You Say You Love Me I Say You Lie
Summary:
Anti-imprint, if that's not clear it definitely will be. This contains abuse, rape and other crimes. They are dealt with in an appropriate manner.
Hazel is new to town, because her father wants her to live with him. She's not your average high school student: she has 4 PhD's and is working on her 5th, leaving behind her best friends: Sam, Brooke, Tommy, Angel and Brandon (he's just a friend, right?) won't be easy but she'll pull through. Then Paul Meraz imprints on her... Great, right?
Not exactly: Not only does Hazel not believe in love but Paul is abusive towards every girl he knows. Including his best friend's imprint Kim. How does Jared not notice the bruises? Well, Jared isn't such an amazing beau either. Also, Maria (the "ugly freak" according to Paul) is broken because of Paul. Can Hazel fix Maria? Who does Hazel pick in the end?
Because even smart girls make dumb decisions...
Prologue
Paul's POV
"I hear some new chick is coming to La Push… because her dad is an elder, you know Jacob, the man Jacob Black was named after." Jared told me, or actually told Kim, when I was around.
"That's great that he's getting his daughter back, he's such a great man." Kim responded.
"Yeah, I think her name is Emerald. Maybe…"
"It's okay if you can't remember her name. I understand, sweetie." Kim said kissing his cheek.
Great, more imprinting fluffy goo between the never-ending love of Kim and Jared, kill me now. Why does my best friend have to be whipped? Why do all the cool people in my pack have to be whipped? Sam, Jared, Quil (well Quil isn't that cool but… he's the coolest of Black's friends) have all imprinted! Why am I tortured to watch lovey-dovey lovers?
So intelligent, but no one ever accused me of being smart…
or caring.
Suddenly, Maria, a blonde white girl, who I love to torture walks by.
"Oh God I think I might puke!" I yell loudly.
Kim looks away; she knows that if she stands up to me I'll hurt her when Jared isn't around. She hates how I treat Maria; I think her reaction just makes me be worse. Maria used to be her only friend. Now they haven't talked. I have made Maria my perfect punching buddy.
How great is life? Even imprinting- something that should be pure- can be tainted.
…In Harvard…
"I love her… and I'm not letting her go." The brown haired boy said, sitting on the ground so he could cling to the girl's leg.
"I feel as though you are showing signs of insecure attachment." The blonde haired girl said tripping to end up in a spilt.
The laughter erupted in the room.
"Hazel… do you know that doing a split is unnatural for most people?" A small girl, Brooke, pranced over to try and de-tangle the "couple" on the floor.
"I had no idea Brooke, now help me out here!" The blonde girl, Hazel, said rolling her eyes.
"I think this is a job for, TOMMY!" Brooke said, prancing away to retrieve a boy in tight jeans and a tight blue tee shirt.
"Sorry if this hurts you, Brandon." Tommy said, taking Hazel by her feet, and pulling her up, till she regained control of her own body. Or enough control to wrap her legs around Tommy, so her toned stomach was in his face.
"Be careful, Tommy, Brandon knows your gay but he might be a little possessive." Another, taller girl, said.
"SHUT UP, SAM, WE AREN'T DATING!" Brandon and Hazel yelled at the same time.
"And everyone knows that if Hazel had a dick, or I was into boobs, we'd be fucking right now." Tommy said.
"Thank you, Tommy." Hazel told him, looking down to meet his eyes.
"Everyone knows your dating." Angel said, a tall muscular teenage boy said from the corner.
"Pro, save us from these idiots!" Hazel called.
Suddenly the old Professor Smith came into the room. Hazel described him as "her own connection to the best person in history- A.E., Einey-steiney, the One, the Only Albert Einstein!" because of how smart "Pro" was and also because his hair was a mess of white and grey that wouldn't behave. Now, some might call Hazel and Brandon "special" because they hung around with Pro, but he was the reason that before 17 they both 4 PhD's.
Pro, as Hazel had lovingly named him, was a professor of Higher Mathematics at Harvard University. He had worked with the board to get 12 year old Brandon and Hazel into advanced night classes because their mothers didn't want them missing out on their childhood but agreed their children were geniuses and something like that needed to be nurtured, so each of them had gotten 4 PhD's- Mathematics, Science, Computers and English, now Hazel was going for a PhD in Psychology as Brandon worked in the Medical Sciences. Now their IQ's were somewhere around 190, higher than Einstein's reported IQ (Einstein never took an IQ test).
Now Hazel was being dragged across the country to "finish high school".
Because now her dead beat dad decided he wanted to have Hazel and would stop at nothing, including using his position as an elder to say, in court, he was "more responsible than the trash Hazel was living with now".
Apparently Hazel throwing something and cussing him out did nothing to impress the jury, especially when the head juror was hit with the pen that was aimed at her father.
So this was her good bye, I'm glad you have a camera, talk with us every day, and don't let your grades fall party. After this party, Brandon would drive her to the airport where they would cry and she would board the plane and cry some more, then she would get cleaned up and sleep or play on her lap top.
Hazel boarded the plane with tears in her eyes. They continued to come as she spent the whole time typing away at her lap top. She clicked "send" as the announcer came over the PSA to announce that the flight was about to descend. She buckled her seat belt and turned the lap top off. Thank god, she'd stopped crying. She but her lap top in her carryon bag and took out her sweats and make up bag.
She exited the plane, got her other two or three bags and found Jacob, her gene contributor. No, not biological father, she looked like her mother, but somewhere in her DNA a scientist could trace it back to him.
Maria's POV
Why is Paul so mean to me? I know I'm the only white girl in school and that I'm ugly but why does Paul have to remind me every day? I know that I should go die… and I've tried to grant Paul's wish. I'm just too much of a failure to succeed at suicide.
Paul's best friend- Jared- took my best and only friend away from me. Kim Conweller, well now it's more like Kim Greene (Jared Greene). Now whenever Jared and Paul make fun of me, Kim just acted like she couldn't hear anything. Kim used to at least calm me down and be my shoulder to cry on after Paul called me fat and ugly now she just hides her eyes.
Hazel's POV
"Body to body, skin to skin…"
God, what am I doing? I know I used to do this a lot back home but Tommy and Brandon were there to protect me. The first guy who feeds me some line about "you're beautiful" and now I'm practically fucking him on the dance floor.
And no, it's not because of all the things he's saying to me.
This is how I relieve stress.
Unfortunately, I think we go to the same school.
I also think he thinks this is going somewhere.
But right now Paul's- Paul right?- erection feels so good against my back and I dig into him. I'm in love with this feeling of pure sex goddess. I can make a guy want to have kids with me.
I was bullied when I was younger but now having complete control over a guy, someone who may have bullied me, feels intoxicating. I know I'm addicted to using my looks to get what I want- but why is that so bad? I won't sleep with anyone- hell I'm going to say I'm a virgin.
What he did doesn't count, and that one time Brandon and I were wasted because of an experiment- well did we do it?
But this type of control- once you've felt it there's no going back.
A/N: So, this is my first story posted on this account. Um... This is going to be anti-imprint. (Let's just say Paul and Jared get abusive).
If it isn't clear Hazel does have a... past. This story does not deal with that past. You find out what it is but she has put the past behind her. This story will not focus on Hazel's past because although she may not be "baggage free" she doesn't have "baggage". However Kim and Maria do. This is the healing story of Maria and Kim (hopefully?). And people like Hazel and Brandon do exist just to be clear. They are defined as "geniuses" with photographic memories, they both are slightly based off of the Criminal Mind's character Spencer Reid (in other words: the sun in a human being... dreamy!)
Also the signs of abuse are well researched if later in the story your current relationship reminds you of Kim and Jared's (or Maria and Paul's, although they aren't in a "relationship") you should talk to someone, a trusted family member or friend. This story will get intense. I am going to do research and post sites to help with abuse victims along the way. If you have resources you would like to share please feel free to. This may be a work of fiction but it deals with real life problems- emotional abuse is hard to understand and can be subtle. Remember: if you feel uncomfortable in a relationship you have the right to say "no" and end it.
So I have all the main character's "theme songs" except Paul's. So if any songs remind you of Paul, tell me and it could be his "theme song".
Hazel: "Watch Me Shine" by Vanessa Carlton
Brandon: "First Love" by Lifehouse
Kim/Jared: "Hands Clean" by Alanis Moriesette (Kim is the chorus, Jared the verses)
Paul: ?
Maria: "At Seventeen" by Janis Ian
