Encounter

Chapter 1

To Start

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Yuri stood at the lobby hotel giving Viktor a tight hug before he flew back to Japan to be with Makkachin. After receiving a call from home that Makkachin was rushed to the vet and not doing well after getting into the steamed buns that were set as a memorial offering they quickly made arrangements for Viktor to fly home.

"Ask Yakov if you don't know anything. And hug him if you need to. I know you can do this Yuri."

"Thanks Viktor, you should go before you miss your flight." He knew he needed to but he didn't want to let him go. "Tell Makkachin I hope he gets better soon."

"I will. Remember, I may not be here with you but I am in spirit."

Watching Viktor get into the waiting taxi Yuri went back to the hotel to try and get some rest before tomorrow. He had to place at least forth to stand a chance at the grand prix. Learning from the cup of China he decided to start taking a sleeping pill before a major competition. He would need one tonight especially since a lot was riding on his shoulders, and he was worried about Viktor, and Makkachin.

At his alarm he woke up feeling like a bus hit him. Checking his phone he saw Viktor left him a couple messages, one to say he landed safely and another wishing him luck for today. Feeling like crap he slowly got his legs over the side of the bed and wished his nerves would settle. He did not need this today of all.

Sitting under the bleachers, Yuri wished he felt better for his free skate. He felt so nauseous he wasn't sure how he was going to do this. What was going on with him? It had to be nerves, right? He had a lot on his mind from knowing he had to do well or else he would lose his chance at the grand prix and he would lose Viktor. Feeling his stomach turn at the thought he ran into the men's room.

Just finishing his program he ran to the side of the rink barely making it to a garbage can. He didn't even have time to bow to the crowd. Having a second to lift his head he saw a TV camera pointed right at him not that far away. Fantastic. That's all he needed, for this to be all the news. Could someone just end him now? Getting the chance to move away he noticed Yakov was watching him and the medical staff was next to him. Well at least the camera men were focusing on the award ceremony.

Landing back in Japan, Yuri slowly left the plane and headed down the terminal. He didn't want to face anyone. He didn't want to do anything but hide forever. Hearing a dog bark he saw who looked like Makkachin on the other side of the glass. Looking up he saw Viktor meet his eyes before he got up. Seeing Viktor run to that gate Yuri just stopped where he was. There was no way he could face him, not now, not ever. Oh god, what was he going to do? Unable to stay there forever he started to move his legs again. Taking it one step at him he stopped at the glass doors wishing they would break and leave him trapped in the terminal. Watching them open and Viktor's arms open for him he couldn't help himself and ran into them. He felt dizzy and sick and he just wanted to cry and he was terrified of talking to Viktor but he was happy to be home.

Waiting for the train from airport to Hasetsu Yuri knew Viktor wanted them to talk. He kept looking at him.

"Yuri. Are you mad at me? You won't talk to me."

"No. I just want to be left alone."

"But,"

"Forget it Viktor, just leave me alone."

"Are you feeling better at least? Can I ask what happened?"

"Food poisoning. Makkachin? He is okay?"

"Yea! He is doing just fine. I mean look at his happy face! He joined me to get you to thank you for letting me be here for him."

He didn't want to, but Yuri found it hard not to smile at that. And looking at Makkachin with his tongue out and his tail wagging he couldn't avoid that.

"And…you're talking to me."

"You won't shut up, it's hard to ignore." Snapping back at him Yuri got on the arriving train as the doors opened. He knew Viktor was taken aback by his attitude but he wanted this. He wanted him to get so mad he walked away.

Lying in bed Yuri kept the covers over his head wishing he could wake up from this nightmare. What was he going to do? Hearing a knock on his bedroom door he hoped it was his mother, let it be anyone but Viktor. He didn't want to talk to his mother either but at least he didn't have to deal with the confliction as much. At Viktor's voice he yelled for him to go away and heard him yell back that he was just passing a message along from his parents. Viktor sounded aggravated, good, he need him to give up on him and go back to Russia. Knowing his mother wanted him though he forced his legs off the bed and made himself leave his room. All he really wanted to do was stay in bed and try to forget everything. His life was over, and he just wanted to accept that.

"Mother? You and dad wanted to see me?" Coming into the kitchen he saw they had made him a nice welcome back, and we are proud of you meal. Damnit, why did they have to do this? Feeling his eyes start to water he ran out of the room and out of the house. He needed fresh air. He had to be anywhere else but here.

Finding himself at Ice Castle he walked in and saw Yuuko working behind the counter. At her smile she saw it dropped just as quickly as it went up.

"Yuri! Welcome back. May I ask….how are you feeling?"

"Can we talk somewhere in private?"

"Sure. There is the office in the back. Is everything okay?"

"No. I just…I really need your help Yuuko." Starting to break down and cry again he heard her come out from behind the counter and lead him to the office. Taking a seat where she offered he grabbed a tissue off the desk and wiped his face as she moved a chair closer to him.

"What is going on Yuri? Did something happen in Russia? Something more than…well… you know."

"I knew everyone here saw that." Drying his eyes he played with his hands until he felt her grab them with her own.

"You're one of my best friends Yuri. Talk to me. What is the matter? Is someone really sick?"

"I need Viktor to go home Yuuko. I need him to go back to Russia and never remember me." At those words he felt his heart break, he didn't want to be saying them but he knew he had to do this. For Viktor's future.

"Why does he have to go back? What about the Grand Prix and coaching you?"

"I'm done Yuuko. Nothing is public yet but, well…I can't compete anymore."

"But you placed forth right? And with the silver from,"

"That's not why." Clamming up again he looked at the floor between them. Feeling her squeeze his hands he looked up to see her eyes. She was so concerned for him.

"Please Yuri, talk to me. Let me help you."

"Yuuko I…I don't know what to do, what decision would be the better one. I told everyone that what happened in Russia was from food poisoning but really, it's because I'm pregnant, Yuuko." Feeling her loosen the grip on their hands he felt his heart sink until he felt his body move forward into her arms.

"Oh Yuri." From her soft words to her gentle embrace he felt himself start crying again. She was the first person he told since he found out and it felt good to tell someone.

When he pulled away, he dried his eyes again and took a deep breath. Seeing her being so supportive as she rested on hand on his knee he knew he made the right choice by coming here.

"I don't know what to do Yuuko. I don't if I should have the baby or not. If I do than I have to tell my parents, the ISU, I have to tell everyone. If I don't I can just act like none of this happened."

"What does Viktor think? Have you told him this yet since I'm figuring he is the baby's father?"

"I haven't told him yet. And I don't want to. Either way I decide I don't want to tell him."

"You have to tell him Yuri. He has a right to know."

"I know that! But. But, if I do and he stays than I've ruined his career. I'm not stupid Yuuko I know the longer he stays with me the more I kill his career. He is more established than me. And a lot of people already hate me for taking him away this season. It may not be the easiest thing to do but I can do it alone. I want him to get so frustrated with me he just leaves. I drop out of the grand prix, say it's a health thing or something and we never speak to each other again."

"Yuri, as you're friend, as the one you came to for advice I'm telling you not to do this. I won't tell you either to have the baby, not have the baby, to keep them or to give them up, but I'm telling you to tell Viktor. Don't push him away. He cares for you a lot. He was so worried about you when he saw you getting sick."

"I can't Yuuko. I can't face him."

"Then don't do it today. Give yourself a chance to breathe and think things over. But just make sure you do it. When does the ISU have to know your decision?"

"They gave me till next week. If I don't get back to them they are going to keep me in but we both know they won't let me on the ice for the final if I'm pregnant."

"Then take a few days and think things through. And Yuri. Tell Viktor." Giving him another hug he kept it going for a while. He really needed hugs.

Coming back to the house he felt his whole body dragging. Seeing his mother helping a customer she smiled at him with worry covering her face. He needed to face his fears, just not today. Asking for just a day alone he apologized and went back upstairs. Seeing the door to Viktor's room closed he debated just going to him. Maybe not telling him everything but he wanted to be close to him one more time before he sent him back to Russia. Letting his heart crack the rest of the way he went into his own room, closed the door and went back under his covers to try and rest.

With sunlight hitting his face, Yuri ran out of bed and into the bathroom to throw up the little he ate yesterday. This was not good. He knew morning sickness didn't go over after two days but he was pretty much okay all day yesterday. He got sick before his flight but he managed to make it through without a problem. Pulling his head from the toilet he turned his head only to feel his heart stop beating as he saw Viktor was at the sink watching him with his toothbrush in his mouth. *shit*

"Yuri…"

"Just leave me alone Viktor. I'm fine."

"You're not fine. Food poisoning doesn't usually last three days." Knowing Yuri had a second to run away while Viktor rinsed his mouth out he tried to stand and leave. Feeling his hand on his arm to stop him he needed to keep his back towards the other. He couldn't face him.

"What is going on with you? Why won't you talk to me? What did I do?"

"Nothing is going on. I'm fine."

"This isn't fine! Stop lying to me and tell me what is going on!"

Pulling his arm away from Viktor he did what he had to do. He only hoped his face wasn't showing his breaking heart. "I want you to go home Viktor. I'm done! You and I are over! I am leaving figure skating and I'm leaving you!" Going back to his room he slammed the door before he fell to his knees and cried. Putting his face into the floor he kept his hands around his abdomen while he tried to convince himself this was for the best. He was going to have a baby, a baby whose father he loved more than anything else in the world. But, he knew he couldn't keep him here, he couldn't tie him down, he couldn't tell the world they were going to share a created life together, not after knowing this all happened because of one stupid mistake.

Feeling his stomach tossing from all the crying, Yuri quickly sat up and grabbed his garbage can knowing he wasn't going to make it to the bathroom. How long had he been laying on the floor? Once he was able to move he grabbed his phone to see Yuuko had text him much earlier this morning to see how he was doing. Not getting the vibe Viktor told her what he said he text her that he ended things with him and still wasn't sure what came next with himself yet. He knew she wouldn't be happy with him for this but this was his decision in the end. Getting up to take out his garbage can he was grateful he could sneak outside and sneak back in without anyone seeing him. Getting to the top of the stairs he stopped as he saw a shadow. Realizing he almost physically ran into Viktor he met his eyes and looked away.

"You are still here."

"Yea. Well…I need a few hours to pack. And I was hoping we could talk."

"There really isn't anything to talk about Viktor."

"Why are you quitting? Why are you breaking up with me? I love you Yuri."

"Don't you think I know that!?" Pulling himself back he looked away from Viktor. His stomach was starting to flip again. Please, not now.

"You're the one who told me I had to come back here."

"Russia isn't the reason."

"Then what is it? Please Yuri, I have a right to know what I did." Why did he have to sound so calm and heartbroken? Couldn't Viktor see this wasn't easy for him? Not getting a chance say anything else he pushed past him to barely make it to the bathroom. Feeling Viktor's hands on his back as he threw up bile he wasn't sure he had in him, he wished he would just give up. He wasn't making this any easier.

"I'm really worried about you Yuri. Even if you do want us to end, at least let me know you'll be alright." At his whispered words he turned to face him. With his loving, compassionate eyes that were filled with sorrow and worry staring at him he moved himself away and pulled himself together.

"Can I take you to the doctor's at least? Please, let me do something."

"You've done enough Viktor. Trust me. Besides, I don't need a doctor."

"Yes you do Yuri. I mean, have you even eaten anything since you've been back? I don't see what could be still in your system to keep making you this sick."

Looking down into the sink Yuri took a deep breath. He had no other choice, he had to tell Viktor the truth. Whispering, "forgive me Viktor." He looked into the bathroom mirror and met his lover's eyes in the reflection, "A doctor already told me. I…I'm pregnant, Viktor."

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