Shoutan
Chapter one
A/N: Okay, this is my first attempt at a Gundam Wing fic that has no OC. Uh…it has angst, action, and Duo has a slight split personality problem. So…on occasion he will talk back and forth to himself. Well…R&R! ENJOY!!
~flashback/dream sequence
"Hilde!" Duo screamed, jamming the controls on his damaged gundam from pushing too hard and too fast. "Damned broken piece of shit! Come on move!" His head jerked up at the mobile suit that he knew hilde was piloting. He had just heard her scream come to an abrupt halt…was she dead…?
~end dream sequence
Duo awoke with tears streaming down his face and a cold sweat covering his entire body. He covered his face with his hand and wept quietly. "Hilde…" He sobbed. "Why did you have to die!? Why did you die!?"
'Get a hold of yourself Duo!,' he ordered of himself mentally after a few minutes of crying.' You're supposed to be the God of Death…death shouldn't bother you…but she was my angel…"
Duo's nights were filled with dreams of Duo's "fallen angel", Hilde. As time went on…he fell deeper into depression. And it got to the point that the God of Death welcomed his own end…but none of the gundam pilots were prepared to let him go without a fight.
~one year after Hilde's death
"Come on Duo!" Quatre yelled.
"I told you I didn't want to go." Duo muttered from the top of the stairs. "Can't you just leave me alone?"
"Duo…you used to love amusement parks…"
"And you used to hate them! I can't go out and have fun! Not without her…" Duo yelled, falling to his knees, and beginning to cry.
"Maxwell, you weakling." Wufei said stepping out from behind Quatre.
'I hope this works,' Quatre though. 'If it doesn't…Duo may end up in more pain after than he already is in…'
"Are you so weak that you can't continue to live just because you lost…"
"Shut up Wufei!" Duo screamed. "You have no idea what I'm going through! You have no idea what this pain feels like! Everyone I have ever cared for ends up dead."
Quatre took a step toward Duo but stopped when Wufei laid his hand on his shoulder. "He needs to figure this out on his own Quatre." He said quietly. "The best thing we can do for him now is to make sure he doesn't hurt himself. But I really think he's stronger than that."
Duo bit down on his lower lip and tried to stop crying. 'Why did this have to happen?!' He asked himself silently,' Why does everyone I care about die!? Why are the gundam pilots the only people still alive that I care for!? Am I cursed!?'
Quatre glanced back at Duo as Wufei led him out into the kitchen. 'this just seems so cruel,' he thought. ' I feel like I'm letting him down by not at least trying to help him through this…but maybe Wufei's right…maybe I'm helping him more now than I could otherwise.'
It took Duo a few minutes to compose himself to the point that he could stand. And when he did he walked down five stairs and sat down, his face in his hands. "I can't do this!" He whispered, " I can't live without her…Hilde…I need you…"
