The Wants and Needs

Summary: I've always wanted things I couldn't get. But there was one thing that I strived to gain, even if it was forbidden. Her/him...

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"I wanted and wanted until my mind went black"

Syaoran's POV

Ever since the first day I met her, and her disgustingly cheerful demeanor, I was somehow…attracted. Her full cherry red lips, dazzling emerald eyes, silky auburn hair, and creamy porcelain skin were somewhat intriguing. Her innocent pools of emerald always shined with joy and the way her lips pouted and beckoned were well nigh irresistible.

I got to know, actually know her, through Tomoyo and Eriol. She became a close friend, and around her I always unconsciously lowered my barriers that separated me from this world. What developed between us was an unbreakable friendship but all I wanted was more; it just wasn't enough.

So that was when I started fantasizing. I wondered what she tasted like if I were to kiss her, I wondered what it would feel like if I run my hands through her silken hair, I wondered what she would have smelled like if I were to bury my nose in the crook of her neck, I wondered until all I could think about was her.

I knew I was a love sick puppy, but I couldn't help it; her beautiful image was etched into my mind. I felt inferior to her godly beauty. I wanted to pull away and withdraw from her but it was impossible; she dominated my mind. There was no way I would ever be with her because the clan just didn't allow the likes of me to be married to a middle-class girl, so I was stuck in the sidelines wanting and needing to no avail. I was tempting to just "damn the Elders" but that would dishonor the clan and my father. I was just stuck between everything her or the clan, her or the clan, her or the clan...


Sakura's POV

I was always drawn somehow to the rare warmth that he radiated during our time together. From the split second Tomoyo and Eriol introduced me to him a few months ago, I was rather afraid. He towered over me and had a cold, icy glance that would send shivers down anyone's back. He was stoicism at its best, but as I spent more time with him, I realized though that he was quite nice and had a gruffness in him that was quite amusing.

We grew closer together with each passing moment, each passing day, but I restrained myself from taking a further step. There was no doubt that I wanted him, I wanted to be held in his arms and always listen to his soothing voice but he was way out of my league. I was a commoner and he was the heir to the mighty Li Clan; we could never mix. It pained me to think that I could never be with him; I even doubted he would ever return my feelings even if I voiced it.

I know I will only ever watch him as he becomes ever closer never able to make a move and that when he leaves he would shatter my heart to thousands of tiny pieces. I want to banish his dark rich amber eyes away but I can't. His slight quirk of lips and amused glances will always be planted forever in my head to torture me in my sleep, to remind me of my hopelessness. Ironically, I want to hold on to him to bring him ever more closer.


Regular POV

At the end they chose what was for the best. Syaoran left and Sakura accepted it. The look they had in their eyes as they separated was heart-breaking but they decided to move on and forget about each other. Silently each prayed that they would never see each other again. They just didn't how wrong they were; the future was going to make them fall flat on their face, and it would be beautiful but very, very ugly.


Author's Note: Hehe the future would be very ugly indeed. So this my first time trying (note trying) to write a romance fic. Please read and review and tell me what you think about it...thankies