"Leorio, i'm not joking. I'm not talking to him. I don't care, he knows what he did wrong. I'm not doing this, and i'm sure as hell not doing it now." The white haired teen spoke into the phone. "Killua, you're being unreasonable. He was angry, what he did may have not been right, but you can't just walk out on him. Not now. He was upset and angry, when you're angry you do stupid things. You've done stupid things when angry!" Leorio sighed. "But you damn well know this is a whole different situation. I don't have to do anything. I can't stay and watch him."

"Onii-chan! I made dinner! Come look! Look!" Alluka called with a bright smile. Killua looked at her and smiled. "Hey, Leorio I have to go." Then he hung up without waiting for a response, pushing off of the wall to sit at the small table with his sister. She always knew how to make him smile. She knew him better than he knew himself.

Alluka and Killua had been living in the small 2 bedroom apartment for almost a year now. Killua left his abusive home and took his sister with him and never turned back. They moved to YorkNew and Killua applied for a scholarship, and they granted him a scholarship to York New high. The best school in YorkNew city! The scholarship also granted him their living accommodations. Which fixed two of his 4 major problems, which happened after he left home. The 2 being fixed were somewhere to live and for him to finish school so he could get a good job once he graduated in the next few months. But 2 problems still remained; finding a second job, and being able to find a place to live after he graduated. But those problems Killua put in the back of his mind. He didn't want to have to think about those yet. But he still was anxious about them. Other problems Killua worried about were staying under the grid so his family can't find him or Alluka, and balancing the money he did bring in with, groceries, Alluka's needs and medical bills, and his own prescriptions. When he was younger and his "family" still did things for Killua, they brought him to a doctor who diagnosed him with Clinical depression when he was only 12. He's been on and off pills, since then. He is now 17, turning 18 next month, and he hadn't been able to afford his pills in about a month. He had done everything he could and tried everything the internet suggested. Meditation, journaling, music, working out, but it still didn't rid him of the effects of his depression. But he kept trying, even when he was ready to give up entirely. Alluka kept him going. She was his light, the most precious thing he had. The one thing that no one could take away, the one thing no one would ever take made sure of that.

"Onii-chan, what's wrong?" Killua snapped out of his spiraling thoughts. He plastered a smile on, "Nothing Alluka, sorry. What did you make?" Alluka smiled, "I made your favourite! I made spaghetti and chocolate chip cookies!" Killua's face turned into a cat like smile, "Chocolate you say? I think I should just eat those!" Alluka glared. "I made spaghetti, you're going to eat that too." Killua snickered, and pulled the bag of cookies up from behind his back. Alluka gasps,"How did you get those?!" Killua shrugged and ate a cookie. Alluka laughs and tries to reach for the bag but fails. Alluka's eyebrows furrow and she pouts her bottom lip. Killua laughs and throws her a cookie. She smiles, taking a bite.. "Mhm these aren't that bad!" "When have you, Alluka, ever done something bad? You're the best cook i know!" Killua says with a smile. Alluka smiles. "Onii-chan, you will always be honest with me. Right?" Killua's face drops in concern. "Always Alluka, you're the most important person ever to me." Alluka nods "Why are you upset? Please tell me, Onii-chan. I worry about you." Killua hesitates, debating whether or not to tell his sister what really happened. He didn't want to expose her to stuff like this. What he had done. He couldn't even see himself talking to her about it without getting angry. But he promised himself, that he would never get angry with Alluka around. But he couldn't lie to her either, "Something happened to a friend today. He did a really stupid thing. He just did something really, really stupid." al "What do you mean by stupid?" Killua sighed. "He got into a fight with a gang at school, he's in the hospital right now. His eye was cut during the fight, so he can't see out of it right now." "Onii-chan, was he fighting the "Spiders"?" Killua's mouth dropped "How do you know them?! You aren't supposed to know people like them ya know!" Alluka laughed "Onii-chan everyone knows them, girls in my class gawk over them. They never stop talking about them!" Killua chuckled, and started to eat another cookie.

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Killua closed his door and slide down against the door onto the floor. It was getting harder for Killua to stay together. The small amount of effort he could put forth for Alluka was only so much. So, when he was alone, he had nothing left for himself. No effort left, this is the longest he's ever had to go without his prescription. He didn't know if he could keep himself together long enough to wait it out until he got another paycheck. He could pick up extra shifts, but there were too many problems with that. For starters, he couldn't leave Alluka alone for too long, it made him feel like more of an awful brother than he already was. He also can't get himself out of bed in the morning, let alone try to work harder than he already if it was for Alluka instead of him, Killua would have already taken the shifts. He has yet to learn his own worth.

Killua stood up and laid down onto his bed, it creaked as he puts his whole body on it. He stared at the ceiling, hoping he would be able to get any, or at least some sleep. He could go days without sleep, but it was always awful. He would be tired, then energized, then he wouldn't sleep for days. Then the crash came. He would sleep for days at a time. It was always like this, even worse when he was off his meds. But now, being off of them for so long, started to drive Killua up the wall. At first it wasn't noticeable, he gave himself false security. Then it got worse, he wouldn't get out of bed, then he wouldn't eat, then the sleep problems. The only thing that kept Killua semi sane, was the reassuring thought that Alluka didn't know about his lack of meds. It still bothered him that she knew about his depression, but it was hard to make an excuse about why he took pills every morning, everyday. It was also hard to make excuses for his therapy appointments. But those stopped a long time ago. There was no way for Killua to ever budget his money enough to still pay his therapists bill. Killua didn't really mind, however, he was never the type of person to be able to talk easily. Killua knew that, but he didn't particularly care.

Eventually, Killua's eyes drifted shut and he was able to get a few hours sleep.

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