Octavia sat in camp watching her brother mope around getting on with his job, training the cadets. He had been so distant lately, and although she hated to admit it she knew exactly why he woke up, he did his job, and went back to bed again. She knew it was because he missed Clarke, she knew it was because he needed Clarke.

She sat there watching how he moved, his shoulders were slouched and there was no steadiness in the way he walked. Since the day Clarke left she had watched every ounce of Bellamy drain from his eyes. She hated watching him like this and she couldn't help but feel it was her fault. Hell, it was her fault she had been the one to push her away. Octavia knew that what Clarke did was wrong and she hated Clarke for it, but she made Bellamy happy, and that's all Octavia wanted, she wanted Bellamy to be happy. She couldn't watch him like this anymore, she walked off to her tent tears began to flood her eyes, for once in her life she didn't stop the tears that were coming she just let them flow.

Lincoln had been keeping a close eye on Octavia the past few days, he knew how guilty she felt, but this time he couldn't stand by. He left his station and walked over to his tent and found Octavia sobbing into her sleeve "Octavia, what's wrong?" Lincoln asked the girl he held in his arms.

"I have been blaming Clarke for so long, but everything she did, she did for Bellamy." Octavia cried.

"What's wrong with that?" Lincoln said puzzled at her comment.

""How could I blame someone who was trying to protect the person I love, I'm wicked, I made pushed her out and that's why she left." Octavia sniffled "I thought if she left Bellamy would move on."

"Octavia pl…" Lincoln began.

"But Lincoln, that would of never worked because what I realise now is that Bellamy loves her, every bit of her, he doesn't care about what she has done because he knows who she is, and I fear he will never move on."

Lincoln had no words he just squeezed her shoulders and let her cry into his shoulders, he knew that she was right, he had seen it long ago, and he just never had the guts to admit it.

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Days passed and Octavia couldn't look at her brother without her eyes filling with tears, she couldn't take it. Octavia had changed so much since her first day on the ground, she was braver and she was going to use this to talk to Bellamy.

She put on her brave face and walked over to her brothers work station "Bell, we need to talk." Octavia said to her brother who wasn't facing her, he didn't take any notice of her "BELLAMY WE NEED TO TALK RIGHT NOW!"

Octavia shouted, at which her brother turned to face her "About what O, there is nothing to talk about?"

"You and I both know that that is absolute shit."

"Why O, what's wrong." Bellamy said mocking a worried voice.

"The problem is, is that you aren't happy any more, you aren't yourself and nobody likes to see you this way." Octavia said reaching out for Bellamy's arm.

"I'm fine O." Bellamy said turning back to work.

"Ok Bell, see you later." She could barely hide her tears as she ran away to her tent; it was almost night so she decided that she would just sleep. Sleep had been very hard for her to accomplish, but this night she slept very well until she woke up just before noon. She climbed out of Lincoln's arms and headed to the Med Bay, where she grabbed an emergency first aid kit and then she left.

She walked up the gate surrounding camp grabbing a gun on the way, when she got there a guard look at her nervously as she tapped the fence with her gun "Open it please." Octavia said nicely.

"I have orders not to open the gates." The guard said with panic in his eyes.

"If you don't open the gates, you won't ever take another order again." Octavia said as she pointed her gun at the man.

He didn't take a second chance he grabbed the lever and then pulled the gate open. Octavia ran she didn't even know which direction she ran in.

She only knew one thing she was going to find Clarke…