Disclaimer: Do not own Glee or any of the characters nor do I own the song, I just happened to borrow them for just under 400 words.

AN: I was listening to music on a six hour drive and this popped into my head. I think the song will be obvious when you get to the last few paragraphs. Also, all mistakes are mine – I don't have a beta so I apologise.

It's been five years since high school ended and five years since I last saw your face. I don't know what happened to us after we left for college. We made so many promises and yet none of them came through; not even our metro passes. I know why I didn't use mine; I was scared about how you'd react when you saw my face again. Why didn't you use yours?

I wonder, most days in fact, where you are – if you're on stage like you've always been destined to be, if you're happy, if you're in a relationship, sometimes I even wonder if you still think of me like I think of you.

I spoke to Kurt a few years back, it was after you and Finn called it quits. I was planning to come out to New York and visit, do the friend thing and help you through the break up. I was at the train station when I started over-thinking all these scenarios where you broke my heart and so I quickly ran back to college with my tail between my legs.

I regret that my head has always had the power to override my heart, but if I'm honest I think it's been able to do it for years – one of the many consequences of growing up Fabray. You know what always confused me though? That you could always see when my brain took control and shut down my heart. I never found out how you could possess such a skill when even Santana and Brittany had no chance.

You could have been my friend so many times during high school and I sabotaged myself too many times to count. I regret pushing you away for so many years when all I wanted to do was to pull you close, although I have come to accept the fact you'll never be mine the way I want. It doesn't help that for me you'll always be the beautiful 18 year-old at our last glee party dancing away with my heart and all that I hold dear.

No matter what I've done, I don't regret many things. I don't regret pushing you towards New York and your dream during the years we had Glee. And I especially will never regret changing your mind on the whole 'nose' issue – you are beautiful and so many people see it.

I have no idea if I'll send this letter but it helped to get it out.

Love,

Lucy Q

P.S. Let me tell you one last thing – you will never know how hard it is to explain the tattoo on my ribs that says 'beautiful and dancing away with my heart'…