Frozen Moon
He knew in his heart he loves her. He pushes her away because of his own selfishness. He tells himself that being with her is selfish. He thinks to himself that he is still a sinner. He has no right to complain about pain or torment. He tells himself that deep inside is still that inner monster. After all, he caused his mother's death, he tells himself. He cannot allow himself to truly feel happy. His conscious constantly screams at him that he has not redeemed his tainted soul yet.
He stands in the rain, silently watching each droplet of rain fall on his face. He stands there and slowly waits. Watching, waiting, patiently standing and waiting for the rain to erase his sins. He watches each tantalizingly painful droplet of rain drop down on his face. He realizes that the rain does not erase sins but only adds to them. He silently screams inside with agony as the painful reminders of his sins increase.
He dodges to the side as the attack comes. He silently wonders if fighting these hollows is worth it. 'Does it cause more sin or erase them?' he wonders inside. He continues to silently wait for the day his sins erase. He knows deep inside that it will be a while before his tainted soul is redeemed.
She's gone now, he thinks hollowly. His face is gaunt and hollow; his eyes dead and lifeless. He knows his family worries but he cannot stop thinking about her. Her midnight blue eyes, her soft laughter, and her beautiful, soft smiles. She was his everything and he had to push her away. He knew he should have spoken up but couldn't. After all, he can't stop his hollow side from coming out, then how could he protect her? How can he protect her when the most dangerous foe is him? How can he protect her? The question that haunts his very soul and mind. He hears the howls of derision and contempt from his hollow and knows that time is running out. He cannot be patient any longer. He silently gets up and walks to where he can finally end the pain and torture.
I based this small drabble on the part where he is going to where Hiraku and the other vizard are.
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