Loor's Confession
It pained me to see how he loved her. I tried to get over the thought. The question that kept popping up in my head was, Do I love Bobby Pendragon? I don't know the answer. I wish I did. This, is my life.
Bobby Pendragon and his friend, Mark Dimond walked by my house. I was sitting in the grass. "Hello Loor." Bobby said. I smiled and my heart warmed. "Good day Pendragon." I called back. They walked pass. I sighed and laid back in the grass. This feeling I got from him was... over whelming. I stared at the clouds until my roommate, Vo Spader, came outside. Vo wanted us to be more than roommates but I did not't. He lived in the opposite side of the house.
"Hello Loor. Having a nice day?" Vo asked. He sat next to me. "Hi Spader. No I am not." I said. Vo looked at me. "What's wrong?" He asked. I shook my head and sat up. "Nothing. I am just having an off day. I think I am going to go home to Zadaa in a little bit. Do you mind?" Vo shook his head. "No. It's okay with me. Have you thought about what I told you the other night? You know, about you and I?" I did not't answer him right away. He had told me that he loved me the other night. He wanted to know how I felt. How was I supposed to answer that?
"You know, Vo, I have. And I came up with something." I said looking over at him. Vo looked anxious. "So?" He urged me. I sighed. I did't want to say it but I did anyway. "Vo, I can't exactly say I love you back," I started. Vo sighed. "But, I am willing to give our relationship a chance. I could try loving you. Is that okay?" I said. Vo lit up. "That would be great! Thank you Loor. Thank you so much. I won't mess this up." He said excitedly. It made me feel better knowing I made Vo happy, but it didn't make me feel any better about Bobby at all.
Vo and I laid next to each other in the grass. "So, Loor? Since when have you call me Vo?" Vo asked. I smiled. "I don't know. A few minutes ago." I said, looking at him. He smiled. "What do you want to do?" He asked. I shrugged. "Do you want to go visit Pendragon and the others before you leave for Zadaa?" asked Vo. I smiled. "Don't you mean, before we go to Zadaa? I want you to come with me. But, sure. We can go visit Pendragon." I said. Vo smiled at me. He got up and helped me up as well.
I was happy, knowing I was going to see Bobby. But if I saw Bobby, then I was going to see his girlfriend, Courtney Chetwynde. That didn't make me happy. Vo tried and failed as he went to grab my hand. I pulled my hand away and looked straight ahead. "Umm, Vo?" I asked. He looked at me. "Please ask before you make a move on me." I said. Vo blushed even through his tan skin. "Okay. Could I hold your hand?" He asked. I hesitated. "Sure." He grabbed my hand. We were walking down the road toward Bobby's house. We finally reached it and I was really happy at what I found.
Bobby was home alone. Chetwynde wasn't there. He looked shocked when he saw Vo and I holding hands. When we first got there he was really happy. Later on, when he asked why Vo and I were holding hands, I told him Vo and I had started a relationship. He looked a little hurt. We all sat around Bobby's living room and talked. Vo went on about his childhood on Cloral and I listened. Bobby didn't seem too interested in the conversation. He just sat there on the couch, staring at the floor.
I got out of my chair and sat next to Bobby on the couch when Vo left to go to the bathroom. "Hey. You okay?" I asked softly. Bobby looked at me with sad eyes. "Yeah. I am fine. So, how long have you and him been...?" He trailed off into silence. "About an hour. A couple days ago he said he loves me so I decided to give him a chance." I answered. When I talked to Bobby I felt like I could talk to him about anything, except the fact I loved him. "Oh." Bobby said quietly. "So, you don't really love him?" He asked. I shook my head. Bobby smiled and Spader came back into the room.
"Hobey-ho, mates! I gotta go to Cloral. Yenza is throwing a fit because I haven't returned. Sorry Loor. I can't go with you to Zadaa. Bye." Vo left in a kind of hurry, which left Bobby and I alone! "So, where is Chetwynde?" I asked. Bobby leaned back on the couch. "I don't know and I don't really care. She could be off kissing Mark, for all I care." Bobby said dully. I was shocked. "What happened?" I asked, trying my best not to seem happy. "She broke up with me because Mark told her he loves her. But, that is fine with me." He said. I wanted to cheer him up.
"Can I do anything to help?" I asked. Bobby looked like he was about to say something but decided against it and closed his mouth. He shook his head. I sighed. "Okay. I need to get going. I am off to Zadaa in a few minutes." I said standing up. "Can I go?" Bobby asked. I smiled slightly. "Sure," trying not to seem happy again. He noticed it and gave me a suspicious look. "I would be fine with you coming along." I said. Bobby stood up. "Shall we go then?" He held his hand out to me and I took it quite nicely.
