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hi again! this is my newest story and i hope you will all enjoy it
Lavi and Kanda are my new favorite pairing so i had to write a story about them
you all know the disclaimer...and i will be taking a lot of liberties
Kanda ran quickly and silently through the forest he found himself in about an hour ago. He knew they were still after him even though he had stopped hearing them hours ago. Kanda was tired and feeling a little more than ill but he knew he could not and would not be captured, he could not afford to be. Occasionally he would glance back to make sure nothing was following him within viewing range. He had Mugen of course but in his exhausted state, he would rather not fight. In addition, he really didn't want to fight them.
Fighting them would only lead to more confrontations and it was a battle he knew he could never win. They were just as good as, he was and there were more of them. Kanda did not truly fear them, he feared for what they would do to what he carrying and what he was carrying was more important than his own life.
Kanda soon slowed to a walking pace, his body unable to continue with the strain. His breathing was coming out in harsh pants. He kept walking through the forest, which had now gotten thicker. He was most likely lost but he didn't have a clear destination in mind anyways. Well, he did have one destination but that was hundreds of miles away. That destination was the only safe one left to him.
Silently trudging through the forest gave Kanda some time to think. He had never expected to land in this kind of predicament. No, this was last situation he had ever thought was possible. Nothing in his training and experience had ever prepared him for this. He needed to get somewhere safe. He had been running for nearly two days straight. It was not healthy for him. He had never worried about that before but now he had to think of another person. He had money because contrary to popular beliefs, the Vatican did pay their fighting force and Exorcists were given a hefty sum annually. Right now, he could not use his money because he was still too close to them and the enemy probably was now stationed at every village within a hundred mile radius.
It was nighttime and the weather was beginning to turn chilly. The only light Kanda had to use was the moonlight and in the dense forest, it was not helpful. Kanda huddled closer into his Exorcist coat. In the distance, he could hear running water and decided to move closer. He came upon a slight clearing by a creek bed. Kanda checked around for a moment and when he was confident, there was no one around he settle down against a tree. He embraced the much needed relaxation, his feet and every other part of his body ached. He laid Mugen on the ground beside him and brought his knees up to his chest. This allowed him to retain some warmth and comfort even though he was starving. He rested his head on his knees and stared at the creek in front of him.
Now that he was resting, Kanda had time to reflect on the last two days-no, the last three weeks. He placed a hand over his chest where the Sanskrit word darkened his skin. That damn curse put him in this situation. The curse and Lavi, Kanda amended.
Three months prior
Kanda stared impassively at the lotus that had haunted him for nearly his entire life. Soon it would be over. There was only one petal left. Only Komui knew about his lotus as Hevlaska because she would need to host his innocence for a while if he died. He hadn't told either of them he had only one left though. Tomorrow he would be heading out to what could possibly be his last mission. Yet Kanda felt no fear, he only felt a slight regret. Regret that he might not be able to see the one man he had foolishly fallen for and fallen hard.
Lavi had been sent out on mission with Allen to Jerusalem and would not return for two weeks. Kanda remembered going to see them off. It had been the first time he had ever bothered to see anyone off but he had just returned from his own mission and found only one petal. Lavi and Allen had been surprised that he went to see them off, so had all the finders. Lavi's gaze had been impenetrable and Kanda could tell he knew something. No questions were raised though and for that, Kanda was grateful. He did not think Lavi would perform well if knew about the sudden lack of petals.
Kanda had only accepted that he loved Lavi months earlier, although the feeling had been there for years, since they first met and Lavi told him he would make Kanda fall for him. Kanda hadn't told Lavi of this revelation even though Lavi had told him he would wait forever if necessary. Kanda had always found such emotion unnecessary but lately he just wasn't sure.
Kanda turned his gaze back to lotus and lay down on his bed. He'd have to get ready soon but he just couldn't bring himself to care anymore. Everything was becoming monotonous and a blur anyways.
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Lavi looked out the train window in the direction he knew the Order to be. Kanda had come to see him off and if that wasn't strange enough the expression on face definitely was. It was a look of longing and a hint of trepidation and if Lavi were bolder, he would say it was the look of a lover seeing their mate off.
Lavi was worried, Kanda never showed emotion, well, emotions other and anger, annoyance, frustration etc. What could be bothering the normally stoic samurai exorcist? He wanted this mission over with so he could get back to Yuu. He knew this mission would not last very long, especially since there was only one innocence to retrieve and both Allen and he had reached their critical synchronization rates and were now generals. Kanda was one too but unlike the other generals who's synchronization rates stayed steady, Kanda's always fluctuated and no one knew why. Lavi doubted even Kanda knew but it probably had something to do with that cursed lotus.
The last time Lavi had seen the lotus, it was down to its last two petals and Kanda's healing was nowhere close to what it had been. Lavi's thoughts hit a snag, was it the lotus? Had Kanda lost another one? The fear and apprehension must have shown on his face because across from him, Allen looked at him in concern.
"Lavi is everything all right? You look a little ill."
Lavi smiled generously at Allen, "I'm fine Allen, just thinking about the mission that's all."
Allen looked only slightly convinced but turned back to the mission report anyways. That was the thing about Allen; two years of being an Exorcist had mellowed him out from the emotional teen to a young man who could hide just as many secrets as Lavi in his eyes.
They once again returned to a comfortable silence. Lavi made a very conscious attempt to focus on the mission report but his thoughts kept trailing back to Kanda. Lavi remembered the first time he had seen Kanda. It had been the first time they had come to the Black Order, not as Exorcists but simply as historians. He had been eight then and Bookman had told him to go mingle with the people. He had gone to the cafeteria and his eyes had immediately been drawn to the child in an Exorcist uniform.
Lavi remembered his first thought had 'Cute.' The Kanda then was the same as the Kanda now. He had had his katana, which was taller than the small child was. His legs dangled from the bench he was sitting on and he was staring in disgust at a bowl of what appeared to be spaghetti. At the time the Black Order had never had a Japanese person, the closest were the Lee siblings who were Chinese. No one spoke Japanese either and Kanda hadn't learned English yet.
"Konnichiwa (hello), boku wa Deak (1)."
The child looked suspiciously at Lavi/Deak. If was surprised another person spoke Japanese he didn't show it. He didn't reply but he did shove the bowl at Lavi. Then he had quickly grabbed his katana and left Lavi. Lavi stared after him in surprise, he had never been ignored so thoroughly. Lavi soon found out more about Kanda from the other child Exorcist, Lenalee Lee. Kanda was Lavi's age, which surprised Lavi as the kid looked like he was only five or six. Apparently, Kanda came from the Akuma infested city of Edo and General Teidoll was the one who found Kanda.
Lavi was interested and every year after that one, he made sure to somehow coerce Bookman to bring him back to the Order. Lavi knew he was a failure as a Bookman when he came back to the Order as Lavi for the first time. He was fifteen and had foolishly confessed his love for the stoic samurai boy. Kanda had only stared back at him with disgust and…fear? Fear was something Lavi had never seen on the others face.
Now returning to the present, Lavi realized the fear Kanda had was the fear of attachment. Lavi had long since learned about the lotus and Kanda's lifespan. Kanda feared being attached because he was afraid of leaving the other person alone.
The redheaded general sighed and wished he could just talk to Yuu. Well the mission came first, it always did.
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Kanda gasped painfully and clutched at his side. It was a new injury to add to his already very long list. He had been caught in a surprise attack by a level four and two level three akuma. Damn it, he thought. He already had the innocence but now he was trapped. The innocence had been located on the coast of the Mediterranean and Kanda was stuck between akumas and a cliff. The finders that he had been assigned were busy doing damage control in the town, while Kanda led the Akuma away from the people.
Kanda glanced over his shoulder. Could he make the jump? Below he could see the jagged rocks and the churning waves of the high tide. He was struggling internally with his predicatment. In his current state, he couldn't fight, yet if he jumped…one petal, that's all there was. Suddenly the Akumas leapt for him and Kanda made his decision. He turned and rushed to the edge of the cliff. Looking down he grinned, then he jumped. So this was going to be it, putting his life on the line for one last time.
"Mán, shin!" a voice called. An arm reached out and wrapped securely around Kanda's waist, its grip tightening slightly. Kanda winced in pain.
"Ne, Yuu-chan, aren't you glad I showed up."
"Shut up, Baka Usagi! Watch where you're going. If you drop me I will kill you!"
Lavi grinned pulling Kanda closer to him. He was currently grateful his mission had been flop and the rumors were false. Now he could be with Yuu for a while and be able to come to his rescue. Although he doubted Kanda would able to do anything for awhile considering the extent of his injuries. Oh, well, they had the next three weeks off to do "paperwork."
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Lavi lowered them to the shore and the finders immediately appeared and took Kanda off his hands. For a brief moment, Kanda struggled and tried to break free but the struggle took up to much effort and he fainted. Lavi stared after them a bit surprised; Kanda's healing did not seem to work at all now. Lavi pondered this as he boarded the boat he'd shanghaied from the ports.
It took them about three days to get back to the headquarters. During that time, Kanda's injuries healed minimally. Lavi wanted to ask about the lotus but he wanted Kanda to talk first. Komui however, immediately took Kanda away to the infirmary and most likely to get every little bit of information he could. Lavi met up with the other Exorcists who were in the cafeteria. Most of the Exorcist and Finders were out but there sat Allen, Lenenalee and a new girl Mie Yun. Lavi joined them, sitting next to Allen. Allen was the only general remaining at Headquarters, since he had somehow managed to be put on probation yet again. He probably was annoying Link.
"Hi Lavi, how's BaKanda?" Allen asked taking a bite of something as per usual.
"Komui has him right now but he seemed to be okay," Lavi said only fibbing slightly.
"Oh that's good then," Linali said brightly. Lavi nodded absently, his thoughts already drifting back to Kanda. He was wondering how the samurai was holding up. Knowing Kanda, he was probably already dying to leave the room. However, Lavi had seen the extent of the injuries and saw they had not been healing at all and if he was not healing, then Lavi could not bother him. Lavi let his head sink into his arms. Life just had to be difficult.
Linali noticed his rather unchipper self and told him not to worry about Kanda and that her brother would take care of everything, Lavi smiled and slapped his happy mask back on.
"I'm not worried about him; he'll be back in no time. I think I'll go to the library to do some research."
"Research for what?" Allen asked curiously.
"Oh just stuff," Lavi replied airily and bounced off. Everyone just stared after him in slack-jawed wonder.
"Is there something wrong with him, General Walker?" Mie Yun asked.
Allen just shook his head sadly, "nothing we know of."
...
In the library, Lavi pulled out a book that he had recently "acquired" on one of his missions in India a few months ago. He had yet to start reading it but now seemed like a good time as any, mainly so he would stop thinking about Kanda.
The reason he had decided to take the mission in India was because of Kanda though. It had been one of his best missions ever. He had gone with Allen that time. India was not really under the Black Order or the Vatican though so the two of them really had no reason to go. India had their own Exorcists similar to those of the Middle Eastern countries. However, at the time multiple Noahs had been spotted there for some reason. It was rumored they were there for the Heart Innocence.
It was a false rumor and there hadn't even been an innocence but Lavi found the trip very informational. It was there he had learned about Kanda's curse. He hadn't told anyone about and wouldn't, not until he knew more about it and how it affected Mugen.
Lavi quickly flipped through the book to find the passage about ancient Hindu curses. He had specifically bookmarked this passage after glimpsing the Sanskrit chracter Kanda had in it. Apparently, Kanda's sanskrit character was "Ohm" a religious symbol. It symbolized the Hindu trinity and was not considered a curse. It was considered a blessing by most, especially women for some reason. Everything relating to Kanda seemed to come from India and it made Lavi wonder why because after all Yuu was Japanese.
Lavi pondered this for a moment before deeply immersing himself in the book. Here was something interesting. He quickly began to memorize the rest of the passage.
...
Kanda was effectively causing a scene in the hospital wards. Although his healing abilities had become nearly nonexistant, he refused to be bedridden for more than a day. The nurses and doctors, while used to Kanda's ways, were not about to let him go this time, not when there were no signs of Kanda healing anytime soon. Komui had been forced to return to talk to Kanda because of the young man's adamant behavior.
"Kanda, how many petals do you have left?" Komui asked softly.
The young man turned away for a moment before murmuring, "one, there's only one left."
Komui gave a sharp intake of breath. "What?" he hissed, "for how long?"
Kanda gave an easy shrug but it did not mask the tense fear set in his shoulder and body. Komui sighed and patted him gently on the shoulder.
"Don't worry we'll figure out something soon. Linali would kill me if we lost you."
Kanda snorted and turned away again. The hand on his shoulder squeezed gently and Komui left.
"Kanda you still can't leave though," came the laughing voice as it floated out the door.
Kanda turned to glare but it was too late. He stared down at his hands briefly. There were still dozens of cuts and bruises on them just like everywhere else on his body. His body was not even healing at the normal rate most people had, instead the doctors had been pumping him full of medication to prevent infection, increase healing, and to prevent major scarring.
The last one Kanda did not really need the last bit, but who was to argue with crazy doctors and nurses. Kanda stared impassively out the window into the gloomy countryside. He needed to see his lotus, it was infuriating feeling so attached to damn thing but he needed to see it. He wanted to know how wilted it was, how far it was from falling and as morbid as that was, the urge was still there.
The hospital was silent so when the door creaked open, Kanda was immediately alert.
"Who's there?" he called out.
"Hehehe Yuu-chan, no need to be so suspicious. It's just me," Lavi said sliding through the door. Kanda snorted and turned away. Lavi moved to sit by the bedside. Kanda immediately stiffened. He didn't want Lavi anywhere near him in his current state, so he focused his attention once again on the window. The moon had surprisingly began to shine through the window and casts dark shadows across the gray linoleum floor.
They both sat in a relative silence. Kanda remained focused on the window but soon he became aware of Lavi's unfaltering gaze. Finally, he turned around and snapped at the other boy.
"What the hell are you looking at?"
Lavi looked a bit startled but regained his composure quickly. "I'm looking at you, Yuu," he replied cockily. His gaze never left Kanda's face and raven-haired boy found it a bit disconcerting. He attempted to look at anything but Lavi but that was not to happen. Lavi reached over and grabbed his chin between two fingers and gently turned Kanda back to face him.
"Yuu, why did you come to see me off?"
Kanda choked, he had not been expecting that question at all. In fact, he had already forgotten about that. Briefly, he wondered where Mugen was so he could threaten Lavi properly. Lavi seemed to understand his frustrations though and released his chin. Kanda however remained staring at him. He hadn't truly looked at Lavi in such a long time. The last time he and Lavi had been sent on a mission was ages ago. Now he saw Lavi had accumulated more scars and had a gaunter look about him. The other boy was still beautiful though.
It must be a curse, Kanda thought, for all powerful Exorcists to be so gorgeous, yet to lose that beauty after every battle.
Kanda was shaken out his musings when Lavi leaned down and whispered in his ear. "Do you want to go somewhere Yuu?"
Kanda looked up startled but hid it well. "Go where? It's the middle of the night and I can't really walk or move for that matter."
Lavi only grinned lasciviously, "do you want to Yuu? It's a simple yes or no."
Kanda lightly gnawed on his lip. He didn't particularly like that look on Lavi's face but he really did want to leave this godforsaken hospital. Well, he could probably trust the dumb bunny not to do anything stupid, hopefully.
"All right, help me up and stop calling me Yuu," he said imperiously holding up an arm. Lavi got up and smiled down at him.
"Okay then, up we go, Yuu-chan," Lavi tossed back the blankets and blushed furiously but that didn't stop him. He slid an arm behind Kanda's back and under his legs and hoisted him up. Kanda nearly shrieked but that would undignified so he settle for punching Lavi in the chest.
"Ouch, Yuu-chan but this is easier for me and you." Lavi conveniently forgot to mention it was quite an erotic sight to see Kanda in nothing but a hospital gown. His legs were bare and Lavi had to admit they were the sexiest things he had ever seen.
Kanda didn't bother to complain because he was utterly comfortable, not that he would ever tell Lavi that. Lavi began to walk out of the room. Quietly they coasted through the Black Order. No one was up at the time so they made it easily through the halls. It soon became evident where they were headed when Lavi began to ascend the stairs. Neither of them spoke as if afraid to break the silence around them. Kanda laid his head against Lavi's chest much to Lavi's surprise. Lavi smiled down at the young man in his arms. Kanda was still pretty for all the scars marring his face currently. Lavi knew the petals were almost gone since no healing had occurred.
"Can you stand for a minute," Lavi whispered down to Kanda. Kanda blinked tiredly up at him for a moment then his eyes cleared and he frowned. "Of course I can walk baka usagi." Lavi set him down gently and opened up the door. A burst of cold air met them and Kanda shivered, unconsciously leaning closer to Lavi. However, the sight before him caused him to stumble forward.
Lavi had set up what appeared to be a Japanese teahouse on the rooftop. There was a teapot and cups along with food on the table. Tea lights and paper lanterns hung around them, swaying gently with the wind. Something heavy fell onto Kanda's shoulder. He glanced down and saw Lavi had placed a traditional winter kimono over his shoulders. Kanda looked up to Lavi unsure of what to say before finally muttering 'thanks.' Lavi simply smiled and shook his head; he moved toward the tables and beckoned to Kanda.
"Lavi, what is all of this?" Kanda called out. He hadn't moved a single inch and had no intention to. Lavi only smiled again-the smile was getting infuriating and Kanda wished he had Mugen- he came up to Kanda and swept him up again. This time Kanda gasped.
"You bastard, put me down now!" Kanda shouted.
"Shhhh, Yuu-chan, do you want someone to come up here now?"
Kanda flushed darkly at Lavi's husky and playful tone. Lavi carried him over to the table and handed him a cup of warm tea. There were various platters of Japanese delicacies on the table, which Kanda hadn't seen in years. Kanda felt a pang of loss even though he barely remembered his old home.
"Yuu-chan, there's something I want-no-I need to tell you," Lavi said seriously. He leaned across the table to peer into Kanda's face. Kanda backed up startled and unnerved by the sudden change in attitude.
"What is it?" Kanda asked sharply.
Lavi gave yet another sly smile before leaning all the way over and tangling his hands in Kanda's hair. He pulled Kanda close and kissed him deeply. Kanda froze and it wasn't until Lavi's tongue licked his bottom lip did he snap out of his stupor. He shot straight up and out of his seat, ignoring the sudden flaring pain in his side.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING BAKA USAGI?!"
"I love you Kanda."
Why, why now, Kanda thought for a minute before his lips were captured again.
so the next chapter will continue the flashback
hope you all liked my new story...reviews and feedback and always appreciated!
