Just So You Know
A/N: ok so Jesse McCartney's new album came out last month and of course I listened to it thinking of Jate the entire time. I've been wanting to write a story on one of the songs but I've just never gotten around to it. This is a angsty fic about how Jack should've gotten around to telling Kate how he felt and now he's trying to deal with it with great difficulty.
I shouldn't love you, but I want to, I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move,
I can't look away
He closed his eyes as he leaned against the tall tree. They had only gotten back a couple of weeks ago from the other's camp, if you could call it that. It turned out that there were tons of houses and they were much better off than everyone else. Jack had been given a choice though after a while, to either live with the Others or to live with his friends. Of course he wanted his friends. He had been told early on to stop worrying about Kate and Sawyer, that they had already been set free. Jack doubted that, but if he could be set free, then maybe he could help them escape as well. But there was one bad thing about that, Jack didn't want to let Juliet go. They had gotten closer, much closer over the past month. He had talked to her and she told him that she wanted to come to his camp. So she arranged it with Ben and he permitted her to go with him.
(flashback)
Jack's heart beat excitedly as he and Juliet walked out of the building freely.
"I can't wait to meet everyone Jack."
"Yeah." Jack nodded distractedly. Now that he was actually out in the open air, all he could think about was Kate. "Did you guys really let Kate and Sawyer go?"
Juliet stopped. "Why are you asking that?"
Jack turned around. "Well I don't really trust you guys. How am I supposed to know whether they are still here or not?"
"You don't trust me?" Juliet was offended. After all she had done for him, he was treating her like she didn't mean anything to him. She hadn't planned on falling in love with him. He was just supposed to be there to be their doctor for a couple of weeks, and then they were going to let him and his friends go. But she had fallen in love with him. Reading his documents that had all the information about him made her feel sorry for him, yet she had still done what Ben has asked her to do, even though it had sickened her. But it had worked. Jack had finally given in. But then they both realized soon after that, that there was something there between them. Well she had thought that. It had never occurred to her that he might have been faking it.
"Oh Julia. I'm sorry. I didn't mean you of course." Jack said apologetically.
Juliet put her hands on her hips. "After all I've done for you, you still don't trust me, do you?"
Jack sighed. "Look, your people have hurt ours. I'm not there yet."
Now Juliet was mad. "We hurt your people? Well what about you guys stealing our food and walking all over the island like it was yours! And beside that, your people killed our only doctor left and a good friend!"
"Ethan tried to kill Charlie. And he kidnapped Claire."
"We were trying to protect Claire! Charlie got in the way. That's not our fault. And you wouldn't stop following. You just had to go save him like you have to save everything. You can't fix everything Jack. Can't you ever understand that? I'd think you would by now." Juliet immediately regretted saying that when she saw the hurt on Jack's face. The last thing she wanted to do was hurt him even more then they had already.
Juliet slowly approached him and placed a hand on his arm. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean that."
"Yeah you did." Jack said harshly, and he began walking off.
"Jack you don't even know where you are going." Juliet hurried after him.
"Well them come show me. Show me where my friends are."
Juliet sighed. "Ok. Okay. They're fine. I promise. They were going to let them go after you and I left. But I see that you would rather have it this way."
Juliet and Jack walked for a couple of minutes and Jack couldn't believe he had let himself fall in love with Juliet when Kate might have been all alone. He had tried many times to find them but he had never been successful.
Juliet rounded a corner and she stopped and fiddled with a box sitting in the bushes. "Your friends are in cages over there. Here is the key for the cages. I'll stay here while you get them."
Jack took the key she handed him. "Thank you." He gripped her hand in thanks and then he ran over there.
He found her cage first and immediately started calling her name. "Kate!" He reached the door and found her to be sleeping on a concrete platform.
Kate slowly woke up and when she noticed him she stood up. "Jack!" She got to the cage door as fast as she could.
He fumbled with the key and swung it open and Kate came flying out.
"Jack!"
Jack pulled her to him in a tight embrace.
Kate pulled away first and Jack started asking her a whir of questions and she answered them quickly, telling him that she was ok and that they had been treated all right.
"We saw you once. We tried to get your attention but the room must have been soundproof. We haven't been sure since we last saw you. We've pretty much given up."
"I'm fine. Kate I've missed-"
"Jack don't we have to hurry? Come get Sawyer out." She led Jack across the way to wear Sawyer was sleeping on the floor. He had obviously been treated the worst. He looked exhausted.
"He's taken a lot. He's been so wonderful Jack. He made sure they didn't harm me." Kate told him as he unlocked the cage. Jack just nodded, grateful that she was ok and glad that Sawyer had watched over her.
Kate went inside and shook Sawyer awake. "Sawyer! Jack's here. We're going to be ok."
Sawyer sat up and Kate started laughing happily. Jack had never seen her this way. Of course he had never seen her kidnapped before either.
Jack was transfixed by the scene that unfolded in front of him. Sawyer stood up, looking tired and beaten, but also happy as well.
Kate grabbed onto him and smiled. "We did it Sawyer."
He grinned at her. "I told you I'd take care of you Freckles."
"Thanks Doc." He looked at him sincerely as they walked out of the cage. Jack only nodded unable to speak. Of course he couldn't be sure, and he probably shouldn't jump to conclusions, but there was definitely something there between them. Sawyer and Kate waited for Jack to lead them and he did.
Juliet waited around the corner, knowing Jack was going to see Sawyer and Kate. She had seen the two of them steal kisses multiple times whenever they were allowed to actually be together. Juliet wasn't sure how it had happened, but just suddenly they had both gotten much friendlier with each other. She wanted to protect Jack as much as possible, so she wanted to take him back to his camp, hoping he wouldn't ask about his friends. But she should have known better. So now she dreaded seeing Jack's face when they rounded the corner, and she knew it was soon, because she could hear Sawyer and Kate overwhelming Jack with questions, which he reluctantly answered.
When they rounded the corner, Juliet smiled at Jack and he halfheartedly smiled back.
But when Sawyer and Kate rounded the corner a few seconds later, they both looked horrified.
"Run!" Sawyer said and he grabbed Kate's hand and they started running.
"Wait!" Jack said and he ran after them and brought them back. Kate and Sawyer looked at Juliet cautiously and Jack hurriedly explained everything.
"How could you?" Kate had a dark hurtful look on her face, obviously thinking that Jack had betrayed them.
"I'm serious. She's ok. She's going to come back with us."
"Yeah to be a spy!" Sawyer said.
Jack didn't miss the fact that Sawyer and Kate were still holding hands, which was a big surprise to him since Sawyer didn't seem like the hand-holding type but he continued to explain to them exactly what was going on and finally they seemed to believe him, though Sawyer whispered threats to Juliet as they walked past her.
Jack and Juliet brought up the front while Sawyer and Kate lagged behind.
Juliet reached for Jack's hand and squeezed it. "You okay?" She looked at him sympathetically.
"Yeah I'm fine. " Jack lied and Juliet saw straight through him but let it go. Knowing Jack he would try to do something, and in order to stop it, she had to stay on his side.
But Jack let go of Juliet's hand, not in the mood for any of that. He hadn't really ever been in the mood for it he realized. He had missed Kate terribly and even now that she was a couple of feet away from him, he still missed her. He heard them laughing and talking about things they had been though that had probably been hard to go through at the time, but they now found them funny. Jack sighed. This was going to be a long trip home.
I shouldn't love you, but I want to, I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move,
I can't look away
(End Flashback)
Jack rubbed his head and continued going, rolling his eyes as he spotted Kate giving Sawyer yet another haircut down the beach. He had to admit, the whole ordeal had changed Sawyer drastically, and Kate seemed happy all the time. Maybe Sawyer was good for her, but there was that emptiness in his heart that wouldn't go away, even when Juliet would try to fill it.
And I don't know, how to be fine when I'm not.
And I don't know, how to make a feeling stop.
Just so you know,
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it.
I won't sit around
I can't let them win now.
A/N: So that was the first chapter. The next chapter will have more lyrics and will tie in to the song more.
