A/N: Well, my life sucks. So I decided to put my feelings into an angsty BTR one-shot. Enjoy or not at this point I don't care. I do not own BTR. AU

Kendall Knight curled up in a ball on his bed. His recent boyfriend Carlos Garcia had broken up with him. It wasn't the elder Latino's fault. The older boy's elder brother had caught them before and swore if they promised to cut off their relationship, he wouldn't tell Carlos' parents. They did as they were told but Kendall could see Carlos falling apart. When he asked for the blonde to be his again, he'd like to say he jumped at the chance. But sadly he took days to decide, and in the end he loved the feel of the brunette's lips against his again. Weeks later Kendall didn't know what happened but Carlos texted him saying his mom said Kendall couldn't stay or even come over without someone else there. Kendall felt his heart shatter a second time for the same person. He sat in his living room as his mother and sister gossiped about everything. He couldn't show he was upset; he wasn't ready for them to know he was BI yet. So he had waited until everyone was a captive to dreamland before he let his emotions show. He let out a whimper as he looked at his wrists. The younger wasn't proud of it, but he was a self-mutilator. He had been since he was 12. He reached for his phone, texting James for the hundredth time in an hour. With still no reply he decided to try someone else. Sending a simple, hey, he lay there in wait of an answer, His phone let out a small buzzzzz, alerting him that Logan Mitchell had replied.

Hey Kendy. Whassup? :D

Hey Logie. Have ya heard?

Heard what? 0_o

Kendall typed out the whole story to his older 'brother'. By the end he had wanted to take the blade to his skin again. Maybe this time he'd stop his pulse. When the genius asked if he was okay, he replied saying, I'm fine. Kind of wanna fall into a hole with the rim on fire, so I can't escape…. The brunette replied in moments, Do NOT talk like that. As long as I am here you are not die. Kendall was amazed. He didn't realize his brother cared so much. He no longer wished to end his life. He just wanted Logan to give him a hug right now. Come over? Minutes later Logan was climbing through the window. "Logie…" The blonde whimpered from his perch on his bed. The beckoned walked over and enveloped the other in a tight warm hug. As Kendall cried into his shoulder, "I'll never leave you alone Kendall. I'll always be here. So never talk about you dying as if it were nothing." He pulled the broken hearted boy closer. "I am here for you, okay? Never think you can't come to me. I love you little brother." Kendall sniffled, and replied, "I love you too big brother"

Well.

I feel better.

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