Lover I don't have to love

Summary: Yes, something bad happens to Marky, but it's definitely not what you think. Slightly AU. Eventual M/R.

A/N: Thank you so much for reading this! Yes, it's very short and vague but I hope you like it.

Disclaimer: Do not own.


The Prologue

Mark's POV

December 14, 1991

When Roger used to tell me I hide behind my camera, I would scoff and tell him to look at himself before he tried to point out my flaws. He'd grin slightly , still remaining serious, and say, in that cocky way he has about everything, that he looked at himself quite often and knew every single one of his flaws and had learned to embrace them fully instead of pushing them away.

"You of all people know that everyone has their issues, Mark, but you won't admit to having a single one. You're Mr. 'I'm fine and I don't need any help'. Seeing you like this is driving me crazy and I just really want you to talk to me."

He was looking me straight in the eyes desperately as he said this. I kept my head down in a effort to keep him from seeing anything. I don't want him invading my thoughts like this. Those green eyes are like telescopes and everything I have inside I've kept very well hidden.

"There's nothing to talk about Roger. What happened happened and I just need to get past it, okay?"

Of course, my typical way of dealing with anything is to just brush it off. I didn't even believe myself as I said it and he didn't either. Roger really knows me very well, almost too well. Like when he had finally found me outside in the rain, crying like a blubbering idiot and saying something about how much we needed all the money but it was just too hard. He had looked at me just like he is now and wrapped his arms around me tightly, apologizing over and over, like any of it was somehow his fault.

"I know you do but you're not going to do this alone. I'm not going to let you."


A/N: Love it? Hate it? It won't hurt my feelings, just let me know! :) Oh, and if you have a better idea for a title just let me know, the one I have now isn't permanent.