Disclaimer: I do not own Narnia, it belongs to C.S. Lewis

Summary: After the train wreck Susan is cleaning Edmund's room and finds a letter and journal that she left him to read. She only reads the part that talk about Narnia.

Remember When

Looking around her little brother's room Susan notices something lying on his bed. Walking over to the bed she sees a letter sitting on top of what looks like a book. Picking up the letter she reads it.

Dear Susan,

Have you ever wished that you could turn back time, take back things that happened? That you could be the person you used to be, not the person you are? Maybe you blocked the "happy times" because it was too painful. Sadly you can't turn back time, but you can keep moving forward in life. Remember where you come from and who you are. I hope my journal can help, it's yours to keep.

Love, Edmund

Setting the letter aside Susan picks up the journal and flips the pages until she finds the page that has some of Edmund's thoughts on life in Narnia and in England. Glancing at the page she notices that the paragraphs are all very short. Letting out a sigh Susan begins to read.

When I was ten years old I never thought that I would become a king or that I would rule a kingdom with my siblings for twenty years. I never thought that I would become known for my fair judgment even though I had been a traitor or that my siblings and I would suddenly leave our people without warning. I never thought about leaving.

When we left Narnia I never thought that things would be so hard or that my family would begin to fall apart. I never thought my older brother would end up in fights or that I would back him up even when he did not want our help. I never wanted to see my family so broken again.

When I was thirteen years old I never dreamed that we would return or that so much would have changed due to the time difference. I never thought that we would put a new king on the throne or that we would help our people win a revolution. I never thought of returning without my older siblings.

When we left Narnia I never thought that we would stop believing or that we would be in a hurry to be grown up, or that we would be split up for the summer or that we could make a world of difference for our cousin Eustace. I never thought we would go back.

When I was fourteen years old I never thought that we would bring our cousin Eustace with us or that we would sail the seas with the King; that we would save the Lone Isles and its people or that it would be our last time in Narnia. I never thought Eustace would be sad for us since he gets to go back.

When we left Narnia I never thought Susan would have changed so much or that we would no longer be much of a family, or that we would die so young or that we would leave our sister behind to pick up the remaining pieces of her life. I never dreamed it would end like this.

A/N: Please R&R

~Sleepless_in_New York