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-Pearl's POV-

I can't believe Rose is actually into this- human. I feel incredibly disappointed and... sad. She must be out of her mind. Everything we have gone through...

I have been in distressed for days just thinking about it. Of course, it was alright for me to see her with Greg... it's just that- I never really expected her to go this far. She IS happy but... I don't want to lose her. She's everything to me and I just cant let her do this! This is utterly ridiculous! I can't-

"Peeeeearrrllll." Amethyst pokes her head inside the room. Concerned look can clearly be seen on her face. I feel instantly guilty for this. I have been sulking in this room for almost a week and I have forgotten that there are still Amethyst and Garnet in my life.
Amethyst comes in and sits beside me, looking down at her feet without saying anything.

"I am sorry." I say, as I feel my tears attempt to resurface, to blur my vision... and to remind me of Rose.

"You don't have to be sorry, P." Amethyst replies rather softly, like encouraging these spiteful tears to make me suffer more. I know Amethyst just wants to check on me but this is not helping. "I know what you feel. I feel it too. That's okay."

"ABSOLUTELY NOT!" I look at her incredulously. I CAN NOT BELIEVE SHE JUST SAID THAT! "Amethyst you do not know what I am going through. Rose and I have been together since the very first- even before we found you! No, you do not understand and no, you do not feel what I am feeling because You will never have what Rose and I did!" I shout at the very top of my voice, tears already pouring down my cheeks, clearly they think I have given them the permission to. My chest is heaving and I don't think I have needed this much air than ever before even if gems don't need oxygen to live. It's just- unbelievable!

Amethyst falls silent in an instant, making me feel guiltier than I already do. I storm out of the room, one arm trying to wipe my eyes from those tears that managed to escape my control. I am a gem and I feel my throat closing in from sheer sadness and grief. I don't care about Greg. I don't care about their "baby". I just want Rose to be back here with me!

"Pearl, I need to talk to you." Garnet stops me in my tracks. I look up at her and try to stop the incoming tears- but I can't. I hug Garnet as tight as I could and she embraces me back. I can't stop crying. I can't do this anymore. If Rose dies, I don't see any reason for me to exist anymore!

"Garnet, how could you let this happen. How could you handle this lightly! This is not right!" I cry more under Garnet's touch. I know she means well. I know she loves Rose too, but how could she?! "We need Rose, Garnet!" Tears keep coming and obstructing me from talking normally and properly. "I- need her."

"Rose is happy with Greg and even how much we don't like her to do this, we have to let her." Garnet says, holding my shoulders as she looks down on me. The look on her face is calm and calculated. "I don't know much about human relationships, but I do understand love. Pearl, you need to accept her decision. You can't stay in your room forever."

I hate that she is right. I do know I am being ultimately selfish but I don't care! I was made to serve Rose. I WAS MADE FOR ROSE. And I just can't lose her...