When You're Gone
Summary: Loki is alone; Stark to the rescue. Loki/Tony Stark one-shot.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Marvel; song belongs to Avril Lavigne.
This chapter is rated T because of a dark situation; I promise though it turns good in the end.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
Loki threw the tumbler across the room, shattering the glass mirror and the cup itself. He banged his back against the wall and slid down to sit.
He put his head between his legs and covered his head with his arms. His body shook with every cry.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
Stark was supposed to be home days ago, but never showed up. No calls; it felt Loki feel cold inside.
He looked back up in the broken mirror, reflecting many broken pieces of his faces. He ignored the tear running down his cheek and crawled over to the mirror, running his fingers down the shards.
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
He wondered for a second if he could physically die. He picked up a shard off the ground and stared at it. The edges were sharp enough, he thought to himself.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
Loki bit his lip hard when he sliced the shard through his wrist. He wanted to scream out, but waking the neighbors wasn't much of an option right now.
As quickly as he had picked it up, he threw the glass across the room and held his wrist. He almost forgot to breathe; his tears had their own mind now as they flowed like waterfalls.
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do
He looked over on the floor through his tear-filled eyes to the closet. He crawled over the best he could while holding his wrist. He opened the closet door and searched frantically from on the floor.
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When he found the black T shirt, he ripped it off the hanger and hugged it tightly against his chest. He fell back onto the floor to lie down, closing his eyes. The pain in his wrist didn't go away, but he pushed it into the back of his mind.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
Loki barely noticed the sound of the door closing until a shadow fell over him.
"Loki," he heard the familiar voice choke out. Loki jumped at the voice and sat up quickly, trying to wipe the tears off his face.
"Don't be mad…" he practically whispered.
Tony dropped the package he was holding and sat down beside Loki in a heartbeat. He looked deep into Loki's eyes and then looked down at his wrist.
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me, yeah
"What are you doing?" he asked, concern written over every inch of his face. He grabbed Loki's wrist and examined it.
"I didn't think you were coming back," Loki replied hoarsely. Tony grabbed Loki and embraced him, holding the back of his head tight.
"Why would you think I would be mad?" Tony asked when he pulled away.
Loki said nothing, only showed Tony the Black Sabbath shirt, stained now with blood.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
"You're more important than a lousy shirt," Tony said, wiping the rest of the tears away from Loki's cheeks. "I can't buy you if I lose you."
Loki smiled for the first time in weeks at Tony.
"Let's get this place cleaned up," Tony said, smiling back. He helped Loki back up and quickly bandaged Loki's wrist up.
And for the first time in weeks, Loki felt at home and was more hopeful than ever.
I Miss You.
A/N: I'm no good at these endings (although I still believe this one was better than Away From the Sun).
This one was emotional to write. I've never really struggled with self-harm, but I know it's completely preventable and there is nothing in this world that is worth killing yourself over. 3 There are always people that love you and will support you, and they are willing to help you if they truly care. No matter how many 'friends' turn out hating you, no matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend breaks up with you, no matter what, suicide is dangerous but it is completely treatable! Don't let yourself get involved in the wrong crowds, and although it's easier said than done, NEVER listen to the negativity thrown your way. The people that are negative would prefer to see you dead, so hold your head up high and prove to them that they won't control your life 3
