Glowing, Blissful, Beautiful
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Should it ever be this hard to tell someone you love them?
Should it ever be a dilemma? Casually admitting to the simple emotion and complementing them with the thought that you care and love them…
…Especially when it is someone you care about.
People made it seem so easy…
But admitting to love is one thing that could cause it to end up lost. And once lost, love seems to hide, and it's excessively hard to find again. You desperately look for it a short time after loosing it. Hoping that one day, it will be back in your own hands. Then, only to discover it's in the most obvious of places, staring you right in the face. And you stare it back, trying to decide if you still have interest in this object you once cared so much about. Had you outgrown it?
No, I don't think so….
I mean, how could you? It was your pride and joy, something so meaningful couldn't have worn itself out in such a short time… or had it been a short time? How long had it been since you found love? How long since you looked at it without ignoring it.
Maybe it was the last time I saw his face.
Glowing, blissful, beautiful, and so utterly, disgustingly perfect a grown man could cry, I simply knew at that moment, I had found it.
But as always, the object that caused me so much joy…..
…..was lost.
And yet, I found it again, in the same condition of which I left it. Glowing, Blissful, Beautiful, and still so utterly, disgustingly perfect.
I think I cried.
You taught me that a subject to love is subjected to loss. Watching you grow, and become my enemy- nonetheless I proudly raised you as if you were my son. Even if we were never bound by blood, I was unnervingly bound to you. I cared; I simply wanted to protect you. Had I gone too far? Had I only thought about my own selfish need as I raided your pocket for my own self benefit?
Nevertheless I treated you TO mercifully when it really mattered. I watched as you stood tall in small times, using my own weapons against me. Taking what I had given you and relinquishing it in the short amount of time between each thud of my quickly beating heart. I watched as you rejected me, your face solemn and stoic, showing nothing but pity and remorse. Yet all I could do was hardly remain standing, but you can only bend so much till you break… and I crumbled. Begging and pleading as you left me, I had reduced to nothing but a pathetic moron when you only threatened to gain independence.
But then that time came… you gained everything you wanted.
I remember as I froze, as I hated you.
I hated you for not wanting to be with me…
…For leaving me alone.
I often ponder these things as I watch you, asking myself if you do the same, wandering if this loneliness haunts you as much as it does me. Do you see me, Alfred? Could you if you wanted to?
And these simple thoughts never leave me as I continue watching you, as I watch you come closer.
You're smiling and I'm left simply breathless, and even more so as you swoop down and steal my lips.
And then I'm reminded…
I'm not alone…
…Because do I have you.
I found it in the most obvious of places.
Glowing, blissful, beautiful, and so utterly, disgustingly perfect. You made a grown man cry.
I love you, Alfred.
EWLSHLUHLSJH(kills moment xD yaaaaay) horray for angsty fluff xD ahh well, broke the ice x3 first fanfic guys~! PLEASE REVIEW LEFGLJHLSUIDLHFUL ILL LOVE U FOREVER *A*
