This is my first rukixreita fanfic so sorry if there's mistakes in it. This what happens when I get bored at night. ; )

Chapter 1

Latley when our band, the GazettE, went to practice I haven't been able to focus. I always end up catching myself staring at Ruki, the vocalist in the band. I dont know whats wrong with me and I dont think I want to know cause one time when Ruki whispered in my ear to scold me I could feel my pants getting tighter. But of course I'm not stupid so I knew I had started to have feelings towards Ruki.

The band members Aoi, Uruha, Kai, and Ruki have been really worried about me cause sometimes I dont even show up for practice because Ive lost control of my damn urges to jump Ruki although I feel ashamed for feeling that way. I always told them I was fine and that it was nothing but in all honesty I want someone to talk to about this, that definetly wouldn't be Ruki though. I don't want out our relationship to be akward. Speaking of practice I'm in practice right now crap. I came out of my daze realizing that everyone had already left except Ruki and I.

"Okay Reita tell me whats wrong," Ruki said looking at me with concerned eyes. 'His blue ocean eyes are so beautiful when he looks at me,' I thought to myself.

"It's nothing," I said getting up to put my guitar away 'I have no time to get all flustered about Ru's eyes I have to get out of here before I say or do anything stupid,' I thought to myself. "Well I got to go home so see yah." I started walking towards the door avoiding contact with him when Ruki slammed it shut before I could get there.

"Rei you always say it's nothing but I know when your upset and when somethings troubling you so please tell me I care about you, but your so stubborn at times," Ruki said looking into my eyes making me quickly look away with a pout but he immediately took my chin in his hand forcing me to look back at him. He can be very serious and territorial when it came to my well being.

"But Ru you'll hate me if I tell you and thats the last thing I want," I said as tears started to well up in my eyes. 'Dammit all now he's really gonna get pushy,' I though mentally smacking myself.

"Reita look at me, there is no way in hell that I would ever hate you even if I could," Ruki said caressing my cheek as he laughed a little. I blushed as he hugged me 'man I love Ruki so much I wanna kiss him'. 'He smells good to. I wish I could be with this person, this man, for the rest of my years. I could never be complete without his gentle touch.'

I started losing control of myself and I asked "Ruki you smell really nice but...can I kiss you?" After I realized what I said I pulled away from Ru and turned around full of mortification. 'Why do I always have to be so stupid around you Ruki,' I thought blushing to myself.

"I'm sorry I should leave now," I said turning around to find a smiling Ruki. I blushed even more at his expression.

"So thats what it is you want to kiss me...and really I smell nice," Ruki said putting his arms around my neck. His reaction caused an upflare in me.

"No Ru I...I'm sorry but I have to let you know that I love you and I want you to be my lover. I want to kiss you and hold you tight everyday. I want to fuck you because your the only person in this world that makes me complete," I said looking at the beautiful man in front of me. I was so sure that today would be the day I lost him.

"Stop taking," Ruki leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine catching me off guard. I would have though he would run away but this was not an act of fear, it was passion I felt.

I immediately started kissing back as my hand went down Ruki's back stopping at his pants line. 'Ruki tastes so delicious...I wonder what the thing in his pants taste like,' I thought to myself. I pushed Ru up against the wall, I craved to touch him, to be inside his tight warm ass. I started grinding my hips into his wanting more of his intoxicating body. Ruki jumped a little by my action so I stopped everthing and backed up to give him some air. I didn't want to mess this up.

"Reita...is it bad that I want you too, that I want to kiss you, that I want you all day everyday, that I want you to fuck me and that I love you too," Ruki said looking at me blushing a little. At least I wasnt the only one who was embarrased.

"No theres nothing wrong with that," I said looking down at him with love and lust filling my insides.

"Ruki...would you let me love you," I asked pushing him against the wall again. I could feel one of my urges rising more agressive then last time, but this time was different, this time I wasnt ashamed to be in love with him.

Ru looked up at me and smiled "Rei...I...yes I give you permission."

I immediately kissed him roughly against the mouth brusing his lips and grinding my hips against his yet this time he started grinding too. I had totally lost control and there was nothing i could do to stop myself. I stuck my tongue into his mouth asking for permission to enter which he gave. I explored his wet cavern and swirled my tongue in union with his taking domination of the situation.

I started slidding my hands down his body stopping at his belt line again. I pulled away and looked at Ru to motion I was going to continue and he nodded.

I took his belt off and slid my hand down his pants to grab his member earning a moan from him which made me laugh slightly. His cock was already hard and pre-cum was coming from the tip which surprised me to a point that I had to tease him.

"Wow Ru your already really hard...were you planning to do this from the start," I asked with a grin.

"Not really but I guess I'm just good at hiding my emotion and motives, better than you that is," Ruki teased back with a smile trying not to moan.

"Yeah whatever," I said pouting Ruki just laughed.

I grabbed Ruki up in my arms and brought him over to the couch so I could have more access to his body.

"Your gonna regret you said that when I'm finished with you," I knelt on one knee and looked up at the man in front of me with a evil grin. I moved my mouth to his member and put him in my mouth making shake with anticipation. "Shit Rei you are not...f-f-f...fair," Ruki tried to conger up a complete sentence as I worked on pleasuring him.

I licked up his shaft and around the tip sucking him like a vaccum which caused his back to arch and a moan to escape his lips "Mmm...mmnmm...Rei," Ruki moaned grabbing my hair. I let go of his dick making him whimper in disappointment. I pulled Ruki's pants all the way off along with his underwear making him blush and excitement filled his chest. I then started taking my own belt and pants off "do you want me to continue?"

"yeah I do," Ruki said nodding. I took everything off except my shirt "if u could turn around for me." Ruki turned and stuck his butt in the air for me as I lubricated my cock with pre-cum. He turned his head to say he was ready to start 'holy...Ruki why do have to stare at me like that you look so damn cute,' I thought to myself. I positioned my cock at his ass and rubbed the tip against his ass hole. His toes clenched when I started to put myself in him.

He screamed in pain as I pushed the rest of my lenght inside. I stopped to give him time to get used to the fullness, I was afraid of his limits. He soon got impatient and pulled out and back in which was a very bad move on his part. I lost control of my sanity and couldnt contain myself anymore. When he did that I mercilessly started pounding in and out making him scream out in both pain and pleasure.

At first Ruku seemed uncomfortable but I didnt care at the moment. As time passed Ruki seemed to be enjoying it more

"Reita...mmm...faster," Ruki moaned grabbing cushioning of the sofa.

At that I pounded even harder into him hitting the spot that made Ruki's vision blur every time I hit it.

We both were reaching our peak and I was still pounding into him mercilessly when I think someone had come up to the door. At this point though we didnt care, we were to consumed by the pleasure we were feeling.

I finally hit my climax and so did Ru as we screamed out in pleasure. It was the best feeling I had felt in a while.

I collapsed on the sofa next to Ruki as we caught our breath. I pulled out when I was able to move and sat up looking at Ru.

"I love you," Ruki said looking up at me as he sat up as tears were welling in his eyes. "Reita I'm so happy that you love me and that we could do this together...but next time I'm taking control. I was just being nice and let you have the fun first, but next time im gonna make you scream," Ruki said with a smirk.

I blushed at his conent but then something escaped me "So that means you want to be with me and not just sex buddies," I said frowning a little.

"What no. I want to be with you not so I can get fucked. I love you," Ruki said putting his arms around my neck and hugged me to comfort my concern.

"Okay...thats good to hear...I'm sorry I doubted you," I said pecking his lips. "I love you too," I said putting more force into the kiss.

"I know," Ruki said kissing me back.

We were still naked and kissing when we heard a knock at the door. Ruki and I didnt notice since were caught up in our moment.

A few seconds later the door opened and then immediately closed with a scream that followed.

We broke from our moment and immediately started putting our close back on.

'Shit this cant be good,' was the last thing I thought as we hurried to get dressed.