I never really understood it, why I was so interested in that blonde idiot. He whimpered and cried he always came to me even for the littlest things. Like if he tripped and skinned his knee or he burnt he hand doing something in the kitchen. Where he was not aloud to be in the first place. Perhaps that is what I wanted, to be needed, for someone to look to me for security for safety. Was it wrong for me to constantly; push him away though? To discourage him from coming to me when such things happened, from what I so wanted in all truth.
To be needed…
I'm not the one who deserves him though, I put him down, scream at him… hurt him. Why does he even come back? Why does he come back to me with arms wide open and that stupid look of forgiveness in his bright blue eyes? I hate him. I hate him so very much. The way he laughs, the way he talks, the way he… is. Then again… I love all of that, the stupid nickname, the pleas for attention. I cant like him, stupid, I hate him… I swear it. I-I don't…I-I don't feel bad about leaving him there with out saying goodbye. He could have convinced, me to stay, he always does. Every time I fucked up, tried to kill myself, got angry and tried to just full out leave. He would hold me, and cry, telling me not to leave, or not to fade. He would say he… needed me. Nevertheless, that doesn't matter anymore…
You can't stop me now…
'So here, I stand now, pretending to be Riku. I know this wont work Sora's smarter and stronger then we thought… We all under estimated him. We're all going to fade away… he'll win and we won't get our hearts; it was stupid to even try.' These were my thought as I confronted Sora, they were correct and to tell the truth I was somewhat happy at the thought of fading. I wouldn't have to see you anymore Demyx… never again… I get to die and be free.
Though not as I planned…
'Why?' I thought as I slammed my fist against the white marble wall of the castle basement. 'Why did I run? Sora could have killed me, why was I afraid it's what I want.' Why was I suddenly so reluctant to die? My thoughts were cut short as the sound of a portal opening filled my ears; I turn and gasped clutching the wall behind me. "A-Axel?" I stuttered staring at the red head for a long second before realizing he had the Riku Replica with him. He began speaking about how the Riku Replica could gain more power. However, I wasn't listening, I had realized deep down inside…I was sorry…I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I regretted not saying goodbye.
I'm sorry…
Suddenly, I felt a tight grip upon my neck and my body lifted off the ground. I held onto the hand trying to pry it off, but in my weakened state, I couldn't muster the strength. It was as if my entire being was being pulled into the hand my essence... everything. 'No!' I thought, 'This can't be happening, I have to tell Demyx I'm sorry!' The memory of fear flooded my body, as I felt myself withering away, becoming nothing. I opened my mouth to scream but nothing came out, I let my arms go limp and stared at the clone. Then…
Darkness
I'm sorry Demyx, I love you.
