a little over the boundaries. He was so happy, so ecstatic, there wasn't a word to show it. My head was spinning wildly. But since we were in front of a preacher and his whole family-our whole family, the kiss ended sooner than we both wanted. He pulled his lips away from mine and his smile was still there. He sweeped me up into his cold arms and carried me down the aisle, the rest of the family in tow.

As soon as we were out the door, he continued to kiss me. Excitement washed over me as he continued to kiss me, it was over. It was a new beginning. In a few hours, I would be a vampire, beautiful and indestructable, and be with Edward forever. But then I remembered that I wouldn't be that way in a few hours-I would be that way in 3 horrible days. That pained me but it wasn't nearly enough to break my happiness.

Edward went at human pace, making the moment last as long as he could. I didn't mind one bit. But eventually he had to set me in the car, and break the kiss. "Bella, thank you. I love you more than words could ever explain." His eyes were shining, and very sincere. "And I love you more than life is worth, and more than words could ever explain." I smiled. He sighed and half smiled and half grimaced. "So eager." He said quietly.

This made me question. Was there some other reason why he didn't want me to be a vampire? Did he not want me to be like him? To be beautiful, strong, indestructable? To not become closer to him-physically? I was confused. Edward looked over at me and smiled, but then his face also became confused and upset.

"Bella," Edward frowned. "What's wrong?" His velvety voice was anxious. I wasn't sure if I wanted to talk about this now, what about later? I chewed my lip. I could lie, but he would probably see through it. Why did my emotions have to play so well on my face?! I decided on the truth. The sooner I got this over with, the sooner I could be with him forever. I sighed.

"Edward, is there a reason you don't want me to be a vampire? A reason other than that you don't want to take away my soul?" "Bella, other than taking away your soul, there is no other reason. I want you with me forever, whether you are human or vampire. Why would you ask such a silly question?" He tried to hide his curiosity but some of it slipped through. His words had calm me, until his question.

"I was worried that...that you didn't want me to be like you-beautiful, strong, indestructable, immortal-that you didn't want to be stuck with me forever." I trusted his driving but I hoped he was also concentrating on the road, too. "You never have to worry about that. I will want you forever, for infinity, no matter what. I will always want you with me, even if you are as strong and fast as me. Bella, that doesn't matter. I just married you and I'm going to change you whenever you would like, I'll be with you through every moment of the rest of this life, and the rest of your immortal life, if you still want me. I will never stop loving you, Bella." His velvet voice was fierce, and I could tell now that he meant everything he had said.

I thought about what he had said, and then I remembered he mentioned marriage. Which reminded me-I wanted to get this dress off. "Um, Edward? Could we pull over somewhere so I can get out of this dress?" He gave me his crooked smile. "I think you look lovely in it." And then he turned his eyes back to the road. He had better not make me stay in this dress. Then my stomach growled in response. For once I was glad.

Edward sighed, but still smiled. "Bella? Which restaurant should we go to? Would you like to get your favorite food since-" He didn't finish, and his smile turned into a grimace. Well, at least I would be able to get out. "Actually...Italian would be nice. Ravioli." I smiled. What time was it? Wow, I guess this would be one of my last meals.

I looked at the clock next to the radio. It was almost 4:30. Edward pulled over quickly to a fancy Italian restaurant that once again looked to be expensive. He took my hand and we walked through the doors, where we were greeted by a waiter.