Konnichiwa! This will by my first story EVER! So don't expect some magic to go down(I am but a simple worm).
Over all as far as my creativity goes, it usually doesn't go further from eating(jk, just drawing).
Whenever I discover a really good plot in a certain anime, I just can't help myself and have the need to start a story of my own. I'm going to be bluntly honest, I'm not here to win an award since my writing is as good as a 5th grader :T
All I want to do is write down these bothersome thoughts that piled up, and somehow find inner peace with my tiny otaku-self.
PS: I am definitely not a professional writer so I'm not going to be writing a book here(As you can see yourself, I already have enough chapters and I do see mistakes in them as time goes by and my creativity broadens.I will take them up and fix them).
But for now, that is it for this long ass guide in case this story won't live up to your expectations. I do not own any rights to Hunter x Hunter or any of their hot-mess-characters, this is only for my own entertainment and I will use them as I please!

-The text in Italic will be a persons thought. I will change the point of view of a character every now and then so I hope it won't end up being too confusing. This story definitely will not be meant for minors or people who cannot stand gruesome storylines. I do not have all of the plot out and ready so I can't guarantee what sort of text will wait ahead. Also I might use some Japanese terms time to time. *bows and opens the door to my imaginative side* Itterasshai~


^- This line will cut the persons point of view

The forgotten day

'' Environmental change was a myth they said. Well look outside for once and tell that to us again! Jackasses!'' I thought to myself grumpily as I stared outside of the window.
The weather was disgustingly humid, dark because of the clouds, and just plain ugly in the city. The change of pace was clear as day light as little to no people were outside anymore. Even though this was the capital, the weather always seemed to play a key role in customers.

It was all fine and dandy that I was getting payed to sit here and do nothing, but I wasn't the type of person who liked to sit still and do nothing.
If I was meant to be at work, then I expected to work. My muscles were aching to do something since the boredom was killing me at this point. ''Is this supposed to be summer? So pathetic. Its only 4 P.M and there is not even a single soul outside. Do I have to pick my split-ends again until I can go home? Yea, fun..'' I complained to myself almost every passing minute now.

Even though I was this whiny inside my head, I usually kept a rather neutral expression so people wouldn't get the wrong impression that I wanted to murder them at one point.
Even though I managed to keep a rather calm face naturally, inside I was really hateful towards the world. Most of the media was full of bull-crap that others went along with, and people around you all pretended to be caring and loving whereas the next moment they would go and spread nonsense about you that wasn't even true, simply to just complain and seem important to others that they know something their so called friends don't.

But not everything was lost. I had nothing major to complain about my own life aside from the two-faced rats around us.

On the contrary - I had a very stable life which was better compared to a lot of other people in the world.

I have a warm home where I live with my mother and my cat. I have a job that pays well and a best friend who I could never lose to anything on this miserable planet. And yet again, everything irked me. The way these petty people acted and thought, only made me dislike everything even more.
One moment you would find something great that humans did or discovered, and the next is you seeing some idiot things that normal people can't even compose in their head, simply because their not that stupid.

And sitting here with this awful cafe music that seemed to play at every god damn place, irritated me even more since I had nothing else to think about right now.

Oh how I wanted to be home right now. Be home and drink tea. Maybe later harass my cat while watching some anime. Or just tease my friend, if I could ever be as good as her. I was always surprised at how well we fit together since we always nagged and made fun of eachother. But I guess we're just a match made in heaven after all. ''Heh, maybe later I'll call her and we can go for some cake. I miss her annoying voice already - my whining buddy, my soul partner who I would never have a meal without!''

''..ru.'', a faint sound from the back of the kitchen echoed, but I didn't pay attention to it since I wasn't the only person in this cafe at the moment.

''I wonder if I should go grab something to eat after work, or go for that cake. If I manage to get off early enough to run to the store that is. So maybe cake it is.''

''ARU!..''

I jumped up from the counter to look behind me, and I could literally feel my heart sink to my gut from that sudden shock.

''Jesus fucking Christ..'' I huffed out loud as I calmed down after seeing my manager walk up to me from the kitchen. ''I thought I was gonna die for a moment there, don't scare me like that, Kate''
She laughed as she approached me and reached her hand out to ruffle my hair.

''You won't though, there there!'' She babied me, tried to mock me.

On a side note, I didn't really mind people messing up my hair since it was short anyway. But I was cursed with straight hair that didn't really do anything else besides.. well, be straight. It was fairly easy for me to fix my hair as if nothing happened, and some of my close acquaintances always made fun of it, because they had to struggle with their curls or waves. And funnily enough, I envied them as they did me.

But back on track here:

Kate, my manager, was shorter than me, so when she looked up to me I couldn't help but smile at this simple action, as she was the one who looked like the kid.
'' You know very well that that won't be enough to annoy me'' I finished fixing up the last strands of hair from my face.
'' By the way, did you call me before? I think I heard something but I guess I wasn't paying attention'' I watched her walk around the counter as I asked that.

'' I did call you yea, I figured you were daydreaming about hot guys so I thought I'd come here and get your attention back.'' She commented with a straight face and I had to snort at that.

'' Not entirely wrong there, but cmon. You know when I'm bored I think about food.'' I leaned my arms on the counter as I watched her write some stuff in her notepad.

'' That's true. No man can win your heart over a delicious meal and dessert.'' She laughed after saying that and I grinned at her at how well she knew how my mind ticked.

''But aside from that, looks like the weather won't change much for the time being,'' I said with a more bored tone this time, while again, looking around the place, and back at her.

''Pretty much yeah. I saw the weather report, and it is most likely going to stay like this for another two weeks. I have no idea what's up with the weather this month. I know it's been going worse by the year, but even people on the smart-ass-net kept saying that what's been happening around here is fairly odd. The last time something like this happened was almost two or more centuries ago. No idea where they even get that info, but yea.''

I furrowed my brows and sighed out deeply after hearing those news. '' Well at least there's something interesting out there for those people. Studying the weather and what-not-''

I sighed, ''This sucks. I was hoping to go to the circus at least one upcoming day before they take a hike from this city. Guess I have to wait for another time.'' I stretched my body and leaned myself against the counter to let my back rest a little.

She looked back at me while I whined about such small matters.
I had slowly grown tired of being patient as days went by with this ominous looking weather for the past three weeks. Even the news said that this kind of thing is new for this season and that there will be a lot of thunder storms coming along with temperature changes.

Kate rested her head against her palm and kept gazing back and forth from me and the clock. '' Yea, it's no fun like this. I wonder what's going on in the world.''

'' Yea, the only country where nothing happens, Earth picked the right time to fuck us over - pardon my language, I shouldn't curse infront of kids.'' I looked a little shocked as I stared at her and she simply whacked her notepad against my head.
A giggle escaped my mouth while I pretended to be in immense pain.

'' Exactly, hasn't your grandma ever taught you ANY manners?''She spoke back, dramatic like a small brat.

We had our fun as we chatted away for a little bit more until Kate got a phone call and she excused herself for a moment.
Light raindrops could be seen on the windows as I glanced around for a brief moment. It didn't even surprise me that I spotted some hail on the other side of the house while in the distance some sun rays could be seen shining through the thick clouds.
None of this surprised me. ''What's next, thunder and snow?'' I commented sarcastically.

I glanced back at Kate who had been looking at me for a little while and I raised an eyebrow at her while smiling.
''What is it ?'' I asked after seeing her have a smug look on her face. She giggled a little and just pointed at the computer that was infront of me.

I glanced at it, still looking at her confused. Her smile broadened and she tapped the screen with her pen. ''You can sign out for today. There won't be any guests today, I'm sure. And even if there will be, I think I can manage. They don't call me manager for nothing, y'know~'' She giggled after saying that and I smiled back at her.

I straightened my back as I felt like I was growing into an old woman and grunted as I felt the bones crack.
'' Hmmm if you say so, but don't come calling me in an hour saying it's a full house and that I need to come back. Because you know I won't.'' I tapped on the computer screen several times to check out.
Patting her shoulder once, I took my leave towards the ''Staff Only'' door and walked with my hand in mid air, waving, ''Cya around tomorrow then.''

'' Bye Aru, don't die on your way home!'' She teased and giggled at the same time.

''As if anything in this world can kill me. Stop hoping for too much!'' I shouted my last two words at her before closing the changing room door behind me and locking it. I still heard Kate say something, but I didn't quite hear what, so I just started changing out of my work clothes.
I put on my black shirt which was tight around the body, but wavy and wider from the bottom. It could almost be viewed as a dress. Along with black tights and a pair of white creamy colored shorts that had ribbons at the side of my legs so I could pull the leg openings together and tie them up in case it was too windy outside.

I took my warm, and quite a fluffy looking jacket with me while grabbing my bag and headed out of the changing room. I looked at the mirror one final time before turning towards the kitchen door, ''Cya guys! Have fun at work, and don't tease Kate so much when I'm not around. You're gonna make me miss out on all the fun that way.'' I shouted out to Riku and Kain, our chefs who made the best food in my opinion.

I didn't cook for myself, but depended on my best friend Aya to make delicious dishes for me. So, so far my other ability, next to being annoying and whiny, was to criticize someone else's cooking, because I was spoiled to the core.
Aya loved to cook anyway, unlike me. So when ever she called me and said to come over, you bet your sweet potatoes that I went.

''Ja ne, Aru!'' Riku and Kain both yelled after me when I was basically running out of the door and waving at them.

'' Finally I'm out of this place. Now..my music, I need my own little world, I can't stand acting any more casual than I already have to everything fucking day..'' I was looking around in my bag for my player, while walking towards the bus stop that was ten minutes away from the cafe I worked at.

''Now I can block myself out of this world and the noise.'' As much as I never had anything against any of the people who I interacted with, I never found most of them interesting enough to truly enjoy their company. For me a friend was someone who I could connect with, joke with, whine with and share painful experiences with.
For me, everyone else, be it a good or a bad person, were just humans I could talk to- Just people to kill some time with - But not literally! God, I wasn't a depressed lunatic or anything.
So, the only person I could ever truly be myself with, was Aya. I have known her for more than half of my life because of school years. And I'm already 21.

Time goes by so fast nowadays, that I don't even know how I can manage to do so much in my life that I have planned ahead for now. ''I'm going to be so old once I finish with university and get our business running.''

I walked down a familiar street that I always did when going home. I mostly liked listening to anime sound tracks, theme songs, plus some catchy K-pop songs that I simply couldn't get out of my head once I heard them. But when it came down to wanting to relax, a nice relaxing new-age jazz was always on my list, along with classical stuff and some old rock.
You gotta be a potato of culture, obviously. You can't have just one thing rot your brain, but multiple things!

''Yogoto kanageru… re~quiem-u,kanjita yo sosoritatsu hodo ni, oishisou de ne~ mitsuketa~.''

Yes, I was singing along in my head. It is Hisokas character theme song and the lyrics are pretty gruesome in many ways. Not to mention just plain.. Hisoka-like.(If there's anyone out there who is curious enough, go check out the english lyrics; They are entertaining on their own ^^)

The lyrics are utterly creepy and that's just the reason why I like the song. There are many weird and twisted things in this world that I like. One being a lot of complicated character from tv shows, movies and any animated show. The character that I just mentioned, on the other hand, is but of course, one of my favorite chazies! But a lot has to do with the psychological side to things.
When it comes down to peoples characteristics, I can't help but think how they think, and by what were they shaped into who they are.
Having a mom who works in the law department helps along with that. You get the luxury of watching crime shows and pretty fucked up movies at an early age.

When you ask me what kind of a person is interesting and attractive, then my only answer will be '' weird ''. You can't simply be a dried up sponge who you can't squeeze and have nothing happen to it.
And when I say weird, I don't mean that you need to be into licking feet and secretly wanting to dress up as a little boy. But you should have enough character which catches someones eye in one way or the other. You can obviously be normal around others, but you should have your quirks which only a hand full of people like, or possibly love.
In my case, if the person is in control of their thoughts and actions, has a strong personality and will, and a few kinks here and there, then yes, you will have my full attention. You can even be silly and whine as your mouth is full, but just.. don't be a dry sponge.

I switched through some more songs as I dragged my feet along the ground until I felt a shiver, simply thinking that it was going to rain soon or something.

But it turned odd when I felt goosebumps going down my spine.
'' Well, that's what you should expect from this weather,'' I thought, as if what ever has been going on, was normal at this point.

I looked up to the sky and only saw dark gray. ''Hmph, yea, just float around there. Stupid clouds..'' I pocketed my hands because I could feel the cold wind slowly biting on my skin and started to walk faster through the alley way that I had turned to a few seconds ago'' I'll just go around then. I'm not having that shitty wind blow in my face for another 7 minutes.'' I walked by some old dumpsters and a whole lot of newspaper stacks. This place was literally a dump. '' Why hasn't this place been cleaned up.. It's going to go all over the place with this storm.''

As I was thinking to myself just then, something hit me from the inside, and I stopped.

There was immense pain that cut my breathing for a moment, before I realized that I wasn't breathing.

My face went pale and I stood in shock. I strongly patted my chest to remind my body to function and take a deep breath.

I burrowed my eyebrows in confusion. I didn't understand why I felt like that all of a sudden, or what came over me.
My whole body trembled for a minute, before I started to notice that my breathing kicked in and my heart rate slowed down faster than I had noticed. It made me feel sick to my stomach as my blood circulation was slowing down.

''What the fuck.. Is this the same thing that happened a long time ago? I only felt like this once in my life and that was only because I was stressed out and hadn't eaten anything. Why is my pulse so low right now.'' I had a million questions going through me in that short time I was standing there. My body became colder as I stood there, feeling so damn weak.

I sat down on a random box next to me so I wouldn't actually fall and hit my head. ''This is not good at all. I hope it fades away, I don't want to be sitting here forever in this weather.'' I started to slowly panic in my head when I saw my hands shaking. There was also a moment where my muscles felt like steel.''It's like I'm sitting in a snow blizzard that my muscles are freezing up like this. What in the fuck is going on with my body.''

I just sat there staring at my hands. I clearly realized that I was in shock, and that I should act and do something, but I had nothing go through my brain except worrying about what might happen next. Everything else was thrown out of my brain - everything that was useful at least.

''Now I feel sick to my stomach too. Great. Just wonderful. I swear if I get sick now or get some illness I'm gonna beat myself up for catching something. I know very well my body is not this weak to catch some dumb cold.'' All I knew what to do, was to either wait for it to go away or actually find some place warm to go and possibly call my family doctor or mom and see if it's anything serious.

''I guess I should try and go back to the cafe for now and drink tea. I can just call a taxi if I feel like I can't go home anymore.'' As heavy as my body felt at the moment, I tried my best to push myself off the cardboard box that I had stumped on to take a break.

My legs failed me and I crumbled back down on the box.
Now that I had sat down though, it was likely that my body would give in to the gravitational pull more easily since I was growing weaker by the minute for some reason. ''Lack of blood circulation and air .. this can't be good.. Is this for real..''

I started to feel lightheaded and I tried to take deeper breaths so that my blood flow would reach my brain so I would be able to do SOMETHING.

I lifted my hands to hold onto my head, and rub it slowly, while lowering it down on my bent knees. ''UGH! I feel so crap!'' I almost shouted out loud, hoping that my voice would make this feeling go away.

I gripped onto my head more when I actually felt like I couldn't bring myself to even hold my balance while sitting. ''I wanna sleep in my warm bed right now. This is not how I wanted to end up, after getting off from work early. Should I call Kate?''

That seemed like the best option and I tried to reach for my bag. It was hard to move my arms, not to mention to get the zipper between my fingers to get the bag open even. All of my muscles felt frozen and my fingers seemed to have forgotten how to work properly.

''This is just pathetic. Come on Aru, you're not this weak. People die of diseases and get killed, and here I am, struggling to open a zipper!?'' I was having a battle with my mind and body. Whilst I knew it was such a simple task to accomplish, my body was denying any action.

''I feel like a rock.'' I sighed in and out deeply, giving up on the priority in getting the phone out of my bag. ''Maybe I should try and walk.. this isn't a good spot to be at..''

''Is anyone there!?'' I shouted out a bit louder than I normally would, knowing there wouldn't be many people out in this weather, especially around the place where I walked by from.

''Ugh. Just.. whatever.'' I closed my eyes and rested my hands on my knees holding them out in front of me. I put my head on my knees as well and in between my arms. I took deep breaths, hoping that my vision and blood flow would stabilize.

It was't happening though.

I suddenly felt my heart ache in uneven ways.

''what in the world…'' I still had my head down on my knees. And with a really heavy and a shaky arm, I tried to move it over my chest and feel the rhythm that my heart was making. It was drastically slow, too slow. My eyes widened in shock and I started to tremble. ''This is a joke right… I'm not that old to be having heart issues. Why is this happening!'' I kept asking myself that in my head. ''Maybe I should have studied up on how to be a doctor instead.. I'd know what to do right now..''

There was another rough beat. I gripped onto my jacket as tightly as I could.

This time it felt like electricity went through my body that ignited my cells with tingling pain.

''Maybe this happens when a persons pulse is too low, that it's giving out signals to the body. It has to be. There is nothing wrong with me!'' I kept reassuring myself with that thought alone, when suddenly noticing that my hearing had dimmed. All I could hear from my music was low sounds, like someone had stuffed cotton in my ear and I was unable to make out the words.

I tore the headphones off after struggling to get my hand over my head.
They simply fell on the ground, and I couldn't care less. The ground was wet and I couldn't care less that they were in the muddy wet puddle below my feet. Nothing mattered at this point, where I was struggling to understand what was happening to me and how I can get myself out of this. My mind was crammed with all kinds of worrisome ideas that it blocked out everything else around me.

It hit me again, a sudden electrical surges.
Now I was holding onto my chest tighter with both hands, simply from pure reflex, shaking as I was trying to endure this horrible feeling. It was like trying to keep something from popping out and tearing me to shreds. ''This is not happening, it just can't be. Why me.. why now..''

A small passing thought came in my head after coming to a drastic conclusion of everything that was happening right now. And it certainly wasn't a good idea.

''What if I die… what if I die in this fucking alley and nobody will come. I can't even move myself..'' I was panicking too much to even notice that it started to rain a few minutes ago. All I could feel were those electric pulses going through my body and my body was trembling from the shocks. ''I don't want to die here. Not now. PLEASE! I still.. my friend.. There's nothing-''

The need to cry was crippling in my throat, but I had absolutely no strength to even do so. All I could feel were the warm tears forming in my eyes that began to fall along side the rain.

''It ..hurts…'' I managed to whisper as the pain was becoming unbearable at this point. I could barely hear my own words and I began to silently cry to myself as I had no option to help myself out of this situation. My world was slowly crumbling around me, and even inside of me. My head was a mess and I couldn't even console myself, because my thoughts were too loud, and everything else that was going through my body, was deafening.
I was just sitting here, in pain, alone. I couldn't even call out for help, not even a squeak.
My teeth rattled against eachother and my eyes were burning from the tears that were falling. I could barely even see. My own breath was so raspy and uneven that I didn't even know if I was even breathing at this point.

It slightly hurt to breathe as I was trying to find that one shred of sanity left in me.

But the electric pulses did not stop. They kept hitting me and draining my energy with each passing moment as I was trying to keep myself up and functioning.

I felt my head spin as if I was suddenly thrown into a pool and there was a tornado inside it. At this point I was not able to even focus what was in front of me anymore. Everything was happening so slowly, yet it was all a mess and it seemed to go by so fast.. The pain felt like an eternity. My head was killing me, and I was slowly realizing that I was not able to keep myself together for much longer. My body grew more icy and stiff as the colours started to drift from one tone to the other.

..Why I had not moved in the beginning was still a mystery to me. Why did I stay there and sit like an idiot. Why didn't I do anything right away when I started feeling off.

.. But.. how could I have known. How would someone expect something like this to happen to them.
I wasn't a sickly person, nor was I physically weak. Sure I had my ups and downs when I was very young, but I was an adult now. I wouldn't have these sort of issues hit me out of the blue unless I was very ill.
I hadn't mistreated my body in any way.. so why .. how did it come to this. What triggered this body to break down and act like this.

No.. this didn't help. The more I thought, the more my ideas how scrambled and nothing seemed to make any sense anymore.

That's when I felt all rationality leaving me and I lost my balance completely. Everything went black and my eyes rolled to the back of my head as I was feverishly shaking on the ground as my body and mind was losing control of one another. I felt my head hit the wet solid ground and my body following the movement.

I couldn't see. My mind had seemed to slow down after that small attack, but my body was still acting up, yet I couldn't control it at all. But my mind was at peace. It's as if I had unattached my head from my shoulders and placed it on the side. All I could manage, was to lay there in the dirt with the rain pouring over my stiff body and wait for the inevitable.
My eyes were blank, and my face had no emotion in it. For someone else, it would seem as if I was dead.
That thought alone broke my heart and my mind. I was left here on the cold pavement to rot away..
As the moment passed where I came to that conclusion, I could still feel the tears running down my face, as if I had been crying all along without knowing it.

The pulsing stopped in my body all together - the pain along with my heart.
''My heart stopped.'' It was the last thing my mind could register before my life-line was cut off for good and everything dimmed out as emptiness fell over my cold body.

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''It's dark here.. What was I doing again? Why am I even thinking about something like that. I don't understand.. Where am I. What happened.''

''Mm- Do I have a connection to something. Something that matters? If I'm able to think, then that means I'm something, right? My entity exists as something- as someone, somewhere. What am I exactly? It's so dark I can't see. What do I look like. What am I- Where is this.''

''But what should I be able to know. What do I want to see.. A place of some sort, an image of some figures - creation - life.. See?- Vision? Should I be able to see something? Does that mean I am something more? Do I have something more than.. this? This existence here.. this darkness- where did it come from. Am I connected to something? Some sort of being- an intellectual being? A body of some-sort.''

''Intellectual.. If I'm able to know I am something, then I have a connection to something. The feeling of existing.. the feeling of life.. that is creation, right? The mind, body and…'' I saw something flash before me out of nowhere. ''The soul? I am a part of something, right? I'm-''

I felt like a thousand needles had pierced through my being. I had images going through me in a blink of an eye. This was suddenly shown like a fast-moving-movie. As if ideas were being crammed into one area at a time, and I had the front row seat to e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.

''Is that my life?.. life…what is life?..I don't know what I need to know at the moment. But this- these things, I enjoy it.. these.. emotions, maybe. I think that's what they're called...'' I had more images go past without knowing the clear connection to any of this. My whole existence was a mystery at this point, and I wasn't even sure if any of this meant anything, or if I was just a passing by energy source that would disappear any any given moment, and I was simply given this brief miracle, to experience such magic.

My whole life was going by in a short instant like it was nothing - just a short clip, nothing more. The time I had spent seeing my life pass me, felt like a programming code was being copied into my mind in a millisecond. Yet I couldn't even shed the tiniest of emotion for these images as I didn't know what they meant to me.

''It feels so dull, this world that I am seeing. What are they, and do I know them. Am I connected to this? There's so much chaos and petty things. These creatures, what do they do. What's the purpose. What do those people fight for in such a place..People? As human creatures? But..Is that what I am. I'm one of those beings? A being of connection to others. A network of such..Am I a living being that can think for myself. Is there a link to all of this? I have the right to think, don't I? '' Everything started to make sense again. But why? What made me see these images? Why am I in such a situation? I felt a few prickling feelings as my mind kept wondering off with more things making sense again as I continued to question all of this, and myself.

So many questions, but I wasn't able to grasp the meaning behind all this. What was This.
Did something happen for me since I seemed to have lost the connection to.. whatever This thing was - and was it really important after all, or was it an impulse.

I felt something for a moment again, but this time stronger. ''I can feel.. something. I seem to have some system to feels, and knows this. This system knows how to gather information.. possibly a singular form of body that can store this information. So am I a being, an actual being of reason, a creature that is able to feel emotions and objects through contact with others? So - Why am I like this. This place, what is it?''

I felt a small sting in my vision. ''What was that!?''

There it was again.

It's like something is burning through me. ''Something was burning me?'' I felt it all too clear to think that I was senile and thinking up stuff, now that I had been here and seeing all of these things around me.
There was no sound, but just the painful stings of needles and the feeling of being burned. It felt like I was moving in lightspeed.
Everything was going forwards so fast that the images were just mere light now and I was losing my reasoning once again.

I was burning up as someone was stuffing all these painful feelings and mind boggling images into me.

I knew I didn't have a body, I couldn't feel anything else around me except for my thoughts, and the rushing feeling of being pushed forward. A sheer painful experience of stress over the mind.

But now it felt like I pulled towards something, actually. Instead of being crushed in one spot.

''It hurts so much it's unbearable. I want to stop this at once!'' I felt like I was going to explode from the surge of pressure that was being pushed onto me from the speed.

Suddenly it all got cut off and it went pitch black. There was a certain suffocating feeling of loneliness and pressure that I never felt before. I felt as if my being was smothered by something so overwhelming that I couldn't fight it off. It was crushing everything around me, including myself.

That's when I lost consciousness with my mind completely - Disconnected from everything.


''Do you think it worked?''

''The body should be functioning just fine in some time. This took a lot of energy from Alluka and also from us. If this experiment is a success then she won't need to suffer anymore. We can't have anymore failures.''

''I hope so. If the wish we made now was the correct one, then that means our effort in this case was not in vain.''

''That is true. I'm afraid if this is a fluke then we need to make changes in our plans. We will not be getting that amount sent to us for more experiments and overall the ties will be cut. We literally can't afford to make any more mistakes than we already have. Those people are valuable customers, after all.''

''I agree, they have been generous with their funding up until now. I am actually surprised, but that just shows how eager they are to see results in this matter.''

''For now we need to take every move as a risk. As generous as they have been I highly doubt they will continue to be so. Even if they cannot do anything to harm us or our business, it will still do damage to our given resources and that would only be a complete waste of time and effort on something that we were originally not meant to do in the first place.''

''I will head back up for now. I suggest for now, stay here. It would be best to monitor such faint movements and reactions in case there is any change.'' The older man started heading towards a small staircase that was in the cold basement room. The room itself could be mistaken for a secret agency hideout with all the tech laying around the place.

''I will report back as soon as I notice anything unusual, if it's progress on the experiment, then I will not leave. If you think you have the need to come back then please, bring something edible with you.'' The mans tone was emotionless but firm. The older one laughed in low tone and opened the door in front of the staircase.

'' To think I only now need food. My old age is paying the price I suppose. Unlike you, I will go and eat now, my body cannot function without food for more than 10 days anymore unfortunately.'' The older man stepped out of the damp room and into the hallway while finishing his sentence in a relaxed, pleased tone. ''I do hope you know your limits Illumi, I do not want to end up finding two unconscious bodies when I return.'' He closed the door and walked away soundlessly.

Illumi stared at the door for a moment in the dim light that the monitors and other tech machinery gave off before reverting his eyes back at the lifeless like body in the middle of the room.

The body was hooked up to all kinds of wires. Ones that were stuck on the body, and the others that were in and out of the body. For now even he didn't know what connected to what. So he made sure not to approach any cable or wire in the room. His emotionless black eyes moved to the hand of the pale body laying on the surgery table immediately after noticing a twitch in the fingers that could not be seen by a normal person from such a distance. The movement had been faint but it was enough to reassure him that all was well for now. The body had life.

Illumi approached the body in a careful manner, paying attention to any obstacle that might catch his feet. He never took his eyes off of the body, still scanning for movements.

''Nothing can interfere, if anyone besides Zeno tries to even enter this place and take even a moment of my work, they will not see anything besides my face again.'' At the moment he was fairly focused on the mission in front of him, and if anything would even dare to disturb him, then the person wouldn't even have a second to live after opening that door.

He took a seat next to the table that was meant for Zeno, if the old man would grow tired of waiting TOO long.


There was a faint noise, but more like an echo that could be felt, to be honest. It was odd..

It felt horrible.

Feeling anything at the moment felt like going through hells pain, to be exact.'' I want to move. But I can't be bothered..'' I thought for a moment, as everything in my body seemed to be completely out of it and tired.

It was that moment when Illumi had noticed light movement in her fingers. That moment was where she felt sick and horrible, as if her whole body had felt that little itch in her hand.

It was the feeling of coming back to life.

And after having agony stir deep inside my body, was when my senses started to kick in and I was able to register certain things around me. Even thought it made me feel sick to my stomach.

''There is something there. Another person? Why can't I call out or move?'' It was frustrating to know that I felt like I was laying down, but had no strength or power to even open my eyes.

''This body feels so cold, just like before. Am I dying still? Is this why I can't move at all? Wait..what happened exactly..''I was getting beyond annoyed. My mind was clear as it could be, but I couldn't see or hear. Not to mention moving this stiff body was out of the question. All I could do was feel my slowly functioning body and the sound waves that surrounded me.

''This place feels warm, but my body is cold. I wish I could move. I need to move. I feel so sick.''


Illumi noticed another movement from the body but this time it was the lips. ''Could this body be recovering from such a shock so soon?'' He saw more movement and his eyes widened in amazement. ''This person has a lot of will power to be able to move a half dead body.'' He kept his focus on the girls face and was taken aback when he saw the lips parting.


''I need to move. This is killing me. Please for fuck sake. Voice! I need my voice! SOMEONE.''

Out came a heavier huff than my body managed at the moment. It was more like a cry for help in a really silent way.

I needed to know why I was still in this stiff mode. I wanted to know I was laying in a hospital bed and that I was under narcosis. Was that the reason why I wasn't able to move.

While I was frantically pushing my mind to move my body, I felt something behind my head. It was warm. ''A contact with..something?'' I stopped any trace of thought and kept my focus on what was happening to my body. Something was pushing my head up a bit.

In that moment there was a ray of light piercing through my eyes.

I panicked.

It burned. The light, it burned!

Something was trying to prey my eyelids open, and it was too bright and so I desperately wanted it to stop. ''My fucking god, stop, please just STOP…'' My eyes closed at that point, and it was dark again, but I felt movement in my eyes. I could move them.

'' Could the shock have activated my nerves? I do hope so. It could be that.''

I started feeling my body better now after that terrible experience with my vision.

Fingers, my breath,chest, feet.

Everything that seemed normal to check over seemed to be there. Nothing was missing. And I'm guessing since my mind was clear enough to know what is right and wrong, that there shouldn't be anything wrong with me. ''I must have been found after quite a while if my body is in this terrible shape, I feel so weak.''

In that trace of thought I felt something brush against my cheek and then my ear.

It felt weird because not all feeling in my skin was back yet, and the sensation left it tingly.

''..an.. u.. ar me.''

Was that sound? ''What?.. Is someone actually there? How did I not notice.'' There was a touch on my ear again and I felt it more now. It was a tingling feeling, but I felt it.

''Can you hear me?''

I was calm for a second, being happy over the fact I had no injury to my sight or hearing.

But who was that person?

It seemed to be a male, according to the low voice. I went through the words again in my head.

''That is strange, I understood him but I can't recall knowing this language. In instinctive ways I understand perfectly fine. But I can't bring any letter images in my head of what language it could be. Maybe there is something wrong in my head after all.''

''IF you can hear me, try moving any part of your body twice so I know it's a positive answer,'' the low almost silent voice echoed in my mind for a moment before thinking over what was easier for me to move in this state.

''I think I'm capable of moving my eyes.. everything else seems too much effort. Ill just go with that.'' I slowly wanted to open my eyes, but the light was too much for me.

The blue hue burned into my mind and I felt my eyes starting to water. ''That was a shitty thing to do. And it hurts so much, for fuck sake.''

I decided to just leave my eyes closed for now and just faintly enough moved them left and right.

It hurt to do it even once since it seemed as if my body was dehydrated, and I wasn't able to move my eyes too well.
It actually felt like my eyelids were sandpaper and I had to roll my eyes against it.

Not Fun!

''I need to do this a second time as well? Fuck me.'' As much as it burned and stung, I managed to move them the same way I did before.

''If this is only to move my eyes, then I can't imagine moving any other part of my body.'' For now I didn't hear or feel anything after giving my movement response to the person.

I had to wait. There is no faster recovery than that.

''I confirmed your current status to someone else who is dealing with your case. Rest assure, your body is healing just fine and in a very fast pace. You should concentrate your will into getting your system to work fully, and rest.''

There were so many words I couldn't picture as exact words in my head, but I understood what he said. ''So I'm recovering from what ever happened to me. That is good to hear.'' I felt relieved.

I relaxed my body from any stress I might of caused it. All this thinking, and all this recovery.. just what did happen to me?

This was so tiring. And honestly I didn't want to think about things any more. I just wanted to catch up on some sleep and give into the relaxing feeling of laying on a bed.

I could hear faint sounds in the distance as I relaxed myself and focused on trying to fall asleep.

The soothing low noises were relaxing for the mind and I started to grow tired all of a sudden. It's as if someone just took out my battery and I had to shut down my mind.

Someone was typing on a keyboard. That's all I heard before I blanked out.

''Tired, so so tired. '' The next second my mind fell asleep and everything seemed to be in place, for now.