You Are Worth It

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters. I merely own the story line.

Summary: "You are worth everything I have done. You have given me more than I could have ever wished for. You have given me much more than I could have ever dreamed of. My love, you are all I ever want. You are beautiful, loving, and kind hearted. Make me the happiest wizard alive and marry me?" Obsidian eyes gleamed with tears, as did emerald.

Chapter One: To Save Him But Break Him

Prolog

Three people sat in a comfortable room. Two silently and sadly listening to the painful speech being given. The two eldest of the room knew of the love shared between two people resident in Hogwarts. One of the them being the third occupant of the room. To the two eldest the man standing before them had been a son for what seemed like forever. They had grown to love the man; it hurt to see this man coming before them to announce his resignation from the school, but most of all it hurt them to see this man hurting so deeply.

"It has to be this way. I know I will hurt him, but I cannot let him ruin his life. He is meant to have such a bright future. He could finally be free. His father would want him to live a good life. With the Dark Lord gone he can finally have a good life. He can marry a beautiful witch or wizard and have a family. He can be free to love a young witch or wizard that could give him everything his heart desires. And I am the only thin standing in the way. I cannot give him everything he deserves. He deserves so much better. So much better than me. He deserves to be a father. He deserves to have an upstanding spouse without a dark past. Someone who is not hated by the world. He is young and handsome. He could have anyone he wanted. I am not worth his love or kindness. Since a child I have been told I am worthless, and I know it is true. How could it not be? I am not worth it. Not after all the wrongs I have done against him and other good people. He deserves so much better. I am just not worth it." The other two occupants of the room shared a sorrowful glace. They knew very well there would be no way to change the man's mind, for each of them had had this conversation with the man numerous time, all end with some form or the line, "I am worthless." There was nothing they could do. Kind words would not help, but for the sake of the man that was a son to them in all way but blood they would try anyway. They would also try for another soon-to-be man who was like a grandson to them. They just had to try.

"Please, reconsider. You know how much it will hurt him. You could be happy. It is not a crime for you to be happy." The older man said, but the younger man would not listen. The two had tried for many years to change his image of himself, but the image remained the same. Never changing.

"My mind is made up. I will leave at the end of this term. Once the school year is finished, I shall not return after the summer holidays."

And so our story begins…

It was another evening at Hogwarts School of Witch Craft and Wizardry. Students in their dorms all snug in their beds with visions of flying and magic danced in their heads. But one lone Gryffindor was not in his bed; he was down in the dungeons instead. While all of Hogwarts was peacefully asleep two people argued down in the dungeons.

"This, this thing we had is over! It was never meant to be or to go this far! I… I don't love you… I can't love you! Leave! Get away from me! Never come back!" Dark eyes were as cold as ice and void of all emotion. The young man before him missed the pain in the dark man's voice; the younger man held too much sorrow to notices. Emerald orbs released glistening blue tears.

"You don't mean that! I love you! I've always loved you! I have done nothing to make you stop loving me! We can make this work. I know we can. You could be so much more than you are. You could be happy. Just let me love you! Let me show you what it feels like to be loved and to love. Severus, I can make you happy. Open your heart to me. Please, don't let it end like this." Harry felt as if his world we falling apart around him. Severus looked into his, and he saw the pain he was causing. He knew this time would come; yet he could not let this boy make such a mistake.

"No, this should have never happened in the first place. I was a fool to get involved with you. You are a student! I should be fired for letting my feelings cloud my judgment. No, this shall not continue. I never meant to lead you on. You were just something to take up my time, and nothing else." And with that Severus Snape walked away from the only person who ever truly loved him for all his good and bad attributes. The green eyed raven he left is the waste felt as though his heart had been shattered.

The Next day…

"Harry… Harry, you have to come out sometime. At least tell us what happened. What ever it is cannot be that bad. We will understand." Harry' best friends were trying their hardest to get him to leave his head boy's room. So far it was noon and the boy, soon to be man, had not set a foot out of his room. Ron and Hermione did not know of Severus and Harry's relationship. Harry had planned on introducing Severus as his boyfriend at his birthday party next month. However, after last night Harry had a dreading feeling he would not see Severus again.

"No I don't. I am not telling anyone. And it is that bad!" Harry moaned from the other side of the door. "You don't understand! You don't understand what it feels like to have the person you have loved for seven years walk out on you and use you! You don't and will never understand!" And with that Harry pulled the bed cover further over his head. 'My heart feels as though is has been torn out of my chest and crushed by a vice.' Harry thought.

"Then help us understand. Harry, we are your friends. What ever it is we won't judge you! We just want to help. Please? Let us help." Hermione sad with pity and sadness in her voice. She had never heard her friend sound so pained. They had always told each other everything, but then six months before the final battle Harry started to become secretive. After four months she finally realized that he was seeing someone, but she just could not figure out who it was. Now she knew that whom ever he had been involved with had left Harry. Her heart hurt for her friend; she hoped his heart would heal, and soon.

Authors Notes:

Oh my gosh! This is my first fanfic. I am so excited!

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Until I write again,

DDL