They say I'm fearless like him. Always ready to protect and lead the way for others. But I never worked well under pressure.
I was willing to take a risk like him. Not backing down and willing to let loose and have fun. But knowing my limits in life at the same time.
Ambitious like him. They say I lack his confidence, sometimes his even cocky attitude, but I can be stubborn and watch out for those I truly love and care about.
But I was most like the last . Smart: genius level smart with the ability to explain anything like an encyclopedia. A passion for learning anything we could. We shared a common charm that everyone seemed to gravitate towards. The shyness. The caring personalities that once we opened our lives to you, there was no going back. I guess I always loved him…
But I am my own person, don't get me wrong. I guess I just loved the way people saw that they were all a part of me. It gave me hope that I was a part of all of them. They held themselves together. All a part of an intricate system. They were quarters of a whole.
I represented what they were all together and as most people say, more. I loved to learn, but my passion was in music. I lead the way when necessary, but give others room to grow. I like to be by myself, but they very well changed that. I watch cheesy Lifetime movies in my spare time. Even if it's just for a good cry.
I am me and they are them. But we all gave each other something special. But no matter what, I will always love him. They all have a part of my heart, my love, but he in particular has the rest of what is left. Ninety percent of it at least. The last quarter to the quartet. They say it was always five. I was a special part to their group of guys. For as long as I can remember, we were best friends. It was me who starting to distance myself., out of fear they would find out.
I loved that one boy, but things change. Life gets hard. Secrets form, which turn into lies. People get hurt. But those who love you don't back down. I learned that the hard way.
In the end, they never left. I guess I did.
I'm just grateful that they dragged my ass back.
