Yami's thinking about how much Yuugi means to him, and how he can't share his feelings with the young boy. Written Yami to Yuugi.
You scare me sometimes. You make me afraid of my life. But. You give me comfort. You support me.
So why do you scare me?
You make me feel like the only one. Like I'm the only one you care about; screw the rest.
But then you treat me like I'm everyone else.
Maybe it's because you're unpredictable. I just can't seem to understand you sometimes.
You make me happy, but sad. Lonely but crowded. Flawed but perfect.
It's because of that, that I don't know how you feel. And that scares me too.
I love you with all my heart aibou. But you seem so indecisive. I wish I could tell what you feel. I would be better then; but I can't tell you that I love you. I couldn't hurt you like that.
I keep these emotions inside so that you don't hear them. I don't want you to hear them. I want you to be happy. How would I live without you?
I just can't tell you. You don't understand how it feels for me, having to hide this awful truth from you. You, the one I tell everything.
I wish I didn't have to hide, I wish I could tell you, but I can't hurt you with that. I'd rather just let you live, blissfully unaware of my emotions.
Yuugi, my aibou, I want you to be happy.
"Yami? What's wrong?" you scared me, popping up behind me like that. I guess you knew all along that I had mixed emotions.
"It's nothing aibou," I ruffled your hair between my fingers.
"Yami, don't lie to me." Those soft violet eyes pierced daggers through my heart. I couldn't tell you, it would break both of our hearts. I had to turn my eyes from you, but your reaction made my pain worse. You crawled into my lap, wrapping me in your arms as though you could make it better. I couldn't help but smile at your courage, your want to take away pain. I found myself passing my hand absently through your hair once more.
A sigh escaped me, you wanted the truth, and the last thing I could do was lie to you, "I have something to tell you."
Your soft violet eyes radiated such innocence, how I would hate to break that. But how I would love it all the same. A soft nod was all you gave as you ushered me to continue. How I wish you would've said something.
I opened my mouth to speak, but could no longer find it in me, I broke eye contact. My eyes now shifting to the light soda stain on the carpet of the room. Almost silently, my voice breaking I uttered the four words that could kill me in an instant. "I love you aibou."
A deepened silence was all that I gained in returned; it was all over. My fear, my hope, my light, my passion; all gone. Everything existed in that moment, and rejection started to sink in.
"Mou hitori no boku," the soft words barely caught my ears, they didn't carry rejection, but passion and understanding. Confused, I turned to you, seeing a bright smile on your face I couldn't help but wonder what was going on. "I love you too," now you shied away, turning your eyes somewhere else. "For a long time, I thought you didn't, and so I didn't want to tell you."
Happiness overwhelmed me as I tightened my embrace on you. To be accepted in such a manner meant more to me than life itself. You were my love, my life, my light, and you loved me.
A/N: So yea, this is my first little drabble about Yami and Yuugi. Unfortunately for me, it relates directly to my real life. except the end. I personally can't tell the guy i love that i love him.
