Instant Star

(After second season finial, expect Jude did not get drunk.)

Jude was sitting in the studio trying to write a new song. This was the only way she could get over any of what happen in the past week. Every song had came out wrong, full of hate and anger but that's not what she wants. Something new and not like her. Jude's father always taught her each song had a special meaning to everyone but the only way to get the real song is to look behind.

Jude picked up the guitar and began singing of anything she could think of

Thinking of you..

I can see the shade,

And the reflection of my depression.

I can see the profile of the ghost

That is there in my interior.

This was everything she felt at this moment, a shadow all around her. The darkness surviving because of all the pain and sadness Jude was feeling. And inside of her was the ghost of the former her. It was the only thing keeping her alive.

And I have not let the smoke in

And I cannot sleep

And in the middle of the solitude

I continue thinking of you.

She has been trying to forget the hurt from Tommy but it does not matter anyway, he's everywhere. When Jude's fighting the sadness, when she's trying to sleep, and when she's all alone thoughts of him are there. Her mind laughing, telling her that it's hopeless Tommy will never leave Jude's mind.

And I don't dare to begin

By trying to forget the aim

Because it scares to decipher

What is there behind you?

Jude is finding her hands and voice know what to sing. Reminding her the music is there to stop the pain and see what scares her the most. What is behind Tommy. Who is he? What behind the songs they wrote together? But the most important, was Jude behind him, in the past? Was he leaving forever? What is behind every song, every thought, every kiss? What made him do these things?

What is behind a tear?

What is behind the weakness?

What is behind a complete good bye?

What is behind the love when it is finished?

What is behind?

These thoughts racing around in Jude's head. 'What does Tommy think each time I cried? What did we think when we kissed in own moment of weakness? How do we deal being apart without saying good bye? Does he even care? Could every piece of love be over, finished?'

I can see from my memories following me here.

I can see the the profile of my shadow on the wall.

Jude could feel words coming from somewhere else, from her heart. Her memories alround her feeling her with sadness.

And I have not let smoke in and I cannot sleep

And in the middle of the soltude

I continue thinking about you.

And I don't dare to begin

by trying to forget the aim

Because it scares to decipher

What is there behind you?

What is behind a tear?

What is behind the weakness?

What is behind a complete good bye?

What is behind the love when it is finished?

What is behind?

What is behind?

What is behind?

What is behind a tear?

What is behind the weakness?

What is behind a complete good bye?

What is behind the love when it is finished?

What is behind?

What is behind?

What is behind?

Jude finishes the song and sees Darius waching hersmiling

"Jude, that's a great song. I want you record that with the new producer tomorrow," Darius softly. Jude just sat there, not believing he liked one of her song. She always had to fight for them.

Song by RBD (Que Hay Detras) It is a Spanish song I just translated it. Write me and I may write more.