If you're reading this

If you're reading this

My momma sittin' there

Looks like I only gotta one way

Ticket over here

I sat numb and cold as my son's will was read. No words touched me. The warmth of my husband could not warm me. My heart had frozen the moment Fred died.

Sure wish I

Could give you one more kiss

War was just a game we played

When we were kids

The pain blossomed from that moment on. It ached and it burned. It never left. No matter that they tried to help me. I would not talk. I would not think. My eyes were blank to any who dared to look in them.

Well I laying down my gun

Hangin' up my boots

I'm up here with God

And we're both watching over you.

I watched myself from a distance. My face emotionless. My breath a useless thing keeping my alive when I so wanted to die. But I realize. I have died. On the inside. I exist no more. I am with no one.

So lay me down

In that open field

Out on the edge of town

I am gone. Goodbye.