A/N: Disclaimer- I do not own Maximum Ride!
Iggy prov…
I lay in my room just thinking. Thinking about how my life means nothing. There is nothing that can make me change my mind about that. I can't help with fighting. I can't see what I'm doing. If somebody moves something I need help. I let out a sigh. My best friend smells bad. And I hate my other best friend. Fang.
Every night all I can here are them giggling down stairs. It makes me sick. And every day after that, when I come from my room they are still giggling. Then when I try to get away from it, and just talk to Max about whatever, she always talks about Fang. I can't stand it!
I just wish I was Fang all together. He is smart, dark, funny, and from what Nudge said "Really Hot". Hell I would date him. It just hurts. To know I don't have any chance with her. My one true love. The one I would love, Protect, and remain fateful too.
I have no clue if she knows if I like her. It wouldn't matter. He's still perfect and I'm still the blind kid over in the corner feeling colors. I'm a loser.
So I just lay here. Just thinking. I started spending a lot more time in my room since they started making out. Gazzy describes it as the worst nightmare he will ever have. I agreed. Lots of times I think about killing myself or making a move on Max. Well either way I'm going to die. I told one person that I like Max. And I didn't ever tell her by will. You guessed it, Angel. She told me everything will work out in the end. But that was a while ago. So I think she was lying.
I sighed again when I heard a knock on the door. "Yeah?" I said in a not so thrilled voice. I really didn't feel like talking to anyone.
"Hey it's me." It was Max! Then I calmed down and thought she doesn't like you get over it. "Anyway can I come in?" she asked.
I was about to answer when I sat up. I stretched and rubbed my eyes. I felt something wet in my eyes. Oh great I am so depressed I am crying. See useless.
I got everything out of my eyes and ran up and opened the door. "Thanks, nice bed head. Did I wake you up?" She asked. I was now embarrassed.
"Oh, uh, no, no I was just sitting here. Thinking. Ya know." I didn't know what this was all about. "So what's up?" I asked hoping to get this over with.
"Nothing just thought that you wanted to talk you seem kind of, I don't know private. Have you been crying?" she asked as she touched my face lightly. Where I had felt the tears.
"NO!" I couldn't swallow my pride so…. "I just spilled water on my eyes…" I heard her laugh. She walked me to my bed.
"Sure." We sat down. "So what were you spilling your water for?" She asked while leaning back on my bed.
"You don't need to know and it doesn't concern you." Total lie. "I just want to be alone ok? Please can you just go?" I was sad after I said those things but I couldn't take them back.
"Ya know, ever since you've been up here you have turned into a real jerk." She said right before slamming the door to my room. I blew it. I could hear her going down the stairs kind of like a stomping way. I thought well I should go say sorry.
I was at the top of the stairs then heard right around the corner, Max and Fang making out. I couldn't believe it! She was just yelling at me then 2 seconds later she's down here sharing spit with Fang!
I came down the stairs louder then I should have. "What the Hell?" I said a little quieter than a yell.
Fang pulled away from the kiss and stared at me. I could feel him getting mad that I stopped the beloved kiss. "What? Can't I kiss my love?" He said. I knew there was a smile on his face and I am pretty sure he was looking at Max. That word. "Love" he doesn't know what that means. I hate him so much!
"She's not your love Fang!" I stopped myself. "Never mind." I turned and walked outside. I could hear Fang say "What the hell dose him mean?" then Max say "he just doesn't know. But I love you" she said as she gave him one more kiss before she started walking toward me.
She got in front of me. I could tell she was trying to look into my eyes but it was failing. "What?" I finally said.
"Why did you say that? And why were you so mad?"
"Did you ever think of someone besides Fang?"
"Yeah all the time, Angel, Nudge, Gazzy, You."
"What? YOU LOVE GAZZY?" I said freaking out. I mean come on I love the kid but really?
"What? No I meant like as in I always think about you guys."
I calmed down. "Oh well do you ever think of liking anyone else?"
"No. Why?"
I could feel tears run down my cheeks. Again embraced. I mean I just got my heart broken what am I supposed to do?
"Iggy? Are you okay?" her soft sweet hands were on my face again.
I grabbed her but the wrists. "You will never understand that everything, my breathing, my fighting, my heart beating is because of you! I keep myself alive just in case that 1 and 100,000,000,000 chance of her liking me comes true. And I know it won't but I still hope and dream it will." I ended my phrase and without thinking leaned in and pressed my lips against hers. They were soft and the best thing I ever tasted. Fang was such a lucky son of a beep. The fireworks went off in my head. But all good things have to come to an end. She didn't kiss back. I sighed. I knew this would happen. I'm not Fang.
"Iggy, Get away from Max!" I heard Fang yell. His footsteps were coming at me. This was the fight I have been waiting for! I heard his foot leave the ground as he jumped to tackle me but I didn't move fast enough. He brought me down. We were rolling down thing grassy hill. We were both punching and kicking each other. Then I felt like I wet myself. But thank god! We had landed in a pond at the bottom of the hill. As soon as I heard him come up for a breath I jumped on him. I punched him square in the jaw. Awww too bad he can't kiss Max for a while! He got right up and kicked me in the ribs. Then punched me in the gut. I fell under water. I came up about 30 seconds later. When he got out. Max was down here then she clung to Fang.
"God Damn! I'm out of here!" I got out of the water and started walking to my room. When I got there I started packing. I came across something that I loved. My liter. I didn't smoke at all. But what I did was I took a pair of teasers then put them over the fire heated them up, then cut myself. So I sat there doing that for a while. Until I felt all dizzy.
"Iggy? Are you okay? Oh My God! Fang get in here!" Max said freaking out.
"What?" then he looked down. "Oh crap". That was the last think I remember until I passed out. I woke up the next morning in my bed. It was warm and I had a bandage on my left arm. The one I cut. I cut the left since I was always Max's left hand man.
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