The only thing I want

Chapter 1

What I wanted to say

Sam stood in the middle of CID and sighed to herself. It was 3 days until Christmas, Abi was staying with her boyfriend over the holiday and all she had to look forward to was a cold lonely house, since her heater kept clonking out.

Over the next few minutes, people began to fill the office and she put on a happy face, something she had been doing a lot recently. Ever since Phil had left for special ops for the second time, she had felt lonely, like she had no one to talk to, to confide in. of course, she hadn't admitted this to anyone, because that would mean admitting to herself that she missed Phil Hunter and that was not something she was ready to do.

She was dimly aware that someone was talking to her. She turned around to look at Jo.

"Huh?"

"I was just saying I have those case notes you wanted."

"Oh, thanks Jo." She took the folder in her hand and walked into her office, shutting the door behind her. She sat in her chair, head in hands and debated whether or not to get into contact with him again. Luckily Neil was out on a case so she had the office to herself.

She decided to email him, that way she could prevent talking to him directly and not fine tuning what she said. There was a beep and then the screen went blank. She tried the reset button, but nothing happened, she tried it again and then concluded that it wasn't going to come back on. She sighed. If she wanted to email Phil, then she would have to use someone else's computer, before she bottled out.

"Jo, can I borrow your computer, mines out again."

"Sure Gov, I've got to go and get a witness statement anyway." She replied as she walked out of CID. Sam sat down and opened a new email. Of course what she wanted to write was how much she missed him, how miserable she was without him and then confess her undying love for him. She spent ages finding the right words to say and eventually, she decided to keep it short, simple and to the point.

'Hey

I miss you,

Maybe we can meet up some time?

S x'

Kiss? No kiss? Kiss.

She clicked on the send button and the message disappeared and she was left wondering if she had done the right thing.

Hey thanks for reading, please review and I will ud soon coz my computer's working again, but in a couple of weeks we're boxing it up for moving lol. What's the point? Anyway, like I said review and I will ud soon. Luv Sam xxx