Love. Life. Meaning. Over. The words that silenced all others, uttered from his perfect lips as a final goodbye.
The pain is still here. The pain that was left when Ed... he said goodbye to me many years ago. The hole in my chest is still there, i'm reminded of it everyday. I teach High School now. To try to get rid of the pain. But it doesnt go away. It just dims for thoose few hours of school, but it never goes away. I now teach at Forks High. It brings back so many memories, good and bad. I remember when I left Charlie, i knew my depression was hard on him. i knew it was hurting him to see me like this. So i packed up all my things, wrote him a note explining why i had to leave, that i loved him and that comming to live with him was the best thing i ever did, then i left.I didnt know where i was going or how i was going to survive, all i knew was i couldnt stay in Forks.
My life after the Cul... they left was unbearable. It had been 2 years since i left Charlie..and i got word that he killed himself. The depression after i left became too much for him to bare. I was headed back to Forks for Charlies funeral, when Victoria chanced upon me.
'I had just gotten off the plane in seatlle. It was late and i had no where to go. I hithed a ride to the one place i really wanted to be. I hiked for hours and finally reached it, our medow. it was early morning..around 6 o'clock more or less. It looked exactly the same that it made my heart ache with memories. I cried and cried for hours until i heard a familiar cat-like voice "bella!" the voice said. i turned around and almost had a heart-attact when i saw the firey red hair. "Vi..Victoria?" i managed to get out. She seemed to notice my fear.
"Ah..Bella, i've been looking for you for quite sometime now." i was confused. "M..Me? Why?" She ignored my question. "So. Where are The Cullens?" She noticed my hesitation. And pushed her question. "I dont know" i answered truthfully. She seemed surprised by my answer. "Really? I thought Edward was your 'mate'. I guess i assumed wrong." She said..There was an evil smile playing at the edge of her lips. She knew something was up. "I guess so" i said with sadness in my voice. "Well Bella. It was..nice seeing you. Time to kill you." I was scared now "W..What?" Now it was a full blown smile. Her smile made me even more scared for my life. "Oh dont you get it dear Bella? Edward took my mate, now i'm taking his..kind of" I flinched. She pounced. The burning pain started ripping through my veins while I heard growling in the background.
Then I blacked out.'
I woke up days later. I knew what I had become. I was like them now. Not that they would care anyways. I never actually mattered to them, and I never will.
I bought charlies old house, im surprised its still here. I took Charlies room and made my bedroom a guest bedroom, i couldnt live in my old room..i just couldnt right now. Its Friday night and on Monday I will be the newest teacher at Forks highschool. I will be , Brittany Masen.
I'm at the local cemmetary right now. Looking at Charlies grave isnt helping. 'Charlie Swan. best police cheif forks ever had. loving father and friend. he will never be forgotten.' I know he isnt here, its just his body but i have to say something. "Hey dad. Its me bella. I really miss you. Im sorry for everything i did..its all my fault..i love you." and with that i headed home.
