This is my third installment of my "faith series". The first two were written for Hannah Montana. I had the idea to start this series by reading Melody Carlson's books. These are Christian-based fan fictions and deal with subjects relating to it. These fan fictions are not intended to convert anyone or insult those of other faiths. This particular fan fiction deals with the subject of purity. It is in Darcy's POV and will start off right after Darcy took those risque pictures of herself for her MyRoom Page and will lead up to her rape, having sex with Peter, and etc. I don't plan on sugar coating anything, nor do I plan in going into too much detail, so although this is a Christian fan fiction it is mature. Sorry for the note. Upcoming chapters will be longer, this is just a prologue. PS. Looking for a beta!
The Faith Series 3: Degrassi: The Next Generation, Darcy's Story
Slow Fade...
Prologue:
One word. It's only one word, but whenever I hear it, I want to cry. Just one word can send me into a sea of memories tainted with sin and guilt. And with those memories, I plunge into doubt. How could God let these things happen? Was it punishment for my mistakes? Did God still do that? I know the punishment for sin is death, but if we ask for forgiveness, we are forgiven. Our sin is scattered as far as the east is from the west. But, I can't help but wonder sometimes. And all these thoughts, all this pain is brought on by that one word. Purity.
When I first pledged my purity to the Lord, I never thought it would become such a huge deal. I never thought it would be difficult to remain sexually pure. Oh, sure, I knew I'd eventually have a boyfriend who'd probably try to pressure me - but I would never cave in, no, I wouldn't. I'd have the strength of God to keep my will strong. I loved God and he loved me, I wasn't going to blow that by having sex before marriage. No way. That just wasn't me.
But as we all know, things change, and our faith is sometimes challenged. Sometimes, we just slip away from God without really thinking about it. Deep down we know what we're doing is wrong, but we don't let ourselves acknowledge it. We cover our sin up with phrases like, "everybody else is doing it, so why can't I?", "It's normal and even healthy", and "all that stuff in the Bible is just symbolic. It doesn't concern me." and so forth. I was once told this is the Devil getting to you, but I really think it's just our subconscious. If we want to do something that much, we'll find a way to justify it.
Being a Christian in today's world, or any world for that matter, is never an easy task. None of us are perfect, and attempting to be like Christ in a world so corrupt...is almost impossible. I am by no means saying that all non-Christians are bad people or that those who have sex before marriage are corrupt. I'm just telling my story. How I lost my purity. How some of my innoncence I gave away freely..and how some of it was stolen from me.
Purity. Those who are pure in heart shall see the face of God, the Bible says. I wonder, is anyone really pure?