Title: The Sweetest Sorrows

Disclaimer: Well I own absolutely nothing.

Note: um sorry about the other two stories I was writing (7th Heaven, One Tree Hill) I haven't had much time to keep them up but Ipromise I am going to do better with this one.

BACKGROUND: This is set basically where the show is now, but I am making Ruthie 16 so she can drive. Martin is living with Sandy and taking care of the baby and playing baseball at that college. Martin and Ruthie don't really talk anymore. While nothing is going on with Martin and Sandy romantically, he feels obligated to stay with her for their child. But who knows what will happen. After all this is fanficton!

THE SWEETEST SORROWS

CH 1: THE HIDDEN TRUTHS

Ruthie's Pov:

Dear Diary, 3/17/06

I cannot begin to describe the amount of emotion I feel. It's the kind where you wanna laugh, you wanna cry, you can't eat, you can't sleep kind of thing. I guess I know how unattainable what I want is, but somehow it makes me want it more. I guess by now I should let go, everyone is telling me too but I can't. I just feel it, I know that theres something there. What am I saying? He has a kid and a college girlfriend/ baby's mother/ whatever she is! Why would he want someone like me whos still in high school? But all of that still doesn't change the way I feel. After all how can you let something go that you have never even gotten a chance to experience? I guess I'll never be able to move on.

Much love,

Ruthie

Martins P.O.V:

Journal,

It's me again. I know I should just get over her. But how? I know that I have a responsibility to my child and the mother of my child for that matter, but it's not like I love Sandy. I know what I did but should she really be the one to suffer? Wait what am I saying. She has to of moved one, she could get any guy she wants. She is smart, beautiful, to determined for her on good, and just absolutely amazing. Why would she wait around for an idiot like me? I can't believe I ruined my chances with the one girl I care about. I am so confused. I don't know what to do!

Goodnight,

Martin

Hey you guys. I hope you like this story. I am going to try and keep it updated. I need this story it's like therapeutic or something, I dunno. But something awful is coming

So keep reading and start reviewing. Suggestions welcome.

Much love,

Emily