Name: Near Age: 16 Birthday: August 24, 1994 Gender: Male Hair: White Eyes: Black/Grey Height: 5'1" Weight: 88.2 Blood Type: B Status: SPK member
This was my profile...of course, Near was not my real name, just an Alias. But that doesn't really matter. I lay on my bed, silent, the only sound that filled the room was the slow, steady pace of my breathing. Right now, there was only one thing on my mind...the one thing that kept me curious and woundering...the one person who was all I could think of....Mello. Many thoughts raced through my mind, all about him. -thinks: I've never felt like this before...whats wrong with me?-. I turned on my side, now facing the photo that sat on my night stand, it was of Mello and I when we were younger. I stared at the picture, both of us sitting in the meadow, leaning against my favorite tree. We were also leaning against each other. My head layed on his shoulder, his arm around my waist, and both of us smileing happily. L had taken this photo of us one day 4 years ago. I was 12 and Mello was 13....it was so long ago....but there were only two of these photoes in the world, one with me, the other with...him. I looked at the picture for about 5 minutes before finaly sighing heavily and closeing my eyes. Now seeing nothing but darkness, I thought of the days when me and Mello were inseprable....and then, I thought about this past week....so many things have happened. For the first time in a month, I let my mind be fogged with the mist of sleep. I dozed off, dreaming of only Mello and I.
--------------------------------4 years earlier--------------------------
I was sitting in my favorite tree, looking out over the beautiful veiw of the
meadow. I always came here when I wanted to feel at ease. It was so calm
and relaxing here. Every single flower in the meadow, was in bloom. At
this time of year, the meadow was covered by all kinds of vibrant colors
of orange, yellow, red, purple, and many more. "I love the Spring..." I said
quietly as I smiled to myself. I sighed happily as I reached in my pocket and
took out my special ipod. Why special, you ask? Because this was no normal
ipod, it was a 'mood' ipod. I looked down at the clear object in my hand, this
ipod, when not turned on, was completely clear like glass, with a blank
screen. But when turned on, the ipod changed to the color of my mood, and
imediatly created a long playlist of songs for that mood. That, is why it was
so special. I took the headphones out of my hand, and put one in each of my
ears as I pressed the 'on' button (ipod turns very light blue: very relaxed and
calm/ the song Strawberry Swing by Coldplay starts playing). "Heh, this
thing really does know my mood, it never ceases to ammuse me" I said aloud
as I looked back at the beautiful image infront of me. "This is...so beautiful.
So peaceful and calm...so.....". Suddenly, Mello appeared right infront of me,
"HI NEAR!!!" he yelled with a huge grin on his face. "GAH!" I threw my
arms up in suprise, and accidently lost my balance. I closed my eyes, thinking
I was about to fall. I almost fell off the tree branch, I actualy thought I
would have, but I felt Mello try to grab me and stop me from falling. It
kinda worked, but when I opened my eyes, I was hanging upside down off
the branch (ipod imediatly turns dark green: very suprised/ really fast and
loud song starts playing). But I wasn't paying attention to what the song
was.
All the sudden, Mello burst out laughing. I pulled myself up, so that I
was sitting again (ipod turns medium orange: mildly annoyed). "I told you
not to do that Mello..." I said, glaring at him but at the same time trying
to keep my voice and facial expression emotionless. "I've never seen you react
like that before!!!" he practicly yelled, still laughing histaricaly.
-thinks: .....hmmm.....- I looked at the way he was sitting on the branch. It
was a very non-stable position, and since he was laughing so hard, not only was
he making the situation even MORE unstable, but he was almost falling off.
I grinned evily to myself as I looked at him, eyes closed from laughing so
hard, and on the edge of the branch. With nothing but the thought of
revenge, no longer being able to control my actions, I reached my hand toward
him. He opened his eyes, trying to stop laughing, "What are you doing....?" he
started to ask, between laughs. At the last moment, he realized what I was
doing. His eyes widened and I could tell he tried to move out of the way, but
it was already to late. I reached my hand towards him, and before he could
even blink, my hand was on his chest and I pushed him directly off the tree
branch. I watched as he closed his eyes and yelled as he fell towards the
colorfull plethira of flowers, untill finaly, he landed on his back. A wicked
grin spread across my face as I heard the ~thump~ of him hitting the ground.
He opened his eyes and stared up at me with a look of both complete suprise
and confusion. Now, I tried MY best to not burst out laughing. But what
pushed me over the edge was when he sat up, COMPLETLY covered in
flowers, most of them in his hair. And that, was when I couldn't take it, and
burst out laughing. My eyes were closed from laughing so hard, but I could
fell him stareing at me. I put my hand over my mouth, now just giggleing
alittle, and looked down at where he had been sitting. My eyes widened and I
stopped laughing completely....he was gone!!! -thinks: W-where is he!?!- I
scanned the parts of the meadow that I could see, looking for him, but he was
no where in sight. "M-Mello...?" I asked still looking around.
Suddenly, I felt something under me, I was sitting on something, but it wasn't
the tree branch anymore. "Near..." I heard the familiar voice reply to me in a
whisper....it was Mello...Mello was sitting under me (ipod turns medium pink
and light green: very embaressed, nervouse/ the song Fallin For You by Colbie
Calliat starts playing). But, that wasn't the only thing that gave away my mood.
I couldn't help it, but I was shaking slightly and I could tell my face was
completly red and pink. I looked over my shoulder to see Mello smiling sweetly
at me, looking deeply into my eyes. "You sure are blushing alot...Near-kun.." he
said as he strooked my cheek with the back of his hand, this made me blush
even more, I could tell. "Y-you....called me...N-Near-kun...." I said looking at
him with wide eyes and a shocked expression, not being able to stop myself from
studdering. "Yes, I did..." he said leaning closer to me. Of course, I tried to lean
away because of natural instinct, but he wrapped his arms around my waist
and pulled me closer, making me lean towards him as well (ipod turns dark red
and even darker pink: madly inlove and very embaressed/ the same song keeps
playing). Mello glanced at the ipod and smiled even more, looking back up at me and meeting my gaze once
again. "That's a very dark red, Near-kun..." he said taking one hand away from my
waist, and cupping the side of my cheek with it. Of course, he kept his other arm
tightly around my waist, making sure I couldn't resist or try to get away. "Is that
how you really feel about me...?" he asked the question in a way that was not
ment to answer, he already knew what I would say. I was completely silent as he
pulled me closer, "Wanna know a secret, Near-kun..." he started to say. "....I love
you..." he finished as he leaned forward and kissed me deeply and loveingly. I
didn't resist....I didn't WANT to...I never wanted it to end, so I tried to make it
last longer by turning towards him and wrapping my arms around his neck. He
smiled into the kiss and wrapped both his arms around my waist again, me now
straddleing him.
Then, I heard a voice off in the distance....neither mine nor Mello's...but a
different voice. Yet, it was familiar to me....very familiar. -thinks: hmmm.
where is that voice comeing from...? And why does it sound so familiar.
The voice called my name over and over again.
???: Near?
???: Near?
???: Near?
???: NEAR!!!!!!
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I opened my eyes very quickly and sat up. "Huh..?" I looked around in a daze, my vision fogged with sleep.
???: "Finaly! I've been trying to wake you up for the past 10 minutes.."
I looked to the edge of my bed to see a figure with black hair standing
there, kind of slouched over....my mind immediatly guessed who it was.
I waited a few seconds, letting my vision clear, just so I could be sure it
was him. I looked up at the person at the edge of my bed...yep..it was
deffinatly him. "What are you doing here, L?" I asked curiosly. "Aren't I
aloud to visit?" he said, putting his finger to his lips. "Well, yes, but I
ment, what are you doing HERE? In MY room?" I refrased my original
question, speaking with an annoyed tone. "Oh. Well I was walking down
the hallway when I heard talking comeing from inside this room, so I
decided to check it out" he started saying. "You know, you toss and turn
alot in your sleep. And you talk..." he said, sitting in the chair that was
beside my bed. My eyes widened slightly as he said that. "I-I...talk in my
sleep..?". He nodded, "Yes, yes you do". He kept his gaze directly on me,
waiting for me to ask the question. I didn't want to, because I was afraid
of the answer and what he assumed I was dreaming about, but I had to know
what I said...I sighed slightly. "What did I say...?" I asked the dreaded
question. I wathced as an evil smile spread across his face, a smile that said,
'your busted'. He leaned forward alittle, making his stare on me more intense,
"Mostly, you only murmured and Mello's name". My eyes widened and I looked
away, I couldn't look at his eyes right now, so I just waited for what he
would say next. "One things for sure...you, were dreaming about Mello" the
evil smile on his face grew bigger. I tried to stay calm, I'd never been in a
situation like this before...so without looking at him, now twerling a peice
of my hair, I only responded with a murmur, "Yeah...so...?".
All of the sudden, he was right infront of me, crouched in his normal
position, and stareing directly at me, the grin still on his face "So, what were
you dreaming about Mello? I asume it involved....the two of you?". Oh, he
was enjoying this...he was enjoying it ALOT. He wanted me to confess, and
he planned on making me. I practicaly fell back onto the bed, but I tried my
best to look emotionless. -thinks: come on Near...you can do this...- I took all
the courage I had. I turned towards him, looked him directly in the eyes, and
spoke as emotionlessly as I could, "Its none of your buisness what I dream and
who it's about". I had expected him to be caught off gaurd...but instead, he
laughed! LAUGHED! -thinks: what is wrong with this guy!? This is NO
laughing matter!- I stared at him in disbelief. "I know what your thinking
Near, and this IS funny...well to me atleast" he said, looking back at me
directly. "Well, whats so funn-" I started to say, but he cut me off by saying
something else. "Because, I have this.." he said as he took something out of his
pocket and held it up infront of me. It was a little blue book covered in stars
and moons...across the top of the little book, there was written the words
'Dream Book'. My eyes widened when I saw it, "W-where did you get that!?".
"Your bottom dresser drawer, it was hidden very well, I'll give you that much
credit. Just not well enough to fool me" his grin was getting bigger by the
second. "I've read everything you've put in this book....and for the past week,
you've been having dreams about Mello. All of them about you saying you love
him and you guys having a 'very deep and romantic kiss' as you put it".
-thinks: ...that...that...that! I dont even know what to call him!...well...atleast
he hasn't read my first dream book...that one's hidden where it cant be found.
and he doesn't even know that that's my second one..- I smiled to myself,
leaning back alittle. "Oh, is that so? There's ANOTHER one?" he said, tilting
his head to the side and bringing his finger to his lips again as he watched my
expression completly change. We sat there silently for 5 minutes as I stared at
him in shock. "L.....I....am....gonna.......KILL YOU!!!" I yelled as I lunged
forward, jumping on him, and knocking both of us off the bed. Im not quiet sure
HOW he did it, but before we hit the floor, somewhere along the lines he
managed to flip our position around so that I ended up being the one that hit
the ground, HIM ontop of ME. "Nice threat, Near. But I don't think your
gonna live up to it. For instense, how can you kill me if YOU'RE the one on the
bottom?" he stopped talking for a second and looked up with an odd expresion
on his face. He shook his head as if to clear a thought. I realized after a few
minutes of confusion, what he was doing. The last line of the sentence he said
was, 'if YOU'RE the one on the bottom?'. I laughed slightly "That's messed up,
L". He looked back down at me ". shut up" he said as he got off of me.
There came a knock on the door as I sat up, "Come in". L and I both looked at
the door as it opened to see Light Yagami standing in the doorway. "L, can we
go now?" he asked in a pleading voice. I stared at Light with a very confused
expression. -thinks: why is he here...with L?- But then, I noticed the one
important detail I didn't notice before...my gaze landed on L's wrist, and then
wandered to Light's. They each had a handcuff on one of their wrists, which
were linked by a long chain. "Umm...?" I said curiously, looking at L, then
Light, and then L again. "Oh, this...?" L replied, looking at me and raising his
wrist up that had the handcuff on it ".....long story...". I stared at him,
"Didn't you guys do this once before..? When the Kira case was still going on?".
Light groaned, "dont mention the Kira case..." he rolled his eyes and leaned
against the doorway, crossing his arms. "He doesn't like people mentioning that.
but, this is NOT for the same reason, dont worry. We finished that case a very
long time ago....this...was a *cough* dare...." he finished, looking at the ground
annoyedly. "A.....dare...?" I said, trying very hard not to laugh. "Yes...a dare. We
were playing truth or dare at a party and someone dared us to be handcuffed
together for 2 weeks, like old times..." he practicly growled the words out of
anger. "L...CAN WE GO NOW!?" Light emphasized the words with great
annoyance. "Yeah, yeah fine. We'll go." L said as he looked back at Light, and
then at me agian. "Well, it was nice seeing you again, Near. And don't worry.
your secrets safe with me..." he winked, and with that, they both left, shutting
the door behind them.
------------------------------------10 minutes later------------------------------------
I was walking down the hallway in my white silky pajamas, towards the
kitchen. I was so lost and confused earlier, that I didnt even notice that Light
and L were in their pajamas (yes, L has pajamas), and Light looked really tired.
-thinks: What time IS it?- I pulled my ipod out of my pajama pocket, turned it
on, and put a headphone in each of my ears. As it turned on, the color was just
a solid grey, which ment that the 'mood mode' was off, and it was just a regular
ipod right now. I looked down at the screen, and to the bottom right corner
where the time and date were. 'April 3/ 3:27 a.m.' . . . -thinks: he came here
and woke me up at 3:27 am for a visit....yep, thats just like something he would
do- I switched to a song I really liked as I walked towards the kitchen (the song
She Wolf by Shakira starts playing). -thinks: I need to be quiet, no one is gonna
be awake at this time of night...or..day I suppose- I continued to walk to the
kitchen, listening to music, and being as quiet as I could possibly be.
When I reached the kitchen, it was completely dark...and I mean, PITCH dark.
Nothing could be seen...which was odd because at night, a small not so bright
light is left on over the sink. But not even that light was on....I took a step
forward, accidently stepping on something that made a soft snap, and stuck to
the bottom of my foot. "What the...?" I whispered very quietly as I lifted my foot
off the ground and took the object off the bottom. I moved it around in my hand
alittle, and parts of it started to feel kinda mushy, and melted on my fingers.
". . . what the heck is this . . .?" I said very quietly, I was talking so low that it
was imposible for anyone to hear, I didn't wanna risk even the slightest chance
of waking someone up. I brought the object to my nose and smelled it....it
smelled of a very sweet fragrance...like that of candy....of.......chocolate? I tilted
my head to the side slightly. -thinks: Why is there chocolate on the floor.
Then, I heard the same soft snap of chocolate being broken from right beside me.
-thinks: what the...? if I'm correct, then right beside me should be the counter.
how did that sound come from the counter...?- I turned so that I was facing the
counter, and the noise. I stood there for about maybe 3 minutes, woundering if
I should reach my hand out or not. Then came the soft sound again....the sound
of chocolate being broken. -thinks: ok, now I'm too curious, I have to see what
it is...- I held up my free hand, the one without the ipod, and reached it forward
to what should have been the edge of the counter. When my hand landed on
something, it wasn't the counter I could say that. I only touched it slightly....it
was covered in a soft fabric and was very warm.....it was....a...leg..? No, a knee.
Someone was sitting on the counter, and whoever it was, stopped what they
were doing and completly froze in place when I touched them. All became silent.
Then I heard the soft snap, and something fell on my hand. I imedaitly
responded by holding it in my hand and feeling it while my hand sitll rested on
the persons knee.....it was.......a.....chocolate bar? Yes, it was a chocolate bar.
I could tell because at one side of it there was the feeling of chocolate and the
other side there was the feeling of aluminum wrapping, and in the middle, the
wrapping was torn and met the chocolate. -thinks: chocolate....?...could it be-
I stayed silent for a few moments and so did they. ". . . . Mello?" I said very
quietly. The person tensed up slightly, then, suddenly calmed themself and layed
their hand ontop of mine, which was still on their knee, holding the chocolate.
It seemed like they were feeling my hand...they were, they moved their fingers
along my hand for a few moments before stopping and pulling their hand back
very quickly. "N-Near...?" they whispered back to me. "Yeah, its me" I answered
keeping my hand ontop of his knee. For some reason, he didn't seem to believe it
was me, and, as if to test his theory, he reached his hand out and touched my
hair. -Mello thinks: Hmmm.....is it really him..? Oh wait, the lightswitch.
I felt him pull his hand away, and then I heard him running his hand along the
wall behind him, searching for something. "Ah-ha" he said as I heard a click, and
the small light over the sink made a very dim circle of light around us. It was
JUST enough light to see each other slightly. I looked forward to see Mello
sitting on the counter with his leg crossed, one over the other, and him holding
a peice of chocolate in his mouth. When he turned back to look at me, he seemed
suprised. "Oh, it really is you Near" he said sort of guiltly, probaly because he
didn't believe it WAS me, then his gaze driffted to my hand on his knee. My
gaze drifted the same way "oh...". I pulled my hand back slightly.
All of the sudden, while I was pulling my hand away he grabbed my wrist
softly, and I held my breath by instinct while my heart seemed to skip a beat.
He moved his hand slowly from my wrist, to the back of my hand, then around
to the inside, and grabbed the chocolate bar, sliding it out of my hand. I
imediatly exhaled my breath loudly as he pulled his hand away. -thinks: . . . he
just wanted his chocolate '. . . .-. His gaze was directly on me as I stared
down at the floor, I didn't notice it though. He then suddenly put his hand
under my chin and tilted my head up genetly so that I was looking at him "I'm
sorry..." he said, keeping his hand softly under my chin. I was caught of guard
"Sorry....? A-about what..?". "Because I-" he was cut off by the light suddenly
going out. His hand dropped from under my chin and he swung his head towards
the wall quickly, "I-I didn't touch the switch!" he said quietly, yet loudly at the
same time. No one else would have heard it though.
He swung his arm towards the wall, but accidently slammed it into something.
Now, only being able to hear I heard the thing his arm hit, fall and shatter on
the counter....glass. He screamed in pain, only to cover his mouth with his other
hand, to not make it heard by anyone but the two of us. "Mello..!" I put both my
hands on his waist and lifted him off the counter and onto the floor with all
the strength I had, but when his feet hit the floor, he stumbled and fell into my
arms. "Stay with me Mello...!" I leaned down alittle, one arm around his
shoulders, put the other behind his knees, and sweeped him off the floor, now
carrrying him 'bridal style'. I could tell that he still had his hand over his mouth,
because the only sounds he was making were stiffled cries of pains and sobs.
I ran as fast as I possibly could to my bedroom, without making any noises and
opened the door, closeing it quickly yet quietly, and running over to the edge of
the bed setting Mello down there. I ran to the wall and flicked on the light
switch as light flooded the room. I turned towards the bed and the sight that I
saw before me made me want to collapse and fall on my knees....Mello sitting in
the middle of the bed, knees pulled up to his chest, his face buried in his knees,
and his arm completly drowned in blood. The only sound that filled the room
was the sound of Mello's loud sobs, cries of pain, and deep breaths that he was
taking not only because of the pain, but because he was crying loudly.
"M-Mello!" I ran over to the edge of the bed, sort of pushing him so that his
head and knees parted, and wrapped my arms around him tightly, being sure not
to touch his arm. He threw his good arm around my neck tightly, crying into my
shoulder "N-Near please m-make it go a-away....". He was shaking so much...in
so much pain.....so scared. I pulled back and moved kneel on the floor infront of
him, taking his hand in mine, and moving his arm slowly and carefully so that
his arm was infront of his chest. I genlty took his arm and turned it so that the
inside was facing me...and my eyes widened when I saw it. His arm, drenched
in blood, and a very long peice of glass burried deep in his skin. I gasped "Oh my
god...". "W-what is i-it...?" he went to look at his arm but I put my hand on his
cheek and turned his face away, "No Mello, don't look at it, if you see it then
the pain will get worse. -thinks: I.....have to get that glass out....- I looked at
the glass again, ".....Mello...". He looked at me, eyes red and tears streaming
down his face "Y-yeah..?". "I....I have to get that glass out" I said worriedly. I
watched as his eyes widened slightly and he slowly went to glance at his arm.
"Mello no!!!" I tried to turn his face away again, but it was too late...his eyes
became completly wide, tears pouring down his cheeks as he stared at the huge
peice of glass deep in his arm, "N-no....no! NO!" he jumped off the bed and ran
towards the door. "Mello..!" I jumped up and threw my arms around his waist,
picking him up off the ground as he struggled and tried his best to get away
from me, his arms outstretched towards the door like he was pleading to open it.
"Let go of me!!!!" he screamed loudly, trying to kick me. "Mello, listen to me!" I
tried to get his attention, "NO! LET GO OF ME!!!!!!" he continued to scream at
the top of his lungs. I slapped my hand over his mouth very quickly, "Mello! Be
quiet and listen to me! You need to stop screaming before someone wakes up!" I
started to say but he bit the inside of my hand. "OW!" I uncovered his mouth as
blood started spilling out of my hand, I shook it and the blood fell on the carpet.
"LET GO OF M-!" I slapped my hand back over his mouth, even though it was
now dripping with blood, "Do you wanna bleed to death!?!?!" I yelled at him.
He suddenly stopped struggleing...he shook his head 'no'. "Then, you have to let
me do this, please!", his hands that were trying to pull my hand away from his
mouth, both dropped to his sides instantly. I walked him over to the bed, still
holding him incase he tried to run, and still had my hand over his mouth, incase
he tried to scream...but he was still and completly silent. I made him lay down
in the middle of the bed, "Mello....im sorry but...I need to do this. And I need to
tie you down". His eyes widened when I said that, but then they went sad as a
sign that he understood why, so I uncovered his mouth and walked over to my
dresser. He was completly silent as I opened the bottom drawer and pulled out
a pair of handcuffs, we were all required to have them, just in case. I walked
over to the bed silently, stradled him so that he couldn't move or kick me, and
hancuffed his hands together so that the chain was around one of the bars of the
headboard, so that he couldn't move his arms or try to hit me. I looked down at
him under me, he was being completly silent and stareing down either deep in
thought, or from sadness...probaly both. "Ok....I need to do one more thing..." I
reached over to my end-table and opened the drawer, taking out a long white
peice of cloth. His gaze driffted towards it and he looked alittle confused.
Before he could even blink, I lifted up his head, and wrapped it around his face
so that part of it was in his mouth, and I tied it very tightly behind his head.
His eyes widened as he stared up at me confused and shocked. "It's so you can't
scream, or bite off your toungue" he relaxed his gaze slightly..."close your eyes,
Mello...". He obeyed, closeing his eyes as I looked at the arm with the glass.
"....im so sorry...mello...." I whispered as I brought my hand to the huge gash and
touched it slightly as he jolted in pain. I tried my best to hold back the tears
that filled in my eyes...I didn't want to do this...I didn't want to put him
through so much pain...but...I had to, to save his life. I kept thinking that I had
to do this to save him, so that I wouldn't stop myself. I slowly started to press
my finger into the gash...he started to thrash around and scream in pain as I dug
my finger deeper into the wound, but the screams only came out muffled.
After about 2 minutes, I dug my finger under the edge of the glass, Mello
thrashing and screaming from under me as I started to slowly pull it out. After
about 3 more minutes, the glass was completly out, now I just needed to stitch
his arm up. I reached over to the end table again, opening the drawer and
pulling out a medical needle and medical thread, and moved back over to his arm
and started threading the needle in and out of the wound. And 5 minutes later,
it was all over.....I'd saved him....I'd saved Mello from dieing. I un-cuffed his
hands and untied the peice of white cloth, tossing both on the floor. As he
opened his eyes, he sighed in reliefe as if he was making sure he was still alive.
I put my hand on his cheek, looking at him with tears in my eyes. "Mello....I-I'm
so sorry....." I started to say but was cut off by him throwing his arms around me
and pulling my towards him, hugging me tightly. "You saved me...." he whispered
into my ear, sobbing quietly. I pulled back slightly, now looking directly into
his eyes "Mello.....I...". I leaned closer to him, our lips only a few centimeters
apart now, "I-I.....I lo-..." someone walked through the door. "Hey Near its me
agai-....." we both turned our heads to the figure standing in the doorway, it was
L. -thinks: oh, nice timeing you idiot . thanks for that - L was stareing eyes
wide, at Mello and I, his arms around my neck, me stradleing him, and lips only
a centimeter apart. "I-Im sorry I didn't mean to interupt!" L said as he smiled at
both of us. "I'll just, go now hehehe" and with that, he stepped away, shutting
the door behind him. I turned back and looked at Mello "Uhm.....sorry..." I
went to pull away, but he tightened his arms around me. "M-Mello..? What are
you doing...?" I looked at him curiosly. Before I could say or do anything else,
I was pulled down and kissed deeply.
---------------------End Of Chapter 1---------------------
