The rain was pouring outside Castle Oblivion. There hadn´t been a downpour like that one in years. It seemed to reflect the mood inside the castle. Everyone had noticed how Axel had been feeling lately. You had to be blind or Marluxia not to notice, and even he had. It wasn't just that there were fewer and fewer things randomly combusting, but the air itself was dark and depressing.


Axel sat in his room alone that night. He hadn't bothered to turn his lights on; the darkness suited him just then. He was sitting on the edge of the bed, and was staring hardly at the floor. He was tired of everyone going out of their way to cheer him up, he was fine, he was just…

A tear rolled down Axel's cheek and landed on his palm. He studied it for a second, and frowning set it ablaze, evaporating it.

He thought of the one whose existence in this parallel life had been but eternal suffering; how he had wanted to be whole again, human and he hadn't been able to help him. Well, it shouldn't matter if he wasn't around should it? He sighed heavily. "Roxas…" His memories lead him back….


Axel saw Roxas walk by him that night. It would have been dark, but the light from the apartments illuminated every inch of the place. He knew Roxas could see him, so he didn't go after him. He waited until Roxas passed him, and when he didn't stop, he spoke.

"So, you've decided?"

Roxas stopped in his tracks, but didn't look back at him. "Why did the key blade pick me? I want to find out."

His indifference towards Axel was what hurt the most. Roxas hadn't been the same as usual. It was as if he was someone completely different to the boy he had grown to love. Love… How could he not, if after all the time he spent in the dark, that boy had made him feel again. He had understood him, cared for him, been with him since the beginning without judging him, or asking him about his past. Just a kid, and yet, he had known perfectly all there was to know, and it was enough. His wounded child, his beautiful Roxas…

"You can't turn on the organization! You get on their bad side and they'll destroy you!"

His emotions were finally coming afloat. He hated Roxas for putting him in this position. Hated him, and yet…
Roxas turned away. "No one would miss me." He let a few seconds of silence tick by, and when Axel didn't respond, he continued to walk away.

Axel thought his heart would break in two, luckily he didn't have one anymore. He stared at the ground and heard Roxas footsteps fade away into the night.

"That's not true...!" he felt all anger leave him. He breathed, defeated. "I would..."


"I would…" He felt the tears swell up in his eyes again and stood up in a furry. The emotions were swirling inside him. Even without a heart he could still feel, better perhaps that Lea ever did. How was that possible? And for a kid. But this was different wasn't he?

He started pacing about in the room. He thought of the time Roxas had joined the Organization and had been brought into the castle. Xemnas had been babbling away some useless explanation, Larxene had gone to bitch in her room about new members even though she was the previous one, Luxord had been giggling with Marluxia about Roxas, Axel suspected there were large quantities of Luxord's favorite Sake involved, but at that moment he had only had eyes for Roxas. He had seemed so nervous, and looked so vulnerable and cute in the black over-sized coat that Zexi ended up fixing for him. Axel had gone and gotten help from Xaldin and Xigbar, and distracting Xemnas, stolen Roxas away. The boy had tried to act very tough but the act hadn't been very believable.

Axel's thoughts drifted to the next memory, training Roxas to fight. In one of the many rooms in Castle Oblivion, all the members trained daily. Normally everyone would do it in their own schedule, but since Roxas was new, everyone had gathered to watch. His first opponent was Saïx to everyone's surprise. Axel laughed softly at the thought; Roxas had fallen down and he had gotten so upset when everyone laughed, he stabbed Saïx in the face. He had to hide with Roxas in a closet until the Berserker had calmed down a bit. He had never thought Roxas would have the strength, but the scar in Saïx's face was proof enough.

There were so many happy memories; the first time they had gone out of the Castle, the welcoming dinner, introducing the Nobodies, playing pranks on Vexen's lab, but then, there were also the other memories…

While in his reverie, he heard a soft knock on the door. "Axel? Can I come in?"

-------

It'll get better, I promise.! This is the introduction, kindda...I'm just supp. tired right now.- Jul.1st.

Ok, finishing second chap. Probably upload later. -Jul 2nd.

Ok, itll take i while. I decided to upload more than one chapter at once, cuz some of them are a little boring if they dont have continuity. So sorry. Wont take long though. - Jun 4th.

And thanks for the reviews.!! :D