Used to Be
Pairing: Stella x Noctis
Author Note/Disclaimer: I don't own FFvsXIII
Before the war between our nations ever took place, we were lovers.
Sharing every single moment with each other, sharing sweet kisses with each other in public or in your bed, and in the eye of the public we were deeply in love with each other.
Some would even go as far and say we were the hope of an alliance between our kingdoms, but now I can't help but to think of it as a joke.
Even though we use to be lovers, sharing our deepest secrets with each other, and words of love under the silver moonlight all of that is in the past. Now you look at me with hatred in your eyes, whenever our paths crossed on the battlefield.
Truthfully, even though we spent two years together as lovers, I can't tell if you truly hate me, or if you trying to hide your feelings of pain and longing for me, by pretending to hate me.
Is it so wrong for me to hope it is the latter instead of the former?
I know you're my enemy now.
It is something that has been established many times by you, and the Tenebrean council. Sadly, perhaps I will never know the truth behind this war.
The council claims it was your nation who broke our treaty by attacking a Tenebrean city near the border that separates our two countries. Truthfully I don't know if there is any truth to those words, I know there is truth to those words.
Because I did to sneak away and visit the poor town, but the only thing that awaited me was pain, and perhaps realization that my council was right.
I doubt trying to ask you would do any good either, considering I doubt we will be able to hold a civil conversation with each other. We usually start to fight anyway, before a word could even cross our lips.
But Etro help me, even though I raise my rapier against you, even though everyone pretty much tells me you are my enemy.
Yourself included even though you would never verbally say those words out loud, instead you allow your actions to do the talking for you. I suppose I shouldn't be to surprise, you have always been a man with a few words to say, but you have always been a great listener. I know that if you are still alive when the war ends you will be an even greater king.
But I can't deny the fact that I still love you.
Or at least that is what I keep telling myself…regardless if I raise my rapier against you. I'm still hopelessly in love with you.
I try to hide my feelings for you, by pretending to hate you, by pretending we were never lovers at all…or even ex's for that matter.
I guess that is what we are now, and perhaps we will always remain as each other ex's. Truthfully I'm not entirely sure if we could go back to being lovers even when this war ends, and if we are able to. I doubt we will be as close as we were before.
Perhaps it would be better to forget him.
We use to be lovers, but no longer.
-fin
