JPOV-

I'm so tired of being here, but I can't stay away. I've been here every day for seven months since it happened.

It's barely two in the afternoon and, as usual, the sky is covered by a thick gray blanket of clouds. How appropriate.

I trudge my way through the muddy woods out to the open space.

Bella?

No, not Bella. What was I thinking? The resemblance isn't even close. This girl's hair is long and red, almost copperish, and flows in curls down her back, and her arms and legs are long. She stands on the edge of the cliff, her hands in the pockets of her dark gray parka, tapping her foot tunelessly while staring out towards the horizon.

"Hey!" I yell to her.

She turns to me, blinks and says, "Oh, hi." smiling. Her jawline is sharp and her cheeks are rosy-red.

I clutch my jacket tight around my lanky body and walk to her.

"What are you doing up here?" I ask her.

"Oh," she answers turning her gaze back towards the water, "just admiring the view."

I notice how dangerously close she's standing. "Are you sure you want to be standing so close?"

She looks down at the rocks, then at me. "Why?" Her eyes are round and colored chestnut brown, almost like-

"Because," I grumble, shaking my head, "you could-"

I look down at the bottom of the cliff, at the cruel waters beating against the rocks

"-you could fall."

Suddenly all I hear is the waves splashing against the shore as Bella layed cold and stilll under me.

I realize that the girl I was talking to said something and I turn back to her. "I-I'm sorry?"

Now she's standing at least two feet back from where she was standing before.

"I said 'Alright, if you say so' and moved back."

"Oh." I look down once more, then step back. "Sorry, I guess I kind of spaced out."

"It's okay."

"So what's your name?"

She smiles and tucks her hair behind her ear. "Renesmee."

I raise my eyebrows. "Renesmee? That's a very, um, different name."

She rolls her eyes and groans, "Yeah, yeah, I know. My parents named me after my grandma or something. I hate it."

"I like it. I think it's interesting."

She smiles sweetly. "Well thank you, uuh-?"

"Jacob." I answer.

"Jacob." she whispers to herself, nodding as if in approval. "Well, I guess I'll see you around." she says while walking away, "Later Jake."

I look towards her in surprise. No one ever called me "Jake", well, except for-

I return to the edge and look down, observing the water. I watch the waves crash against the rocks, go up the wall in a salty foam, then collapse back into the ocean.

I picture Bella in the same place I'm standing, and the tears already start to come out.

I wonder what she was thinking at the time. What she must have been feeling.

Loneliness?

Heartbreak?

Hopelesness?


my newest Jake X Nessie fic. inspired by My Immortal by Evanescence (my favorite band XD)

this one is a lot sadder than my others, but it's still awesome.

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