A/N:
Just a short piece written after watching 10x12 (Shiva)
Tony's wondering about his unrequited love towards Ziva, with kind of desperation and longing that's built up over the years.
(Disclaimer: I don't own NCIS or its characters. Sadly)
What do you do when you love someone but you can never be together?
There are rules, and the rules don't allow it.
She's so close yet so far.
She knows.
You know.
But neither of you mention it.
It lies unsaid. The elephant in the room.
There are so many chances but none are seized.
What do you do when she moves on and falls in love with someone else?
You're happy that she's happy but you can't help but feel pangs of hurt and regret. You try and find someone else to replace her.
You see other people.
You kiss other people.
You sleep with other people.
You wish that you didn't have to, but it's the only way.
The only way to move forward.
The only way to forget her. To try and forget her. But every time you are with someone else, you only see her. Her face, her brown eyes.
What do you do when the person you love doesn't love you back?
When you want to give her your heart but you know that it'll be rejected? When your loving words fall on a deaf heart?
Because she doesn't feel the same way or she just doesn't admit she does.
She blocks you out, she doesn't want to hear what you say. Maybe because she knows it's the truth.
What do you do when she doesn't have anyone else left? When she is hurting, but she pushes you away?
You used to be a team but now it feels like it's you versus her.
Or simply her versus the world.
She's crying out in her sleep and that tugs at something deep within you. All you want to do is put your arms around her and hold her forever.
She tells you she's fine when you know that is the furthest from the truth and she won't ever admit it to herself, let alone anyone else.
Then suddenly she has to go. She's got tears in her eyes.
"Tony….I-"
And in a blur, she's gone.
The words left unsaid. The sentence is forever unfinished.
Just like the story.
I know it was very short. Just something I felt like writing. Reviews welcome. :)
