A/N:Hi my fellow readers well im back with a new story that i dont think i can make boring but i wanna try be committed to this one so can i try to get 5-10 reviews before i upload chapter 2 please and thank you.I OWN NOTHING ON THIS JUST THE STUFF I MAKE UP..

BELLA'S POV

It was late at night,the sun was probably gonna come up in a few but i didn't care as long as i had Edward next to me.I snuggled deeply into his arms while his long fingers caressed my back. my disastrous 18th birthday party was almost a week ago and after we got home i guess when we started kissing we went way over his boundaries so i lost my virginity.I opened eyes and they met Edward's,I still cant imagine how a girl so clumsy and awkward as me could have snagged up a handsome god like Edward.

"What are you thinking?"Edward looked at me with so much intensity of knowing."Nothing really just processing the morning really." He stared at my bandage on my arm. "I wish you would you would stop staring at my arm."

"I wouldn't be staring if it didn't happen" I hated when we argue over little things like this.

"look it was an accident that's all, could've happened to anybody Edward."

"we aren't everyone,everyone is normal -"

I cut him off, "I get it Edward everyone has normal families and relationships but what if i don't wanna be normal i wanna be a vampire so we wont have these conversations anymore about my life begin put in danger,i wanna be with you forever...I love you Edward."

"o Bella, i love you" voice his voice was almost unrealistic i could tell he didn't wanna comment on what else i said..

-dream ended-

I felt around the covers like i would do every night since he left,that was one of the dreams i would have.I still cant forget how he left me in the woods and how stupid i was enough to try and follow knowing i could never catch up.I sighed hesitant to start my day off like i would always do:get up,take a shower,eat,go to school,ignore people,go to work,come home,fix dinner,eat my portion,go to sleep after homework.I don't see a point of going anywhere anymore since he took my bestfriends away from me too,i miss all of them.I made my way downstairs.

"Bella are you gonna be ok today going to school" I nodded my head.

"yea go ahead dad i will be fine its like every ordinary day."

"you know what i mean."

"no i don't know what you mean dad,spit it out, just say it"..its been kinda tense between me and charlie since...him.

"Bella im tired of this attitude you are acting like its the end of the world,i know he meant a lot to you but you gotta move on."

"bye dad." I got up and left walked out the door into the ancient truck.

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