Series of oneshots bases on words. Sporadic, possibly delayed updating, bu there will be updates.

For James, you rox some sox, pwnz the competition, and kick some ff orz. Kudos to you.

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"You ever think about God, BB?"

"snrrk- Cy, where did this come from?!"

"I dunno… I was just thinkin'."

"…"

"…"

"Well, I guess, I mean, you can't not think about it right? Isn't that what makes you… uh… you know…"

"Human?"

"Yeah… I'm just askin', I mean ya don't have to answer or anything-"

"No, no, it's fine, I just… where did this come from?!"

"Hey, I actually think about deep stuff sometimes green bean… unlike some people…"

"I think! About stuff!"

"Uhuh."

"I'm serious!"

"Yup."

"Dude, that's not cool…"

"Well, I mean, I was in the T-car yesterday, and I passed a car accident…"

"Mmm."

"And, you know, there was blood and stuff."

"Yeah."

"So…. I kinda stopped and looked at it for a while. And I thought- What happens when all the lights go dark?"

"Hmm."

"So… I've just been thinking about it lately, ya know?"

"I guess. Nobody really knows, and no matter how much you wonder it's not like you're gonna find out or something."

"I know that! But… you don't wonder?"

"… …"

"No at all?"

"I try not to."

"Aw, BB that can't be healthy…"

"So what? The business we're in, I don't want to think about it! Any fight, Cy, you know? Any fight and it's done. It could be the smallest thing and suddenly it's over…"

"Woah."

"Yeah. And what happens? I don't know. And I don't think I wanna find out now."

"…"

"…"

"I believe in reincarnation."

"… What?"

"You know, after you die you get reborn in another life? I think that happens."

"Oh that's stupid… who would want to do this all over again?"

"Cuz… uh… you don't… uh… finish stuff. I don't know!"

"Uhuh."

"Ok, Mr. Avoidance. What do you think happens?"

"I don't know! I told you that!"

"Oh come ON, you've got to have some sort of theory or whatever. You can't go through life and NOT have one-"

"Yes I can!"

"No you can't!"

"Yes I can!"

"No- you- can't!"

"Yes I can TIMES INFINITY!"

"… Dang."

"Yeah! Suck on THAT tin man."

"Ha Ha. But seriously BB. You don't think about it at all?"

"… no."

"I think you're lying."

"Oh yeah?! Well at least I'm not being all morbid and emo!"

"Thinking about what happens after you die isn't emo! Come on, just tell me!"

"…"

"Beeeeeeast Boooooy… come ooooooooooon!"

"All right! Will you shut up and let me rez people in peace then?"

"Yeah sure."

"Ok… well… uh… I kinda thought… you make your own afterlife ya know?"

"… … … um-"

"I mean, you, like, make… what… happens to you or something. Like, you make your own heaven, or you make your own hell, or you… uh… yeah."

"Wow."

"Really?"

"Yeah. That's pretty deep BB-"

"Heh. Thanks."

"I don't know. I still believe in reincarnation."

"Psh."

"Wouldn't it be cool if we just… respawned, like in double-u Oh double-u?

"Yeah."

"Find your body and you're "rezzed". Heh."

"It takes so long though, in the Barrens…"

"Well yeah, they only have that one graveyard or whatever- Look out, P versus P toggled elf behind you-"

"Whatever. I can own him- taurens are cool like that-"

"Yeah well, they're not cooler than gnomes-"

"Oh PLEASE-"

I start moving again from where I had been listening in the hallway. I shouldn't eavesdrop, I'm usually good with things like privacy, but I never thought I would hear those boys talking about that. Of all things.

I pull my hood down as I enter my room. I stride to my bed and lie down, stretching and yawning. We had fought with Plasmus the day before, and we were all rather sore.

But…

Death…

What does happen?

Being a half-demon, I like to think I know. The only fate I am completely certain of is my own. I know little of what will happen to the others, when their shells die and their souls are released. I know they move on, to someplace else, a different plane than this one. Something that I have never been able to reach in all my meditation and dimensional travels. I know where it is, as much as you can know where a dimension is located.

In my mind's map of these locations it is something I cannot grasp. It's simply a blank spot, but it's not blank, because I know something's there, yet I can't see it…

It frightens me…

For what is this place that I cannot penetrate?

Will I not be able to enter it? Ever? Am I banned from it? Is it because I'm what I am? Or is it because I'm not completely released yet, that my soul still has purpose for this shell and clings to it, preventing me from seeing what this blank holds?

I sigh, pushing threads of hair from my eyes. I turn over. I'm tired. I want to sleep…

…I think, though…

Beast Boy's idea… it rings around my head like an annoying fly, I don't want to think about it, but I do because I have nothing better to focus on…

Yes…

I like what he said…

To be sovereign of, of yourself… your very soul, and what happens to it-

For once-

Would be lovely…