A/N:This flashback/ slash memory is the deleted scene that comes after Dean serenades Cas with the girly song. It's a companion piece to my Nothing Else Matters, but it can read as a one shot.

Balthazar finally makes an appearance because the world is incomplete without Balthazar and his obsession with Celine Dion.


Cas' Coming Out (Nick, Cas, Bart, Meg)

"Hey Jimmy."

Jim stopped in the doorway and looked at his brother, his boyfriend and Meg sitting around the living room table, beer bottles, cigarettes and thin lines of white powder on it.

"What?" he asked irritatedly, his eyes flicking over to the white lines. He knew his brother did drugs, didn't mean he had to like it.

Lucifer met Meg's gaze and she wordlessly, carefully, collected it on a piece of paper and put it out of his sight. Lucifer sighed and asked, "You a'right? You seem to be awful quiet last few days."

Jim chewed on his lower lip as his eyes shifted to his boyfriend beside his brother – completely relaxed, legs spread wide, head leaning back against the backrest. Today he was wearing a tight white tee and a faded blue jeans with holes in them, and looked really really sexy.

"No," he replied quickly. "I mean… Yes! I'm alright. I'll go now," he turned around and quickly tried to scurry away.

"Wait," the gently ordered word stopped him in his tracks. He turned around to face his brother and saw his brother looking at him.

Jim was always scared of the look. His eyes flicked over to Bart who still hadn't changed his stance, just raised his head to stare at him with half-lidded eye. "What?" he asked quietly, scuffling his feet.

Lucifer was confused. His brother had been very secretive for the past few days and now he was sneaking glances at Balthazar? He turned to his best friend. "You said something to him," he stated, making it a statement and a question.

And suddenly Balthazar was sitting upright, completely alert. His eyes flicked over to Lucifer's kid brother, who was looking at him strangely. "No," he replied. "I didn't say anything to him."

Lucifer was not buying. No matter what they thought, he wasn't stupid and he hadn't exactly missed the silent conversation these two were having. Something was wrong and Jimmy was nervous and scared. "You wanna answer again," he hissed, jumping on Balthazar, straddling his waist, ready to throw a punch at his face, when…

"Stop hurting my boyfriend," rang through the room.

He froze mid-punch. Beneath him, Balthazar stopped breathing. Meg choked on her beer. Boyfriend? He looked at his best friend who had paled enough to match the colour of his shirt.

Balthazar looked at Jimmy. He was standing ramrod straight, fists balled, a defiant look in his eyes. He knew the kid had a crush on him, it was hard not to, but "boyfriend?" Was he trying to get him killed? "Luci," he said weakly. "I don't swing that way."

The words cut through Jimmy like a knife. He knew Bart was scared of Nicky but to deny him like this… His eyes teared up and lip started quivering. "But I thought… after we kissed…"

"You did what?" Lucifer thundered, and knife appeared out of nowhere, aimed directly at the motherfucking cradle robber's throat. Meg yelped and backed into a corner.

Jim stared at the scene in horror. Bart may not be his boyfriend, but he still was his friend. And he did not want Nicky killing his friends. "He didn't kiss me," he said, keeping his voice steady. Never show you're afraid. "I kissed him."

The knife disappeared just as quickly it had appeared. Lucifer stood up and waited until Balthazar had composed himself before taking his earlier position beside him. Meg moved forward, till she was sitting at her boyfriend's feet. His hand unconsciously found her hair. "Explain," he said.

Jim took a deep breath. This was so not how he had imagined it to be. "Last time he came over, we were laughing and horsing around and he looked so sexy… and I… I kissed him and he didn't pull back. So I thought…"

Balthazar was the first to break the silence, when he started laughing. "Jesus, Jimmy. I was drunk… and horny. Hell, I don't think I'd have pulled away from Luci either."

Lucifer gaped at his best friend, then at his brother, shocked as if someone had thrown ice water over him. Was his… Did Jimmy… Did Jimmy just admit that he was a fag?

Meg cleared her throat. "Jimmy," she said, saying out what they all were thinking. "Are you saying you are a fa—" the hand in her fisted, cutting her off.

Jim felt the words sting. He thought they loved him… that they would accept him no matter what. Clearly, he was wrong. "It's gay," he stated resolutely. "And yes. I am a fag." With that he turned around and ran to his room, slamming the door behind him. He fell into the bed, sobbing into the pillow.

A knock sounded at the door. "I just wanna talk, Jimmy," Lucifer called.

"Go away," he ordered, burying his face back into the pillow. He didn't hear the reply but the singing started…

"They say before you start a war, you better know what you're fighting for…
Well baby, you're all that I adore… If love is what you need, a soldier I will be…"

"Hey Luci," Balthazar interrupted. "Stop hounding the kid. Alone." Suddenly, three horribly mismatched, out of sync voices were singing outside his bedroom door.

"I'm an angel with a shotgun... Fighting till the war's won... I don't care if Heaven won't take me back...
I'm gonna throw away my faith babe... Just to keep you safe... Don't you know you're everything I have..."

Jimmy waited until they started mimicking the musical instruments with Nicky going, "Whoa… whoa whoa whoa…" before he crossing the room and opening the door. He smacked a hand to his brother's mouth. "Please, stop."

Lucifer smiled behind his hand and the trio marched in. Lucifer took his position on the bed, leaning against the headboard. Jim snuggled in one side, Meg on other. Balthazar sprawled across the bed at his feet. He smiled, fingers silently brushing through his baby brother's hair. This was his family, he thought. The one he'd do anything to protect.

"Jimmy," he said, his voice gentle but firm. "We don't care if you're gay or whatever. You're my brother and I'll always love you. But the next time you kiss someone, make sure he likes you too."

"I thought Bart liked me," Jimmy replied confidently.

Balthazar laughed and propped himself up on his elbow. "Not like me, kiddo. I like you like a kid brother."

"Oh," Jimmy murmured, He had so misread the signs.

"And make sure he's nothing like us," Meg added. "He should be rich. And have butt loads of money. The kind of man that can take you places like Paris and shit," she continued poking her boyfriend's stomach. He batted her hand away.

"Yeah. One of them fancy lawyer types," Balthazar suggested. "With fancy cars, and fancy clothes, and a very big ass house… snooty attitude…" and got kicked for his troubles. He laughed and smacked at the leg.

"Yeah… He should be from the other side of the tracks," Lucifer joined in. "Nothing but the best for the best nursing cooker in whole world." Jimmy turned red, and they started laughing. Then he sobered a little and added quietly, "Just… make sure he loves you. Nothing else matters."

-x-x-x-

Cas looked at his boyfriend, sleeping peacefully behind him, a faint smile on his face. He smiled and pulled the hand on his chest to his lips, then pressed it against his heart. "He loves me, Nicky," he whispered into the early morning. "He really does," he said, settling back comfortably against the warm chest.


Character Profile: (I had written it, it would be waste if I didn't share it)

Bart Rochester:

- Lucifer Novak's best friend and right hand man. Took up the name Balthazar, because he thought the concept of fallen angels sounded "cool and awesome."

- Moved to Canada, Quebec to be precise, after deaths Lucifer and Meg. Wanted in connection with murder of one Gordon Walker.

- Met, fell in love with and married a lounge singer by the name of Celine. They have two children – Megan and Luce.
(And yes, she sang "My Heart Will Go On" at their wedding)