Disclimers: I Own No one

Summery: Nicole Explains the reasons for why she's done what she has.

Pairings:none

Rating:G

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That's Why....

You always ask " Why is it I try to be cold'?
Why I always try to make everyone's life miserable?
Is it to make myself feel better?
Is my life so dull I have nothing better to do?

I want to tell you the truth
Tell you that before you my life was nothing
How when I was younger I was the one tormented
The one made to feel degraded cause of my weight
I don't know how many nights I cryed myself to sleep

I decided that I would no more be made the victom
Of this world's cruelity
I would be the one to make others feel
How I was made to feel

Then you came into my life and I knew once more
I would be considered second best
So I tried harder to be the one at the top
No matter who I hurt

But I knew that would never be
You were the perfect one
Always nice to who ever you would meet
That's something I could never be

Now you along with everyone else
See me as a heartless bitch
With them I could care less what they think
But with you it hurts worse
I thought you would be able to see

That down deep I'm not the person they think I am
I drew a line when it came to you
Along with everyone else I fell in love
That's why it hurt when you turned away
It's also why I could never tell you the truth

I knew you were the one that could destroy me
That's why I've done the things I've done