DISCLAIMER: I have no relation to any staff of the makers of Evangelion cause I
don't own them. And I also don't own Staind [band who sang the song] either!
Please don't sue me people.
BLACK RAIN: PART ONE
I opened my eyes. It's perfect.
Bright sunshine was blinding me. I peeped at the digital clock at the desk
right beside my bed. 8:12 A.M, it says.
And it's already June 3--- There's an occasion right this very day that I
wanted to leave behind and yet. I still can't. This occasion haunts me up till
now.
It's the ONLY occasion of death wherein I didn't leave traces of tears on my
cheeks. I didn't cry. Well, why should I cry then? All I felt those times was
relief, a welcome change of feeling from the usual suppressed angry emotion of
mine. He's not living anymore, I should rejoice! There's no one making me feel
the least important and worthless person in the whole wide world.
No more Commander Gendo Ikari of NERV.
It's already his 2nd death anniversary, but no matter how hard I try to forget
him, since he's not present anymore, his signs and traces of his presence still
show.
I can't take him off my mind. He's everywhere and anything that I see.
The more I say I hate him, the more he comes back to me.
What am I feeling? Why can't I get him off my head?
Let's say right now--- I looked at the mirror and stared at the reflection of
Shinji Ikari, a successful co-manager of a travel agency and a good novelist
and violinist by trade, but not by course.
But NO, it's not me that I am seeing.
Just NOT ME-
It's a man of great resemblance to Gendo, staring back at me.
Not Shinji. It's Gendo Ikari, a younger version.
A chip off the old block.
I wanted to do something to get him off my sight. I wanted to turn away form
the mirror yet I need to look closely. I wanted to punch the mirror very much,
yet I am not strong to do that.
You've guessed it; I'm a weakling-
-- like my father said.
I looked away from the mirror to stop staring at the sardonic scene. I simply
opened the blinds and the drapes of my window.
Tokyo-3? No, it isn't.
TOKYO-4
The New World. The ideal world full of peace and abundance.
But love? I'm not that sure.
The Angels are already gone. No more Evangelions. No more rush evacuations. No
more nightmares.
And for me, no more drab synchronization tests.
I looked at the distant horizon and stared at the place where the headquarters
and the Geofront stood 15 years ago---
And now, it was transformed into a shopping plaza.
It became a place full of nice things and where people hang out and enjoy
themselves.
And those people are new settlers in this very historic land.
But I am sure they don't know about the rotten history that makes this place
very different from all the others.
But I want to speak no more.
I'll keep my mouth shut over those things.
I chose to be just a silent witness of that historical event.
I, the pilot of EVA UNIT-01
I, a staff of NERV in one way or another
I am sworn and pledged to secrecy.
Because I don't want to remember
Everything nasty and unpleasing
The deadly attacks of the Angels---
And how we one-handedly and hopelessly handled the situations.
Yes, I should stop remembering those things.
Those years have passed already.
And after 15 years---
We should have a NEW beginning
A fresh and new start
Full of life, of hopes and dreams
And I should forget EVERYTHING about the bad past of Tokyo-3
Including MY bad past
But I can't--- I just can't
I have to go back to my father, even though I really disliked him.
Cause there's something I need to tell him
Something important
Something that's embedded deep inside me
Something--- something that you probably haven't heard from me.
I landed safely back to sanity. I closed the windows and prepared for this day.
A day in memory of Mr. Gendo Ikari.
A/N: Well, is that okay? Do you still want me to go on with writing this? Sorry for all the wrong grammar in here [take note: I'm just a beginner] and sorry if I don't know better of the series. I haven't watched it completely. The song probably will show up the next part. Please do review. Do not put flames, okay? Please be gentle; beginner only. But you may put some suggestions and put it in a nice manner, okay? Thanks---
