This story will be in Miley's POV.
It was raining outside and I saw two persons standind there in the rain. A boy and a girl. Suddenly I realized this figures weren't just two persons. They were Nick and me.
"Nick, what's the matter?" I said, trying to hide my tears. I knew what was coming. I knew it when he called me and told me we needed to talk.
"Miley, I thought a lot." He said his voice cracking.
"What is it supposed to mean. You thought a lot?" I was confused. Or maybe I just didn't want to believe what was happening with me.
"About us. Look at us. We're like we're married for 20 years and just argueing and fighting about the most stupid stuff."
My face went white while tears started falling. I just stared at him, unable to speak.
"Mi, I hate doing this... But I don't think I can take it any longer. I love you, never forget that. But listen, this is wrong and .. "
Anger was boiling up inside me. I couldn't take this anymore so I just interrupted him.
"So you think our relationship is wrong?! Couldn't you have been thinking about it before you asked me out?! Before we had our first anniversary. Nick it's been almost 2 years now!!" I yelled at him, not caring anyone could hear us since we were outside.
"That's not what I said. I just... We're so young and I ... I can't take this anymore.. I know it's been almost 2 years. I'm happy it was that long. But Mi, we.. I.. I'm breaking up with you."
I couldn't help but cried even more. He tried to comfort me but I didn't let him touch me. I was angry. I could've slapped him. Well, I didn't though, but I could've.
"WHY?"
"Did you even listen to what I said the past few minutes?" He tried not to hurt my feelings that much but now he sensed up, too. I can tell he was pretty angry at me now.
"Yes I did. But you also said you'd love me."
"I do. I suppose I always will."
"You wouldn't do this to me if you'd really love me. Seems like everything you EVER said was a lie. Just like the love you tried to act. You're such a stupid liar Nicholas!" I was surprised I was able to speak though I was crying so hard.
"Guess what Miley, you don't even see how much it hurts me. Well I'm done. I'm going now. Bye." He turned around, ready to leave. I called after him, wanted him to stop and tell me he didn't mean what he said. I wanted him to tell me we were together again. But he had already left.
I woke up and lay in my bed, sweat all over my body, hot tears streaming down my cheeks. I didn't think or dream about this day since it happened. I thought I got over it. Well, I knew I didn't but I kept pretending. And it worked until now.
There was this feeling of nausea so I got up and went to the bathroom when I realized it was just 6am. I wasn't a morning person but I didn't feel like going to bed either so I spattered cold water on my face and tried to calm down.
After a while of standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom I walked back to my room when it suddenly hit me. 19th of December 2008. Exactly one year after our break up. All of a sudden I felt numb. I wasn't able to move. One year. I totally forgot this day would be today. No, I was stong. Well, at least that's what I thought until I fell down on my bed bursting into tears.
Bright sunlight lightened my room and I opened my eyes. I knew I must've cried myself to sleep, 'cause it was almost 11 when I was woken up by the sun. I still felt weak but I got up anyways. After I got up I went downstairs to get something to eat though I wasn't even hungry at all.
When I entered the kitchen my mom was sitting at the counter. She must've noticed something was wrong 'cause she immediately asked about my bad mood.
"What's wrong hun?"
"It's just..." I couldn't say more.
"Just...?"
"I just feel sick. I had the feeling of nausea this morning. I really thought I'd have to puke."
"Aw come here. Are you feeling any better?"
"Not at all." I said honestly.
"Well, maybe you should stay home today. We could do the christmas shopping when you're feeling better."
"No mom, I wanna go. Need to keep my busy. Get my ming off.."
"oh I see where this is going."
"You do?" I was confused.
"Yes. I know you better than you think. Plus I can put one and one together. The day, your mood. Miley I know exactly what's wrong. Today's the day..." I couldn't hear it. I didn't want to hear it. So I interrupted her before she had the chance to say it out loud.
"Mom, please don't say it. I.. I don't wanna talk about it."
"It's alright." She gave me a bear hug. "So how about you're slowly getting ready and we're leaving for lunch?"
"Alright mom."
After I had eaten breakfast I went back upstairs and took a quick shower. I dried my hair and went to my closet. Like usually I couldn't decide what to wear so I just took out a pair of skinny black jeans and a white shirt. Since it wasn't that cold outside I just wore a thin jacket and a pair of white converse.
At 12.30 I got ready and my mom and I left. I was glad I had a day with her alone. A day off. It was a few days before christmas so we weren't recognized at all. Of course some people, especial children, saw us and asked for autographs and pictures. We went to a restaurant to get lunch an hour later.
When we were done my mom and I went to the mall to do the shopping. At a store for clothes my mom went to try something on so I decided to look around and see if I find something, too. But my smile suddenly frown when I saw the back of a curly head boy. I could recognize those curls anywhere, between thousands of people.
I wanted to stay calm and hoped he wouldn't turn around but I obviously didn't have luck at this point. He turned around and we stared into each others eyes.
"Oh... uhm... hi?" I muttled barely audiable, forcing a weak smile.
"Hey." Nick said.
"Christmas shopping?"
"Yeah. My mom's trying on some clothes so I'm just waiting here.. What about you?"
"Same." I couldn't say more. I even didn't believe we were actually talking since we didn't talk after the whole break up drama. We didn't even talk when we saw each other at events.
"So.. uhm.. how've you been?" He obviously felt uncomfortable, just like me.
I hesitated a few senconds, not sure what to say. I've been miserable without him but I couldn't tell him about it.
"Alright I guess. Just kinda sick." I finally managed to say.
"Oh, what's wrong?"
"Nothing special.. Just had this feeling of nausea this morning. I felt like I had to puke." I must've looked totally weak at this moment.
"Are you okay? Your face looks so white."
"Yeah I am. I guess it's just one of this 24 hours flu-like stuff."
"Well, alright. Maybe it's just the day..."
Wow I really didn't except this one. I actually thought he had forgotten about it.
"I don't know. But please don't ." He interrupted me.
"I'm sorry Mi.."
"Nick.. You... You didn't call me like that since... well... this day...."
"I'm sorry."
"No, it's okay.. I actually like this name. It's just.. I didn't hear it a lot last time. You and Joe were the only once who called me like that. It's just uhm.. crazy to hear it again. Those memories and.." My voice cracked and I couldn't say more. I felt tears in my eyes but I didn't cry.
"Oh alright." He said.
This conversation was getting awkward. I didn't want to talk about this day. Or the memories.
"I'm wondering what's taking my mom so long.." I started to change the subject.
"Me either."
"Well, maybe we should go and check.?"
I didn't even know why I had said it. I guess I just wanted be nice. And I really wanted to go back to my mom and tell her to leave.. though I also wanted to stay. Together with him..
"Miley??" I snapped out of my thoughts.
"Huh? Sorry, I guess I got lost in thoughts. What did you say?"
He laughed and replied "I said you're right we should go and check. So c'mon."
When we reached the changing cublices we founds our moms standing there talking. They smiled at us when they saw us walking over. Together.
"Miley hun, long time no see." Denise, Nick's mom said while she embraced me in a warm hug.
"Yeah, it's good to see you again." I said and pulled away.
"So," my mom started. "We have something to tell. Since we both didn't plan anything for christmas eve we decided to spend it together at our house."
Nick and my jaw dropped. We kinda didn't believe what my mom had just said. Things were still real awkward, we had a lot to talk about and christmas deifinitely wasn't the best day to talk about it. Well actually I was exploding inside and couldn't wait to see his family and especial Nick in a few days. I just couldn't show it.
"That's.. uhm.." Nick started and looked at me. Seems like he realized the small smile I gave him, just he could notice so, so he could see I was alright with it. "great." He finished and smiled.
"Yeah." I said and smiled back.
"So it's settled?" Denise asked and Nick and I nodded in union and our moms smiled.
"How about you come over at 6pm on christmas eve?" My mom suggested.
"That's perfect." Denise answered.
"Well, Miles and I have to go now, still need to buy a lot. See you in a few days. It was great to see you again."
Our moms hugged each other, then Denise hugged me and my mom hugged Nick. They looked at us expectantly. Nick took a step closer to me. I didn't know what to do. Was he really going to hug me? Oh my gosh. He opened his arm and I opened mine. I felt sparks all over my body when I was in his arms again. He definitely grew up the past year. He was stronger..
Wait, what was I thinking? He was my ex. My ex I was still hugging. We finally pulled away and went our ways..
A/N Well, first chapter's up. I try to update soon. Tell me what you think. Please review. (:
