Author's Note: So! Another Glee Kink Meme fill I am working on! Because I really liked the idea of this one! Again I cannot really take credit for the idea. I'm just doing the fill!

STORY WARNINGS: Okay... so this is AU and features kitty!Kurt. This story will have descriptions of child abuse. This story will have malexmale relationships and therefore contain sexual content. If ANY of this meets to your disapproval, please TURN BACK NOW. This story IS NOT for you!

DISCLAIMER: I own neither Glee nor the characters.

Beta'ed by 'xlinnex' aka 'AmbiguousThoughts.'

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Chapter 1

He hated the cold.

It wasn't just because he was part feline either, thus leaving him more sensitive to the biting chill than normal. It was also what the cold represented—at least for him.

For one Kurt Hummel, not only did the cold signal that winter was upon them, but it also once again drove home that he was unwanted. He wasn't needed. He wasn't worth the trouble his very existence seemed to cause. They had left him all alone to the cold, the sharp chill biting harshly at his exposed skin and sensitive ears. He tried to flatten his cat ears as close to his head as possible in an attempt to protect them as he shivered violently, but it didn't seem to be of much help. The crisp scents of winter stung his sensitive nose and when he tried to breathe through only his mouth, the cold burned at his lungs, leaving him to feel like he was slowly being suffocated. Like he was dying.

It was scary. Of course that was probably why he had been left to the cold winter night, alone and defenseless. They probably wanted him to die so he would finally be out of the way.

Trembling at the thought of dying, he took a quick look around the deserted streets in which he had been left through squinted eyes, trying to keep the freezing winds of the small winter storm at his back as much as possible. When no signs of possible shelter could be seen, he slowly pushed his quaking body from the shivering huddle he had been in, trying to gather warmth, to an odd stooped stance. The thin clothes he had been dumped with did nothing at all to protect him but still he tried to wrap them as tightly around his tiny frame as possible as he took a few tentative steps forward, watery eyes scanning for the best place to go—the place most likely to provide him with needed cover.

As he walked he slowly noticed how the aches from previous injuries and bruises began to pain him even more, now that his body was shivering violently from cold and trying to tighten in on itself. Of how his stomach rumbled hungrily, sapping him of strength with its protests. Of how his breaths started to come more quickly, though he never seemed to be able to draw in enough oxygen with each deep inhale.

That caused him to panic as memories of having seen people struggle for their last breaths came to mind. No. No! This couldn't be happening! Not to him. Sure, he was unwanted and had been left to see this fate, but he wasn't ready. Sudden frantic mewls for help started climbing up his throat before he could silence them. It was a little embarrassing since it was something he hadn't done since he had been a small child, but his body didn't seem to care about that now as he stumbled almost blindly through the storm until he came upon a small alley.

Collapsing into it, trying to find at least temporary relief from the wind, his panic only seemed to grow more when he found himself unable to get back to his feet. His arms trembled weakly as he tried to push himself up from the cold snow he had landed in, but they just wouldn't cooperate. They didn't seem to want to hold his weight anymore. Rolling onto his back so he could sit himself up that way proved to be just as futile.

Tears stung his eyes. Apparently his body was more willing to give in than he was. Well fine. He knew he couldn't do this if his body was against him as well. Curling into a ball he buried his face against his arms to protect his face as much as possible before closing his eyes.

-Chapter 1 End-

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A/N 2: If you go to my Tumblr at KeatonGrinFF . tumblr. com then you will find the link to the original GKM post on LJ if that is something you're interested in. You'll be able to see the original prompt too. :D