It was a cold and stormy night in Queens New York and Elliott has been fighting with Kathy for the past hour and a half."Elliot when are you going to let her go?" she screamed from across the small kitchen. Elliot looked her over only just now noticing how she had gotten thinner and lost her color over the years. Kathy didn't back down from his silent gaze. She knew that he would never love her again as much as he did when they were young. Before he met... she couldn't even get herself to say the woman's name. Just the sound of her name sends chills up and down Kathy's spine. Olivia.

Kathy remembered the day the became partners all those years ago. She remembered how threatened she felt by her when Elliot would have to "work late" or go leave to meet her at a crime scene in the middle of the night. It put a strain on their marriage, but she thought they could fight through. When she became pregnant with her youngest, Eli, she thought he would come to his senses and come home, but she felt it made him resent her more. Kathy thought about the day Eli was born and how Olivia had been the one to save them. She was so conflicted because the beautiful woman she had tried to hate for so long was the one who was her saving grace. She looked down at the counter in front of her when she recounted the day Olivia had left SVU. She was almost relieved until she saw the look in her husbands eyes. Olivia wasn't the same after Lewis had taken her. She pushed them all away and wouldn't tell them what happened to her during her time in captivity. She was told to take personal time after she was rescued and Elliot thought she could bounce back. He didn't want to push her to talk to him if she wasn't ready and he was willing to wait as long as it took. One day Cragen walked into the bullpen with his head hung low. He announced the Olivia had put in her papers and wouldn't be returning. Time stopped. It took all of his strength not to fall apart right then and there. She was the heart of the squad how could she just leave? The rest of the guys had moved on after a while, but Elliot just couldn't. After what seemed like an eternity Elliot finally spoke. "Kathy come on, you know I love you. I-I just can't live not knowing what happened to her. Knowing, maybe, I could have done something more." Elliot said tearfully looking deep into her eyes.

Kathy blinked shocked at the amount of emotion that he was displaying. She had never seen that much emotion from him. She was finally ready to face the truth and verbalize something she had been so afraid to believe. "You are in love with her. That's why you wont move on." Elliot looked at the woman in front of him and seemed almost panicked. He took a step towards her and she shook her head and put her hand up to hold him back. She started to take steps backwards, putting more distance between the two of them before speaking again, "Don't let me hold you back. When you realize that there is no gold at the end of this rainbow just remember you had a good thing going here." Kathy walked over to Elliot and kissed his fore head one last time and said, " Goodbye Elliot." As she turned to leave he wanted to grab her and tell her she was wrong. He wanted to make her feel safe and loved. He wanted to take away the pain he saw in her eyes, but he couldn't. He couldn't because he knew she was right. Elliot Stabler was in love with Olivia Benson. The Olivia that was his partner for so many years. The one he had given so much of himself to through the cases they had worked and the thins they had seen. He knew he needed to have her back so he could explain how he had felt and go down the path he had been so afraid of just 4 years before. He just hoped that he could find her and that it wasn't too late.