Someone pointed out that I should work on my spelling and grammar, I'm sorry for it but I really can't help it. I'm 15 now and I've only had so much lessons in English at school. I know my English isn't good but I swear I'm trying my best. I live in Belgium and I speak Dutch at home. The only language they teach us seriously at school is French. So again… I apologize. I tried to rewrite this chapter and get rid of as many faults as possible, but there's only so much I can do. I do have heard of Beta's. I don't really get the system, but if someone would like to explain it to me and become mine… Yes please!

Hit. Turn. Jump. Punch. I know, this probably sounds wrong, but I'm almost done and then I'll start explaining. Yes! He's on the ground. Like I said before: this probably needs some explanation.

I'm a Shadowhunter, I train. Every free moment I get I spend in the traininghall. Right now I was in a simulation. That's like, really cool! We put on some weird glasses and suddenly we are somewhere completely else. We get attacked by demons and other creatures from Hell. Well, not exactly from Hell… Demons just are from other dimensions and they come to ours 'cause they have allready ruined all their other dimensions. Shadowhunters are here to kill them. To make sure they don't kill this dimension.

When the first demons started invading this dimension Jonathan Shadowhunter called in the help of an angel, the angel Raziël. The angel gave him a cup with his blood in it, a mirror and a sword. Everyone who drank from the cup became a Shadowhunter. But some idiot – Sebastian Verlac – used the Mortal Instruments – the cup, the mirror and the sword – to evoke the angel again and he asked something ridiculous, I think he wanted the angel to help him take over the world. Because of that the angel destroyed the Mortal Instruments, like that no one could call for his help again.

But because the cup is gone now, we can't make new Shadowhunters. Many Shadowhunters die young and there aren't much children. So it's not like I'm obligated to train this much, but if there aren't much Shadowhunters I believe that the ones that are still alive and able to fight should give their best. That's pretty much what I'm trying to do.

Okay, I also just want to be the best. Even more, I need to be the best. When I was younger the Clave doubted I'd be ever good enough to really matter, probably because my mother and father weren't their best fighters. When I was only a few months old my dad died in a fight with a demon.

If you didn't know: that's what shadowhunters do. Kill demons, protect the humans and try not to get killed while doing this. That isn't easy. I thought I'd tell 'cause maybe you are an idiot and think it is… How would I know? You're reading my story and although I'm like really hot – and not at all arrogant – my life isn't that interesting. I may pretend it is, but all I do is train and hunt.

Whatever you think when you see us (if you ever do, but that is pretty impossible 'cause we always use our glamour rune) we aren't humans. We're Nephilim. That means we're part angels, pretty cool, no?

But like I said: the Clave didn't think I'd be good enough to serve them. They thought about taking my runes away and thought about making me just like all the other humans. But Maryse (my adoptional mother) begged them to give me at least one chance. So I got it, but as soon as I mess up (even just one time) I'll be stripped from my marks and send to the human world. So ever since I just try to be the best at everything I do. Most shadowhunters of my age used to think I train to hard. They thoughy that I'm fighting for a lost case, they thought that I'll fail once. But then they haven't met Jace Herondale. I made sure that none of them ever doubted me again.

Damn, that sounds a lot like I killed them. Don't worry, I didn't, that would be the easiest way to lose everything I fought so hard for. And no way in hell I'm going to let that happen. No I just made sure to stand out in every way possible. I always had to be better than the rest. Smarter, faster, stronger,… But I should be training now, I'm almost done anyway.

'Jace?', one of my best friends Alec called. 'What are you doing?'

Damn, I just wanted to start training again. If Alec's looking for me there is something bad happening, or has already happened, he knows not to interrupt me while I'm training.

'Well, now I'm talking, but before you interrupted me I was training.'

'Hmm, from what I saw you were training hard, or hardly training', he said snickering.

'O, ha ha. I see we're in our hilarious mode today.' Note the sarcasm.

'No, there's something important I need to tell you.' I hadn't noticed this before but he sounded pretty worried and angry.

'Spill.'

'The Clave has gone completely crazy!'

'What the hell are you talking about. I know they aren't always the brightest minds but I think you're a little bit exagerating now.'

'No, I'm not. There are not enough shadowhunters and they want every shadowhunter above 16 to marry someone. But this isn't the most crazy part. We don't even get to choose who we want to marry! The Clave decided to make this "easier" for us and they are gonna pick our partner! What are they thinking? They just decided this!'

'What? You can't be serious! Tell me you are joking!'

'Nope, I'm not!'

Yeah, I'm not almost done training at all. The punching bag is going to need to survive a lot more punches if the Clave wants to survive this. I might be a good shadowhunter but I have a pretty short temper. And making me marry someone I barely know is enough to make me explode.

Now I'm in bed I know I probably overreacted a little bit in the training hall when Alec told me the news. Now that I think it over I just feel sorry for the girl that is going to marry me. It's not for nothing that the other shadowhunters call me the ice prince. I know what you think: a hot guy like me should have a girlfriend. And it isn't for lack of trying on the girls' part, they try hard enough to make me fall in love with them. It's my fault that I don't have a girlfriend. They just don't have a purpose. I mean, what can you use them for? To brag with in front of your friends. Not necessary, I look hot… I just brag with that and all the girls who try to get in my bed. I don't want girls, need girls or whatever.

And I most definitely don't fall in love. Maybe others do but I think girls just make you weak and you don't need them for anything. My heart is a stone, or ice if you like that better. Now you probably think I'm a virgin, nope… When I was like 17 I used to be a huge playboy and I indead had every girl that threw herself at me… To disappear later and break their hearts.

But it's not like I'm not proud of my titel of ice prince. It makes me feel like something unreachable, something better than the others. The next level shadowhunter, but it's not like I don't have any feelings.

So yeah, I pretty much just feel sorry for the girl now. They Clave really doesn't know how unhappy they are going to make her. And neither does she. I mean, how can she not fall in love with me? If you look at me you see the golden boy.

That's what people used to call me before I became the ice prince. The golden boy. Golden hair that almost reaches my shoulders in some smooth curls. A face with high cheeckbones and golden eyes. Yes, golden eyes. It was because of something that went wrong by birth, my eyes weren't the normal brown but much lighter: golden. But I don't think it really was something that went wrong with my birth: I mean, come on… Who doesn't want golden eyes? Most girls even describe my tan as golden. I just think it's perfect. Thanks to all the training I have a body that most human boys can only dream of. So yes, pretty much every girl I meet immediately falls in love with me. Or she just lusts after me, but what's the difference. To love is to destroy and to be loved is to be the one getting destroyed anyway. So what's the point?

But my future wife isn't the only girl that is going to get her heart broken. The girls that are going to marry Sebastian and Alec are probably getting the same thing.

Sebastian is in some ways exactly the same as me. Most girls consider both of us pretty hot, although we are each other's opposites. While I have even during winter a nice tan, Seb is even in the summer white. White as in white like a dath body.

When we were 17 we were each other's enemies. Why? 'Cause we were the only 2 boys the girls wanted. Yeah, stupid I know. We were the only ones that could compete with each other's looks. Now we aren't great friends either but the rivalery is gone. Pretty much because I retired from being a player.

That's now our biggest difference – except for our looks maybe –: I never get related to any girl and train, train, train. Sebastian never gets related to girls either but he uses them. He must have at least one girl a day. I think that is ridiculous. I mean, how short can your attention bow be. I'm just like, what happens if he doesn't have his girl a day? Does he give himself a hand job? Or does he go in his pants like a little boy?

But even with Sebastian the problem is less big than with Alec. I don't know if Alec has really admitted it to himself yet, but he is gay.

He used to be in love with me, I think he chose me because I was a safe option. He knew it could never be something between us. First of all because he knew that I was into girls, even if I didn't show it. But even more so because I am his parabatai. This makes probably no sense to humans, but it means that we are bond to each other, in more than just one way. But love will never be any of them.

But when Magnus moved to this insitute to train with us, he knew that I wasn't the one for him and he fell in love with Magnus, even if he doesn't want to admit it yet. So yeah, the girls that would marry us would get a hard time staying here, and they would probably get their heart broken.

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