Prologue

Bella's POV

Its been almost a month now and the memories are still fresh in mind as if they have been permanently been burned into my memory.

I don't think anyone was left completely unaffected by their deaths, and I would sound bratty if I said I was affected the worst, but I can't help but feel that way.

Life has been hell since that day and I can't see it getting any better. That day, Victoria, the mate of James, a vampire he killed to protect me. Vampires tend to hold grudges, so Victoria had been hunting me down trying to get her revenge on him. Because of the Quilette wolves, she hadn't been able to get anywhere near me until that day. She was able to assemble an army of newborn vampires so she could come after me.

That was the day my world came crumbling down.

Now that I think about it I probably deserve this. I was hurting them both and I refused to stop. They both just wanted me to be happy and all I had to do was choose. One final choice and it would stop all the conflicts, all the drama, and all the pain.

But I couldn't make that choice..

Edward Cullen or Jacob Black. I knew I loved Edward and that somehow he loved me back. I also loved my best friend, Jacob, just not the way he would have wanted. Not until, at least, until it was too late.

This is the story of how I lost the ones I loved and the days that followed.