As the chipped cup shattered on the floor, so did Gold's heart. He had been trying so hard with Belle. All he wanted was for her to remember, but everything he did seemed to only be making things worse.
He had kissed her while she was asleep because the stupid desperate man inside him made him believe that maybe, just maybe, true love's kiss would return her memory. But it didn't, all it did was make Belle even more scared of him, make her dislike him even more.
All of this was because of Hook. Gold hate him with a passion. First Hook took away his wife, and now Belle. Lovely, sweet, innocent Belle.
Maybe Hook forgot that the only thing keeping Gold from murdering him was Belle. And now that she didn't remember him he could kill Hook without a second thought. But blasted Charming had to ask him, "What would Belle want you to do?" He completely ruined Gold's plans. He was finally going to kill Hook, and then he was reminded that Belle believed, or at least she used to- that there was still good in him, and he couldn't prove her wrong.
He pounded his fist onto the table and then raked his fingers through his hair. He stood up and began pacing the floor. He was restless, angry, upset. He felt so stupid. He should have waited. He should have tried to find a way for Belle to come with him to find Bae. All she had talked about was finding him and becoming a 'real' family. He wiped a tear away as he remembered how excited Belle had been at the idea of meeting Bae. She didn't care that she was probably around the same age as him, she still wanted to be a motherly figure for him. Now she didn't even remember who she was, let alone the lost son of a man she didn't remember anymore.
He paced some more and threw some things against the wall. Then he made his way over to a desk where he searched for a pen and paper. Sitting down in his leather chair he opened the notebook an penned out his feelings for the first time in his life.
When he was finished he crumpled the paper and threw it into the roaring fire. As he watched it crackle and pop and then burn away, he realized that he was going to have to work on putting the pieces back together of his shattered heart and returning his precious Belle's memories.
