Author: Edesina
Beta: -
Rating: T to be safe. Maybe the rating shouldn't even be this high.
Characters: Vivio, Fate, Nanoha, OFC, Signum, Yuuno
Genre: Angst, Romance, Drama, maybe little H/C…
Summary: Life is a rollercoaster. Sometimes everything is alright, sometimes not. But when your choices affect someone else's life, what do you do? How can you earn a lost trust or forgive someone? Or can you?
Disclaimer: Not mine :(
A/N: This is an idea that I've been toying with for a while. I think this fandom suits perfectly and I can write my OTP ^^ Two birds with one fic. Actually 3 but I don't want to tell yet what the third bird is. I know that I shouldn't start another long story but the idea is just too awesome.
Shed and Un-shed Tears
Life is full of mistakes. No one is perfect, after all. Some mistakes are easier to forgive and some… cannot be forgiven. Whether they have realized or not, they had made a mistake. Or many, at this point it didn't matter anymore. The worst had happened: the trust was shattered in pieces.
Can you forgive someone who has lied to you? Can you forgive the one you love if she hurts you fatally? Will you try to stay together to protect the one who matters you the most - your child? Maybe that is a wise choice, maybe not…
Prologue: Mistakes we have committed
The first rays of morning slipped past Venetian blinds and revealed a blonde crying girl. Next to her was half-asleep woman who looked confused. Whether touch her or not.
"Fate…" the woman murmured. Self-loathe and sadness dimmed her blue eyes. Fate sniffed and raised her head a little. Her eyes were redder than usual because she had been crying.
"Can we pretend that that never happened?" Fate begged and swallowed hard before letting her tears flow freely again. The other woman caught only a handful of words between sobs. "I… I shouldn't… I mean, Nanoha… And, Vivio too."
It was terrible mistake. The worst I had made ever. It was…
The other woman didn't say anything but guilt was written all over her face. She knew that Fate had Nanoha and they were supposed to just have fun evening in the bar. Nanoha hated those bars so she stayed always home with seven year old Vivio. They didn't have feelings for each other so why on earth had they woken up naked in the bed? It meant only one thing and they both knew it.
Fake was fully awake in seconds. The same nightmare kept playing in front of her eyes night after night. Confession was out of question, Nanoha wouldn't understand and besides Fate wasn't sure what had happened. She didn't have really urgent reason to tell Nanoha about that night especially because Fate wasn't going to repeat it. Still, three years and guilt and regret hadn't disappeared.
Nanoha wouldn't let her out ever again if she told her. The brunette was overly jealous which caused headache to Fate. Who couldn't Nanoha trust her? She wasn't really a party-popper but when she was in bar with a bunch of friends, she didn't want to answer calls or text messages every second minute.
Still, Fate knew she should finally tell Nanoha. Sighing she rose up. Clock wasn't even seven and Nanoha was asleep. She could tell her after morning practice.
…To cheat the woman I love.
The alarm clock showed it was nine o'clock on a Saturday morning. Nanoha sighed. She was in her bed, alone. Fate had obviously left for morning practice. Sometimes Nanoha wondered if Fate cared about her but then she remembered the blonde's words:
"I have to be strong in order to protect you and Vivio, Nanoha-chan."
Nanoha wondered if she and Fate should talk a bit. Between them was a great wall of silence. It hasn't been there before and Nanoha didn't remember when she noticed the secrecy between them for the first time. Had that black hole that gnawed their bong slowly been there from the beginning? Or when Yuuno had confessed his feelings to her and asked her to leave Fate for him?
It was terrible mistake. The worst I had made ever. It was…
Should she ask Yuuno or Hayate to take care of Vivio this night? Somehow she doubted that it'd be better for the little girl. That way they could speak more freely, they didn't have to worry about Vivio.
'Wait, it's not like we're going to shout,' Nanoha stopped her thoughts before they went nightmarish. Still small voice, the voice that always told the truth, snorted. 'Yeah, keep dreaming.'
Nanoha tried to ignore her fears but she still called Yuuno and asked him to come over. Yuuno was her most trusted friend who would help. Nanoha turned to Yuuno when she needed help because, she was shocked to realize this, Fate didn't seem to care at all. What if Yuuno was right? What if she and Fate were better friends than lovers?
No, that couldn't be it. She should trust Fate a little more.
…To marry a girl who cannot be trusted.
A/N2: So, any readers?
